Dear Die-ry ,
12:01 AM

Charlotte , Alrights will relink you soon (:
Jiaren , Yeah yeah , soon hopefully ! Thanks cutie , have been down for last fewdays , guess Im alright . Your love life alright ? Last long okay , love you !
Abigail , Okay sister , link you up real soon , Im alright already , takecare alrights ?
Xinting , LOL , so cute can you , how can ?! Okok , I love chatting to you manzzz . Takecare , I might not be a good advisor but is a good listener and always there :D
JiaEn , YESYES cherry , it does rhymes , haha ! Quitted schooling . Tell you more if I see you . Do takecare . Yeah , hope so =/ PLEASE DONT FORGET ME FOR GOODNESS SAKE !! :O
Sandra , Yes friend , will link you soon (:
Aurora , Aiyar , dont worry man , I love you the same too anyway (:

Final decision , again . I couldnt keep promises for myself . Fuck . Useless person . Not ?
I will become someone good in future . Just with enough money to keep me , and my family alive .
I just ask for simple happiness . I dont need to get an office work in future . Manager ? CEO ? Secretary ? Nah . Not me . For now .
I dont say my opinions wont change , or I wont regret . I dont promise anything .
Free for you to scold me in future , say that I took my parents good treatment for granted .
I know I definitely have the best parents in the whole world , if not better .
A nice and warm family . Sufficient food and money for anything , everything . Just right . Enough .

But Im sorry dad and mum . Disappointed you guys once again . Wasted your money on new school uniform and books . Sorry for being such a useless daughter , stubborn and dont know what's right for myself .
I know studying give me good future , I know I walk this road and I will never get poor .
Renata is right , she has a bright future ahead , mine is tiring .
I might never know how tough working is .
But Im willing to give it a try . I hope I wont fail myself even in work . Although I've some sort of prediction that I'll . This time , I will persevere . That's what I said . I dont even know whether I could do it .

Failure uh ?
Not being pessimistic . Dont ever try to persuade me that Im not a failure or what , because I know myself better than you do .

You should have guess what Im going to do . My msn nick and those questions . Yes , Im going to announce that Im going to drop out of school , hey , a school dropout .

Im not proud of being one . Maybe Im . But Im just not boasting .
Dont ask me whether Im really quitting school . My blog says and stated that Im , isnt that downright clear enough ?

Im sorry for giving this attitude , but Im taken in and persuaded by my own intentions , I dont wish to have someone move my decisions again . Please dont ruin my life . I almost got stuck in between going school and not going school . Please let me stay focused , just support me for going out to work , alright ?

Thanks Abigail , Yenliang , Brenda , Renata , Miaoling , Wenting , Linli and 3ED for taking care of me in Northland for that short 3 days . Really appreciated it , learnt abit of lessons , make some good friends that are really nice to me , and lose a precious wallet with lots of memories , wth . Haha , but overall , I was happy in that school . Really thankyou . I must have disappointed Mr Tai's & VP's expectation .

Alvin Lee , my dearest didi , Joycie , Aiai must be disappointed too . But Im sorry . The stress I have to face every night thinking of school . School phobia , Cutie said and I quoted it all along . Yes , I have school phobia , and Im not going to fight it , Im letting it win . Im not seeing any fucking counscillors , I really hate them . Instead of helping me , they turned me upside down , left , right , and back again . Yeah , screw you .

Still , Riverside gave the best memories ever . Remembered always , I miss the food , classroom , few teachers and alot of people . Screw the current prxxxxxxl the breadman , you've totally no authority in your students mind to control the school . ASK those students , who ever like you to stay in Riverside ? Hey , what a thick-skin lao zha bo . Those who said yes must be seriously fucking par jiao and I really wanna dig their eyes out with forks and use a loudspeaker to scream in their ears . Fucking angry ! Riverside was a superb school in Sec 1 ' o6 . Was , WAS , W-A-S .

Yeah , still , I want to thank Renata & Yenliang , utmostly persuading me to stay for my own good . Millions of thanks , super touched for their care and concern . Really .
Aiai , Joycie & Boyfriend , supporting me all the way in whatever I do . They'll be by my side always , I know it . They've always been . Going to school has been a way of neglecting them , Im sorry . Maybe working will make me neglect you more , but Im sure it'll give me a clearer mind to rearrange my time properly so that I could spend time with you guys .
Say Hi to freedom and work , Bye to homework and schoolmates . Farewell .

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OKAYS . Big big relief to have written the whole chunk , Im happie . And Im happy that Boyfriend is happy because Im happier . Dearest , hao ai ni !

Ate lunch with Joycie , Boyfriend & Juntong , I ate fishball noodles .
Stomachache , went home . In between , conflicts with dearest once again , but okay afterwards .
1.1o pm Shutter postponed to 3.15 pm at CWP with Boyfriend , Juntong & Carin . Movie was nice , something like thai-version , only easier to understand and prettier actress :D
BOYFRIEND WAS SOSOSO DAMN SCARED I SWEAR .
Haha !
I wasnt better , but , Im still good . At least I dont have nightmares from horror movies , HAHA .
Boyfriend too for tonight , he'll be dreaming of me !

Went to Fragrant , Boyfriend and I played like little kids :X
Juntong & Carin keep laughing ! They're sweet though , especially Carin .
Hehs .
Went Vista to eat dinner with Dearest . Ate fisball noodles again and shared coke . I love being alone with my boyfriend .
He go smoking smoking , and slacking slacking .
Sent me home , and he went back fragrant . Missing my dumbass since then :D

Chat on MSN , suddenly with alot alot of people .
I've been missing Xinting alot alot and I dont know why ! I need her cheerful smile I guess !
Get to know a Riversidian through Leonard Lim , LOL .
Her name is Siyan , nice to meet her :D
Renata talked to me , love talking to her and telling her my life , thanks girl , for your precious advices . But really , I've made my decision . Thanks and good luck .
Then talk shit with Boyfriend , lmao . Talked on phone with him , goddamn hell , first time hear him so ki-siao manzzz . O-M-F-G .
He must be having a really sweet dream , dearest boyfriend , I love you .
Sorry for quarrelling with you always . Finally settle down in peace and harmony , I hope (:
LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU .

Re-piercing tongue with Joycie Girlfriend , weeeeeeeeeets . Hope boyfriend dont mind much !
Cant wait , cant wait .
Getting up at 11am , so going to sleep soon !
{You get to read more blog posts when I not schooling right (:}

I love 30th , happy day . Lucky I postponed time to 3.15 .
3 more days to 1st month with Aurora , loveeeee .

♥ Kianhui

Dear Die-ry ,
9:50 PM

(tags replied below)
Northland is good :D
Made new friends . Just realised one of my online friends is in Northland . LOL .
Friendly people ! Hate chinese teacher and lesson to the utmost core .
Roar .
Took 3 buses to reach home -.-
Needa copy all the notes from Maths .
HAVENT STARTED LA , SHIT .

Ate lunch with Haoren and Joycie loveeee at Viva foodcourt . Boyfriend pei-ed us . After that I went home . My SIM card spoiled , tmd . Spoil my mood lor .
_l_

Blahhhed . No mood at all .
Dearest boyfrienddddd . Please try to understand me . I do understand me , BUT I dont know how to make you feel better , I am sorry .
I love you .
Please be there for me alrights ?

School is making me fucking stressed up . Is my heart and mind trying to make me stressed I know T.T

Xinting , Yeaps ! Today I suddenly miss Riverside when I was in Northland leih ! Yeah , this weekend or what alright (: I am happy , I guess ! You must be happy too okay ! I support you !
Boyfriend , Ya la , you love me , I love you as much too ^^
Jianing , LOL , I finally know what you mean . Dhen divorce with him la xD HAHAHA fakeee ! Its the same , he still love me ok (:
Huiwen , Yes , shall link you soon sister ! Yesh , we'll meet and go out someday one . Takecare and loves too x3
Joey , Good good :D I will if I free and I can go in ! Hehs , yes , much missed (:
Meiling , STEADY ! I will I will (: I hope you've overcome your fear eh ! I miss you , steady ):
Hadi , LOLLLL . My sitting partner ! I will miss you one , miss sitting with you ! Enjoy sitting with Lena instead eh ^^
Yvonne , YOOOOOOOOOOO :D Sb shuang la , HAHA . Thanks alot ar (: I miss you laughter manzz . See you yvonne :D
Jiaren , !!!! Thanks for chatting with me in MSN today ^^ Hehs , happy they tagged , BUT WHAT DID XINGWEI TAG AR ??!!?! Lol . -.- I miss talking with you cutie ): Hope to see you soon !
Xingwei , Yeah HI "Hadi" who always have me in his heart , LOL . -.-----
Lynette , OKOKKKK . I'll link you after I post this up (:
Aurora , I MISS YOU ALREADY ! And ya lor , suddenly got so many people tag , I very very very happie !! :DDDDDDDDDD

♥Kianhui

Dear Die-ry ,
9:21 PM

23/3/o8 :D

cousin , godbro & ongminmin
dearest mummy , i love you more than anyone in the world !
sweet godbro and my effing messy hair !
loved you all muack !
perfect family , my sister's not there . isnt this picture perfect ?

Dear Die-ry ,
4:53 PM

Today I have reached a turning point. It may be all over but the crying -- but I have the strength to move on and create a better situation for myself. You may say that I never saw it coming or learned the hard way, but with profound change comes new opportunity. One door closes -- another opens. So tear down the wall, and rebuild anew.

Okay . Dont misunderstand this .
Im especially thinking of my new school from yesterday till now . Excited .
It's a starting of a new life . I will update everyone of my new life too ^^
Actually , the above can also talk about what they said about life . Oh well .

I missed talking and seeing Aiai .
I agreed with Aiai , having almost everything I have , but I couldnt be happy , sometimes .
Those true kind of happiness you know ?
Okay .
Boyfriend dont worry about me ^^
And please take care of yourself , sometimes its me who's worrying about you !
Going to find my boyfriend and girlfriend and HJKs le !
Byebyes :D

♥Kianhui

Dear Die-ry ,
11:03 AM

And .

♥Kianhui

Dear Die-ry ,
12:51 AM

OKAY . Love today (:

Morning went to Northland to buy books and Yishun Central to buy uniform . YES can skip PE for Monday , no PE in stock , HAHAHA . I hate PE .
Uniform is ultra cool , I like .


Went home to try on my uniform <3>

My new uniform . Bye Riveriside , I'll miss you .

♥Kianhui

Dear Die-ry ,
7:44 PM

Okay . I am happy today . The only thing unhappy is having a fucking headache and feeling so sleepy . Plus , Aurora isnt down at fragrant and I ate lunch with Kianhui , Jason , Ahtong & Carin instead . Haha . Get well soon Joycie ! Beautex for you (: Before I go on with how my day goes , look at this , totally true , I am going to believe in Horoscope soso much already !

You may be facing a turning point in your romantic situation, or that you have achieved your romantic goals in an unexpected or private way. Like the Peggy Lee song, you may now be asking, 'Is that all there is?' While this sentiment is normal, it is wise not to gloss over it. It is a good time to reflect on fundamentally divergent or opposing ideas for your goals as a couple.

Okay . The thing I am so happy about is that before this , for the days before when I am not part of a couple they didnt say , but today when I feel so romantic and couplish and they said it like that also , true hor ?

My power today lies in remarkable gratitude. I am not a victim. There are no lost causes. "I've been there, done that, and know suffering -- but it's all good." I'm still standing. "Can't touch this." Self-pity is an excuse to do nothing. To appeal to sympathy for pity's sake is to seek affirmation of the choice to do nothing. I am empowered by the spirit and support of meaningful experience and I transform with silent resilience.

This one is yesterday one . Yeah , I am full of gratitude yesterday . I've been there to break someone heart and suffer myself . Doing things for other people out of sympathy isnt a way :D

Still got still got .

Gemini
Today is one of those rare flawless days, so make the most of it and include your honey. Take the day off and do something you'll both enjoy. Take advantage of this good day.

Capricorn
Every day can't be perfect. But as long as your sweetie is by your side, you don't mind taking on the weight of the world's problems. As a couple, you feel invincible.

HAHA . True I guess , today is a very good day that I enjoyed alot . Thanks dearest <3

You know what I like about this horoscope ? It's about how accurate it is . Because I try reading other horoscope and they doesnt even mean a single thing to me . LOL .

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Morning went Northland . They will test me for one month , so I get to wear the uniform , PE shirt ( I RED HOUSE LEIH CHOOSE MYSELF ONE :D) , study in that school . Lol . Kinda happy and nervous , but stressed and abit of sad .

Went home to bathe and waited for Kianhui & other people to get out of school . KELVIN T AH CHING very cute . Haha . I love his baggy pants . Very long never see Marcus & Shanran also , talked to them abit :D Then raining very big , before that everyone except us go off liao , dhen we go Viva eat lor :D

Went fragrant awhile and go cwp find HUILAY to take my POA book . Maisiaosiao , I MUST get it back , one book for 20+$ siol . So expensive . Paper only ma sell so ex for what T.T
At home keep cursing people for selling till so ex . Was looking at the book list and I sot ar !
#%^%&

Thanks alot Huilay , talked to her and tell her reasons for not going Riverside Sec anymore .
I am sorry , dearests in 3/9 & KZB ):

Movie tmr with Xinting , Thursday and Friday with Kianhui or Joycie & HJKs , Sunday with Sister . WEE .

Okay . Happy Jiamin going off because she got a fucking headache .


♥Kianhui

Dear Die-ry ,
12:56 AM

I love the way how retarded he look <3