Dear Die-ry ,
2:20 AM

I saved the whole clump of thing I wrote as draft .
Yes Im saying it to the public . Yes I want everyone know .
Because I want to let anyone who read this to know that , I dont have the hands , and brain , and mind , to put my feelings into proper words anymore . Everything sounds so wrong and look so fake . I dont like it .

I like being myself dont I ?
But am I ?
Arent I ?
I dont know :/

Birthday coming .
Telling it to the public again .
Because I want peopleto wish me happy birthday .
I need love , care and happiness , finally a proper celebration on that faithful day .
IT'S FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME PLEASE .





Aiyar , whatever I type now , I'll still be in serious 'danger' . I couldnt type properly la . Type le backspace , type backspace .

Nothing sounds right enough to be posted , like , I will make people unhappy which will result in me being unhappy so why post them although I will feel happier posting out my feelings ? Fuck leih .

If you complain about my blog say until like this , then , why arent you there for me ? Why ?!



Im just so sad . Isnt sad just the very right word for everything ? Yes !
So , Im sad . Seriously sad .








I want to cry .




Boyfriend , where are you ?
Please call me now if you can sense me ):
I really need you la !!!!!!!!
Im falling so deep manz .
I cant lose you .


Im going out for fresh air . I cant tahan le .

I ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ YehKianhui , ):