Dear Die-ry ,
2:50 PM
2:50 PM
Im missing many 2/7' o7 friends .
Zubaidah , Shenghao , Denzel .
Zhaoyi .
Jiaen , Liting .
Jiayee .
Went their blogs . Changed . Things do change . I miss you .
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Ok Im back from anything and never watch any movie today tmd !!!
My sister is sick T.T
But I met my boyfriend de whole day !
Slacked at his house again (:
DARLING COOKED MAGGIE MEE FOR ME AGAIN LOR !
Im very happ because noodles he cook are always so delicious :D
I got take many photos heehee . ME and boyfriend also take many photos also!
I go edit photo first tmr I then update .
Gtg , byebyes . Heehee . Im in a very good moodddd !
Darling Im very happy like this (:♥Kianhui
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
1:15 AM
1:15 AM
Tell you what , I totally wanna watch Hansel and Gretel . It's going to be so ...... thrilling . I must catch it with my sister tmr , or my boyfriend when Im having off day (:
Yes sort of make sense to me . So true . Maybe I should start to listen to my boyfriend's opinion =/ It might be a fact ! Im too stubborn to be listening ....
Boyfriend and I are planning to go out to watch movie and suddenly I've to work on Thursday .
Let's replan darling ):
I wanna dye my hair .
But my mummy say I'll look like ahlian if I dye my hair at this age .
O.o
What if I bleach my hair white ?!?!
Can .... ?
Sky of love I rmb heehee .
Cool right . My hair is growing damn slow . I wanna have long hair leih ):
Something meaningful to share .
Girl :
Go ahead and kiss him
Go ahead and say how you feel
You just gotta show him your heart
Boy :
It dont take a word
Not a single word
Go one and kiss the girl
-Little Mermaid
It's meaningful to me if it doesnt to you !
Know what ? I have the urge to buy a little Ariel book .
I want the long version like Alice in Wonderland long version .
I really want to buy ! :D
Money comes my way .
Im not emo-ing .
But Im sick of darkness .
But think of it , dark is an absence of light .
Dark is therefore not a noun .
It cannot be seen (:
It's not long before my light comes , heehee !
Im getting abit sot sot in my head now , hahahahha !!!
Let's get back to life ...
I miss Aiai ! I've so little free time to meet her up . Work work work .
Nvm one day I shall treat her to Starbucks again (:
Much rmbed always .
Belle !!
I feel like shopping again , I feel like buying a wallet again =/
I love Deviantart to dddd core manzzz + you .. *Shy*
Pukes . HEH .
K K .
I really do love you .
ANYWAY ...
Hmmm ..
HERE'S A HAPPY NEWS .
My mummy came into my room . Guess what she told me ?
I RECEIVED SOTONG PAPA LETTER !!!
CANNOT BELIEVE WHAT YOU SEE , WHAT I TYPED ??
I GOT A LETTER BY TNT !
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
I cried while reading this letter . Again . Lol .
Source of happiness for the day .
Im going to take a photo of what he say that makes me so damn happy x)
Sotong is alright he is ok he is fine fine fine !
And we miss him sooo much !
Oh yeah , I miss Jianing suddenly .
Sotong is the bond between us , I feel (:
Jianing our birthdays are coming soon !!
I'll nvr forget your birthday , heh .
Fuckkk I miss the past again .
Nvm , my another source of happiness is going to make me smile tmr .
Mr Retard , my boyfriend x)
Hansel and Gretel
♥ Kianhui
I totally love the trailer !
Really looks damn thrilling .
Fuck fuck fuck . Im so into horror and romance movies .
Oh romance .
Romance comedy are the best of my film records .
ROMANCE .
Definitely , Maybe . Have been waiting for it to show for sooooooo long and now no one wants to watch with me .
Well again my sister might catch this with me tmr .
I got a boyfriend that hates romance movie ...
My dream of having a boyfriend to watch romance movie with me ................ ):
YEHKIANHUI ................. !
Owe me a romance movie hor ..
Ok I really wanna catch any movie tmr that's nice and make me smileeee :DDDDD
Im going to change job again .
To somewhere in ....... Bishan !
Job ? Shhhh . Wait for photos .
Today I work at Chinatown again . I got a few pictures of heart-shaped bak gua that I cant wait to share .
This phone no cable ma ... So Im asking boyfriend to help me transfer tmr .
Speaking of my super boyfriend . I nvr see him for one day and I like ... Miss him already .
Tmr Im meeting Mr Yeh :D
x)
x)
x)
Im super slacked at work today and no one scold me . I love the people who worked with me .
XiaoZhen and MaryAuntie .
They dote me alot !!!!
I abit dont feel like changing my work ...
But I decided le so . My new work *twinkles in eyes*
Money !!!!
Chinkchink .
Heehee .
Gemini - Ariel (:
Remind yourself that opinions are not facts. When arguing with your honey over something you passionately believe in, you may try to sway influence to your side. Be open to changing your own mind.
Capricorn - Super Boyfriend
Even with all of your preparation, the best laid-out plans can go awry. The key here is to be flexible with an infinite amount of possibilities. Have a back-up plan with your sweetie ready.
Yes sort of make sense to me . So true . Maybe I should start to listen to my boyfriend's opinion =/ It might be a fact ! Im too stubborn to be listening ....
Boyfriend and I are planning to go out to watch movie and suddenly I've to work on Thursday .
Let's replan darling ):
I wanna dye my hair .
But my mummy say I'll look like ahlian if I dye my hair at this age .
O.o
What if I bleach my hair white ?!?!
Can .... ?
Sky of love I rmb heehee .
Cool right . My hair is growing damn slow . I wanna have long hair leih ):Something meaningful to share .
Girl :Go ahead and kiss him
Go ahead and say how you feel
You just gotta show him your heart
Boy :
It dont take a word
Not a single word
Go one and kiss the girl
-Little Mermaid
It's meaningful to me if it doesnt to you !
Know what ? I have the urge to buy a little Ariel book .
I want the long version like Alice in Wonderland long version .
I really want to buy ! :D
Money comes my way .
Im not emo-ing .
But Im sick of darkness .
But think of it , dark is an absence of light .
Dark is therefore not a noun .
It cannot be seen (:
It's not long before my light comes , heehee !
Im getting abit sot sot in my head now , hahahahha !!!
Let's get back to life ...
I miss Aiai ! I've so little free time to meet her up . Work work work .
Nvm one day I shall treat her to Starbucks again (:
Much rmbed always .
Belle !!
I feel like shopping again , I feel like buying a wallet again =/
I love Deviantart to dddd core manzzz + you .. *Shy*
Pukes . HEH .
K K .
I really do love you .
ANYWAY ...
Hmmm ..
HERE'S A HAPPY NEWS .
My mummy came into my room . Guess what she told me ?
I RECEIVED SOTONG PAPA LETTER !!!
CANNOT BELIEVE WHAT YOU SEE , WHAT I TYPED ??
I GOT A LETTER BY TNT !
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
I cried while reading this letter . Again . Lol .
Source of happiness for the day .
Im going to take a photo of what he say that makes me so damn happy x)
Sotong is alright he is ok he is fine fine fine !
And we miss him sooo much !
Oh yeah , I miss Jianing suddenly .
Sotong is the bond between us , I feel (:
Jianing our birthdays are coming soon !!
I'll nvr forget your birthday , heh .
Fuckkk I miss the past again .
Nvm , my another source of happiness is going to make me smile tmr .
Mr Retard , my boyfriend x)
Hansel and Gretel
♥ Kianhui
Dear Die-ry ,
10:48 PM
10:48 PM
I was not in the mood ..
Until I saw this cat .
Who says cats are ugly ?!
Ok kittens are cute but cats are not .
But cats are cute too what ?!?! T.T
I want to have a kitten .
Like this .
I used to be a dancer , and I'll rmb (:
Today sucks big time .
Baby and others will be alright .
Hanjie will be alright too .
Everyone will be happy shall we ?
I think my blogskin seriously need to change . But I dont know how to edit .
Suggestions ? =/
Im sorry Im sorry Im sorry .
I dont know what else I can say Im very guilty but I dont feel good too .
My fault this time , really .
Im sorry .
Until I saw this cat .
Who says cats are ugly ?!Ok kittens are cute but cats are not .
But cats are cute too what ?!?! T.T
I want to have a kitten .
Like this .
Trouble with heart and love .
I think my heart got this sickening problem that I seriously hate .
Im seriously attituded right ?
I've this attitude that shoos everyone away right ?
I feel like ********************* myself .
):
):
):
I hope Jiayee will be a famous dancer in future :D
I used to be a dancer , and I'll rmb (:
Today sucks big time .
Baby and others will be alright .
Hanjie will be alright too .
Everyone will be happy shall we ?
I think my blogskin seriously need to change . But I dont know how to edit .
Suggestions ? =/
Im sorry Im sorry Im sorry .
I dont know what else I can say Im very guilty but I dont feel good too .
My fault this time , really .
Im sorry .
Im seriously really sorry . I feel like hugging you now .
Sometimes I really wonder , who will be there to say , "Hey , I understand ."
Cause loving you
Has made my life so beautiful
And every day of my life
Is filled with loving you
Loving you
I see your soul come shining through
And every time that we tsss
Ooh I'm more in love with you
♥ Kianhui
Monday, April 28, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
3:45 PM
3:45 PM
Ok , Im at Boyfriend's house now he's gone to bathe .
Notice the new skin ?
Not that new and special but ..
Yeah I think I prefer this style better than navigations .
I think my navigation styles very weird ?
Hahahaha .
Im going to edit it sometime later at night or tmr night or the day after tmr !
Today I never work again because my auntie says I dunnit work . CHEERS !!!
But tmr I need to work . Nvm , work means money .
Jiayou ONGMINMIN .
Maybe Im going to work another one soon .
Im going to work in a foodcourt , help out in some fast food stall I guess ?
Yes , then I shall gain lots and lots of experience . *licks*
I totally love Deviantart pieces . Fabulous . You are going to see lots and lots of nice nice pictures in my blog soon ! Like ... Now (:
Today .. I feel like having a style of erotic .
HAH .
Admire them , it's art .
Things around us are allllll art . Appreciate instead off eeee-ing and ahhhh-ing la bitch . Heh .
Im talking to myself .
I will NEVER try this but it's cool right !?
The man's sexay .
I will post more tonight . Stay tuneddddddddddd .
♥Kianhui
Dear Die-ry ,
9:31 PM
9:31 PM
OOOOOkie .
Joycie and I each buy one cardigan , I buy a striped one , Joycie buy a grey one .
I kinda regretted buying striped , oh well .
We bought T-shirts again tooooooo .
Forget still got buy what liao .
I got buy my sausage and our usual drink :D
I keep say want eat Pastamania then Joycie keep dont want . Treat her also dont want T.T
Until I cannot eat no matter how I crave ! ^#%&@#^&@
Ok , we went back CWP after that :D
Ate at KFC , TMD , two stupid aunties buy KFC , keep changing what they want buy de lor !
Make me wait so long .
):
Then after that one of the auntie bumped her elbow against me , then I say in Chinese , Bump until people also dont know how to say sorry ar .
Abit buaypaiseh and I know I got big thigh LAAAA , but main point is that orh-ceh . RIGHT DARLING ????!
Joycie is in love with me because Im spiderman !
Girlfriends and besties (:
TMD he was walking so fast that I cannot catch up ........ ):
One month and blah blah days le darling , I know we both dont count the days :D
Heehee .
Like you say , I love you and you love me , not yet a family !
Sounds as retarded as you look , heehee .
Although we've been like having conflicts soooooo much .
Im not losing you .
Im going to have confidence .
Our lifes will be better .
I will put aside my only free time for you .
Because , I know you need me and you love me , same from me to you !
This matter will pass soon , aizaiiii .
Ariel/Mario is happy :D
Oh yeah , girlfie BELLE the Beauty wants to read my blog . Hehs .
Anddddd . Prom Night sounds really exciting Joycie !!
But I wanna watch Hansel and Gretel OMG .
Im going to drag Darling to watch with me soon .
I CANT WAIT LA .
And and and Definitely , Maybe ♥ .
DARLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG T.T
♥ Kianhui
im getting on fine , i know my limits , mum , please dont make things difficult for me .
shouting always win .
i'll scream as long as you continue how you wanna be ):
HAHAHAH .
I dont know why Im super happy now :D
Heehee .
Earlier I still dont feel like using computer , I scared will very sad after use , maybe see what thing then sad .
OK nothing to be sad so Im happy !! :DD
Lets see , Thursday and Friday I was working .
Got scolded by some stupid uncle .
The uncle want 5 of each of those sweet and salty tow sar biscuits .
Then usually Im suppose to put inside the transparent bag that doesnt looks ugly at all ?
Then he was like scolding me for not putting into a box , then he ask me , Put into plastic bag how to eat ? Very ugly you know !
Tamade la . How to eat ? Open , TEAR open the bag and eat la , whatever way you want , cut open stomach put inside also can . Dont need eat le ma ._.
Ugly ? Guys so ai mei for what , the bag is alright for me ma , for my workers ma , for every other customers also ma , he complain so much !
But of course I only start to work , cannot talk back so I diam diam .
Lucky one of those people working with me say him back :D
After work on those two days , I found another not scary de exit to MRT station le , become clever le :D
My leg got injuries on the big toe on both legs and the shoe 'bite' me on the back of my right leg .
Dont understand then heck care la lol .
Anw I smashed my E65 on that day on the ground , all my baobei messages by Darling , Joycie and Aiai ALL GONE and pictures of Darling that I havent upload to comp also gone .
):
I know I huo gai .
NVMMMM D:
I think Im buying some sony ericsson phone again ♥♥♥
NEXT ..
Saturday was my OFF DAY !!! Heehee .
I met HJKs and Joycie at Fragrant Wood .
Very happy to see them again , talk talk chat chat happily :D
Boyfriend isnt there , he's gone to CSO .......... ):
Then I kpkb with Reagan awhile lor , his birthday is ...
TODAY ! :D
Happy Birthday Bomberboyzzzzzzz .
Dont do any lj thing and get yourself into trouble ar , choi choi la .
And stay happy always (:
Then ... I talk to Kianhui's Xiao Laopo :D
'She's' taller than me by abit and fatter than me by abit ..
And she is actually Koh Han Jie ! HAHAHA .
Dont like him , snatch Boyfriend away !
Then he tell me , when I working , Kianhui keep say he miss me .
Then he ask me , when I with Kianhui , Kianhui got say he miss him ?
HAHA .
Very funny leih , he sounds so serious !
Anyway , Xiao Laopo , hope nothing happen to you ok !!
Good luck . If not no one fight with me for Kianhui le !
Heehee , and stay happy also ..
Then after that Joycie and I went to BUGIS :D
Im budget shopper lor , SERIOUSLY I very niaoooo one .
I very geh gao about money de . HAHA .
Ok , but Im very serious la .
Back to the point , we go Bugis , HJKs go Jurong to swimmmm .
At Bugis quite fun lor , play here play there :D
When I cannot find the things I want , I very sad ):
I finding skinny jeans , I very budget dddddddd .
And I found one denim de ! Joycie help me choose d (:
My butt is growing effing big 0.0
Darling , in future dont need scared no children liao , hahahahah . Big butt can bear many many children de worzzz !
Then ... I talk to Kianhui's Xiao Laopo :D
'She's' taller than me by abit and fatter than me by abit ..
And she is actually Koh Han Jie ! HAHAHA .
Dont like him , snatch Boyfriend away !
Then he tell me , when I working , Kianhui keep say he miss me .
Then he ask me , when I with Kianhui , Kianhui got say he miss him ?
HAHA .
Very funny leih , he sounds so serious !
Anyway , Xiao Laopo , hope nothing happen to you ok !!
Good luck . If not no one fight with me for Kianhui le !
Heehee , and stay happy also ..
Then after that Joycie and I went to BUGIS :D
Im budget shopper lor , SERIOUSLY I very niaoooo one .
I very geh gao about money de . HAHA .
Ok , but Im very serious la .
Back to the point , we go Bugis , HJKs go Jurong to swimmmm .
At Bugis quite fun lor , play here play there :D
When I cannot find the things I want , I very sad ):
I finding skinny jeans , I very budget dddddddd .
And I found one denim de ! Joycie help me choose d (:
My butt is growing effing big 0.0
Darling , in future dont need scared no children liao , hahahahah . Big butt can bear many many children de worzzz !
Joycie and I each buy one cardigan , I buy a striped one , Joycie buy a grey one .
I kinda regretted buying striped , oh well .
We bought T-shirts again tooooooo .
Forget still got buy what liao .
I got buy my sausage and our usual drink :D
I keep say want eat Pastamania then Joycie keep dont want . Treat her also dont want T.T
Until I cannot eat no matter how I crave ! ^#%&@#^&@
Ok , we went back CWP after that :D
Ate at KFC , TMD , two stupid aunties buy KFC , keep changing what they want buy de lor !
Make me wait so long .
):
Then after that one of the auntie bumped her elbow against me , then I say in Chinese , Bump until people also dont know how to say sorry ar .
She turned around and look at me 0.0
How Singaporeans have become , ohmygod la .
CMI manzzz .
=/
Chatted with Joycie at KFC and we were freezing .
Then after we eat finish , we go 5th floor take photos !!
We nothing to do ma , heehee .
Very fun larhzzz , then after that Darling come then take photo with him and Joycie !!!
Although my hp spoiled but I got photos sent by Joycie (:
Below are some of those photos we take ..
Abit buaypaiseh and I know I got big thigh LAAAA , but main point is that orh-ceh . RIGHT DARLING ????!
Joycie is in love with me because Im spiderman !
Girlfriends and besties (:
TMD he was walking so fast that I cannot catch up ........ ):After that met other HJKs ..
Kianhui and I went to his house .
And something really really bad happen , as usual , fuck up lor ...
Blah blah .
Went home talked to Darling on phone till 1+ , 2 ?
Then go sleep x)
Im suppose to go work today but because I quarrelled with my parents really badly the night before so I refused to wake up , typical me I know (:
And because my leg injured la , stupid .
Quarrelled and screamed with my parents again , played with handphone and met up with Boyfriend .
Cabbed to his house , he cooked noodles for me , omg man .
I love him to the utmost core *hearts*
Watched tv , slacking slacking lor ^^
Walked to 515 to eat dinner then walked to vista buy bubbletea then walk to 557 find KelvinCheng !!!
Kpkbkpkb ..
Go vista buy candies and Darling sent me home (:
The endddddd .
Ok la , my typical life , quite boring , but Im only 15 *innocent look*
Ok , pui .
HAHAHA .
One month and blah blah days le darling , I know we both dont count the days :D
Heehee .
Like you say , I love you and you love me , not yet a family !
Sounds as retarded as you look , heehee .
Although we've been like having conflicts soooooo much .
Im not losing you .
Im going to have confidence .
Our lifes will be better .
I will put aside my only free time for you .
Because , I know you need me and you love me , same from me to you !
This matter will pass soon , aizaiiii .
Ariel/Mario is happy :D
Oh yeah , girlfie BELLE the Beauty wants to read my blog . Hehs .
Anddddd . Prom Night sounds really exciting Joycie !!
But I wanna watch Hansel and Gretel OMG .
Im going to drag Darling to watch with me soon .
I CANT WAIT LA .
And and and Definitely , Maybe ♥ .
DARLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG T.T
♥ Kianhui
im getting on fine , i know my limits , mum , please dont make things difficult for me .
shouting always win .
i'll scream as long as you continue how you wanna be ):
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
1:52 PM
1:52 PM
Wee (:
I never updated about our first month with my Darling . Hehs . I shall start with tht first , although outdated la ...
On Sunday , I met Darling at his house for awhile . And I surprised him with my presenttttttt !!!!
HAHA .
He must be surprised because I told him I nvr buy anything for him this first month and he believed it man , heehee !
That's because , he's innocent ma ..
Haha (:
I took his many photos , very sexey worrrr .
Fall in love with him , his bodyyyy ! :DDDDD
Then , thanks boyfriend for not wearing your cap that day , made my day (:
Went to AMK Hub , bought tickets and ordered our popcorns .
Went down and he smoking smoking .
I was practically smiling the whole day while I was with him man (:
After that we went to watch The Forbidden Kingdom .
Ehs . Maybe kinda wrong in taking picture of people you say ?
But I like ^^ Photo taken by me is your honour .
And .. I never take the front ma , you dont know who she is , you let me see her again I also will not know that she is actually the something-wrong-person in the photo .
Oh , I think is her hair and shirt contradiction that makes it seems wrong for me .
Well , though my dressing isnt much better .
NVM .
Money come money come .
I already have $XX for Monday's work already . Hahaha .
Soon I'll be super rich .
Anw I never go work today because I dont need to work ! :D
Heehee . Tmr I'll be going work . So I'll update my blog , like on Saturday ?
Byebye .
I want a camera .
And Im starting to be obsessed with pink and hating purple .
:S
HAPPY 10TH MONTH FOR ME AND AIAI YTD ! :DDDDDDD
I'LL LOVE YOU AND RMB YOU AND MISS YOU ALWAYS DDDDDDDDD .
Boyfriend , Im seeing you soon !!!!
♥ Kianhui
I never updated about our first month with my Darling . Hehs . I shall start with tht first , although outdated la ...
On Sunday , I met Darling at his house for awhile . And I surprised him with my presenttttttt !!!!
HAHA .
He must be surprised because I told him I nvr buy anything for him this first month and he believed it man , heehee !
That's because , he's innocent ma ..
Haha (:
I took his many photos , very sexey worrrr .
Fall in love with him , his bodyyyy ! :DDDDD
Then , thanks boyfriend for not wearing your cap that day , made my day (:
Went to AMK Hub , bought tickets and ordered our popcorns .
Went down and he smoking smoking .
I was practically smiling the whole day while I was with him man (:
After that we went to watch The Forbidden Kingdom .
Love Jacky Chan man . Dont really like Jet Li .
Jacky Chan was so cute . Jacky Jacky T.T
Movie was nice , but 3.5/5 (:
Only took one super retarded photo with Darling , with his handphone because I forgot to bring my handphone that day -.-
Heehee .
After that we walked around abit and went back to CWP , Horizon to find Sean , Alan and friends .
Then they went off and we eat our candlelight dinner ^^
LOL .
My sister then suddenly called me to say that my auntie ask me want to work on Monday anot .
Then I say ok lor ...
Then I tell Darling .
I thought he will be like , WHAT ?!
In the end he say , ok lor ok lor , what time you start ? Haha (:
After that we went back fragrant , only Eric and AlvinLee is there . Kpkb slacking slacking .
Then Darling sent me home .
It was a really nice first month ! :D
At night ..
I took photos :D.jpg)
This two neoprints are taken with a few of my darlings . Xinting , Jiaren , Jiayee , rmb ?
Then , I decided to post up what my Darling gave me (:
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This is the cover :D.jpg)
Opening the envelope ..
The two photos , he got that developed :D The both of us one still alright ! But mine solo looks stupid . Hee .
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At the back of the photos !.jpg)
Conclucion , I love my dearest boyfriend to the core .
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Proof !! Im smiling like a freak , heehee ..jpg)
Ok that's all for the 21st of April .
Next come Monday , my faithful working day lor T.T
Ok , I didnt managae to capture the whole of the shop .
If the manager saw me taking photos everywhere using a handphone he sure gan me one .
Not that he'll be entering the shop himself , but there are like almost 10 security , or rather laziness-preventing cameras lor .
-.-
Ok , basically it's at Chinatown , the shop is named Fragrance (Xiang Wei).
There is a toilet beside the storeroom .
The outlet is about two stores big !
I wear an orange uniform and works as a promoter !
I've got two female and one male workers working as the same shop with me and they are very friendly (:
The worst thing is I have to stand the whole day and my legs hurt like fuckkkk .
They say first day like that de :D
A view of a small part of the shop inside the storeroom !.jpg)
I dont know that on weekdays also got people buy ba gua leih .
I got free flow of ba gua and meat floss to eat too .
Heeheehee .
So I shall announce my diet failed , NOT :D
Oh ya the storeroom itself ....jpg)
And the toilet :D.jpg)
And of course my orangey uniform !.jpg)
At 8+ , I got off from work already !
Like finally .
I was dead beat and could lie down on the floor and sleep to death .
Heehee ..jpg)
While walking to MRT station , the night view of part of Chinatown ..jpg)
My dead tired photo . Was ok from this small picture la , haha . Photo when enlarge is horrible !
Oh ya , when I got to this staircase .. Then they say "MRT" and got one arrow so I walked down the stairs ..jpg)
Then I walk walk walk . 2-3 storeys already still havent reach .
Summore no one was around , not a single soul lor .
Suddenly ..
.
.
.
"The MRT travelling to Jurong East will be ........."
-.-
I was shocked by the voice lor . But really scarie .
Talked on phone with Darling on MRT . Quarrelled abit .
I that time was very headache eh !
At home talked again .
Then ok already (:
Daddy massaged my head and I fell asleep at 11+ .
Oh ya , dont know when , I saw this person on bus .
I dont know whats wrong with her leih . The more I see her , the more I see something wrong in her .
Oh well ..jpg)
Ehs . Maybe kinda wrong in taking picture of people you say ?
But I like ^^ Photo taken by me is your honour .
And .. I never take the front ma , you dont know who she is , you let me see her again I also will not know that she is actually the something-wrong-person in the photo .
Oh , I think is her hair and shirt contradiction that makes it seems wrong for me .
Well , though my dressing isnt much better .
NVM .
Money come money come .
I already have $XX for Monday's work already . Hahaha .
Soon I'll be super rich .
Anw I never go work today because I dont need to work ! :D
Heehee . Tmr I'll be going work . So I'll update my blog , like on Saturday ?
Byebye .
I want a camera .
And Im starting to be obsessed with pink and hating purple .
:S
HAPPY 10TH MONTH FOR ME AND AIAI YTD ! :DDDDDDD
I'LL LOVE YOU AND RMB YOU AND MISS YOU ALWAYS DDDDDDDDD .
Boyfriend , Im seeing you soon !!!!
♥ Kianhui
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
10:56 PM
10:56 PM
Ok ! My absence for manyyyyyyyyy days . Haha , ok to me la .
Firstly , Im very anticipated for tmr -- Me and Darling 1st Month .
For your info , I rarely , very little , once in a blue moon , or rather have NONE ...
A perfect first month .
Laughs ):
But tmr , Im sure it will be a very happy day ! Hehs , one more hour darling !
I have a brilliant boyfriend who loves me in everyway , no matter how fat , how attitude , how sucky Im , one that always give in to me . Jealous ? Heehee .
But try not to think too much ok dearest !
I will be accompanying you all the way from when you turn into adult from a teenager and so on , heehee .
Wondered where I've gone these few days ? I was down with fever . Terrible , but it's a long time since I had a fever .
While Im being sick my boyfriend is the one kana tortured lor ................
Im sorry darling
My sister also sick but she was down with flu and fever and she vomited . Horrible .
She went to the doctor twice and still havent recovered by now !
I never went to the doctor and Im recovering (:
Ok , I forgot the whole load of things I wanted to type .........
Ytd night I didnt really get enough sleep , slept at 3am , woke up at 4am .
Didnt manage to go back to lala-land .
Waited till 6+ and went over to Darling's house .
Slacking slacking , met Marcus outside Darling's house and we cabbed to 515 to eat breakfast .
Other people came and Darling sent me home , I bathed and ZzZ at 11+ ..
Woke up at 6+ , 7 ? In the evening . Went cwp with my parents .
Was kinda not feeling well after I came back from there .
:S [Joycie I tot of you hahaha]
Very long time never see Aiai already . Also such a long time since I mentioned her name in my blog huh ?
Heh .
How's she ? All of a sudden Im missing her like fuck .
Oh well , hope she's alright , god bless her . *Smileeees*
Read an email sent by a friend , so meaningful , though Im not a Christian .
Have been stuck between loving Buddha and loving God .
Hahahahaha .
The DIFFERENCE
--------------------------
Science and God
'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist
professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his
new students to stand.
'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'
'Yes sir,' the student says.
'So you believe in God?'
'Absolutely.'
'Is God good?'
'Sure! God's good.'
'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'
'Yes.'
'Are you good or evil?'
'The Bible says I'm evil.'
The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a
moment.
'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you
can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'
'Yes sir, I would.'
'So you're good...!'
'I wouldn't say that.'
'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if
you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'
The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He
doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even
though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can
you answer that one?'
The student remains silent.
'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of
water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.
'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'
'Er...yes,' the student says.
'Is Satan good?'
The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'
'Then where does Satan come from?'
The student : 'From...God...'
'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there
evil in this world?'
'Yes, sir.'
'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything,
correct?'
'Yes.'
'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created
everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to
the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'
Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:
'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible
things, do they exist in this world?'
The student: 'Yes.'
'So who created them?'
The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his
question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the
lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is
mesmerized.
'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in
Jesus Christ, son?'
The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'
The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you
use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen
Jesus?'
'No sir. I've never seen Him'
'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'
'No, sir, I have not.'
'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or
smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus
Christ, or God for that matter?'
'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'
'Yet you still believe in him?'
'Yes.'
'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable
protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that,
son?'
'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'
'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem
science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'
The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a
question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'
'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'
'And is there such a thing as cold?'
'Yes, son, there's cold too.'
'No sir, there isn't.'
The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.
The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.
'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat,
mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we
don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below
zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is
no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the
lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when
it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have
or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.
You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of
heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units
because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the
absence of it.'
Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom,
sounding like a hammer.
'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as
darkness?'
'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night
if it isn't darkness?'
'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the
absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright
light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have
Nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to
define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able
to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'
The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.
This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'
'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is
flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'
The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.
'Flawed? Can you explain how?'
'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student
explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good
God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something
finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a
thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much
less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life
is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive
thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'
'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they
evolved from a monkey?'
'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young
man, yes, of course I do'
'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'
The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he
realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.
'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work
and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you
not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a
preacher?'
The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the
Commotion has subsided.
'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other
student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'
The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class
who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into
laughter.
'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain,
felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No
one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of
empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no
brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain,
how can we trust your lectures, sir?'
Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the
student, his face unreadable.
Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I
guess you'll have to take them on faith.'
'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists
with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as
evil?'
Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We
see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.
It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world.
These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'
To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at
least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.
It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe
the absence of God.
God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when
man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold
that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there
is no light.'
The professor sat down.
Pass this on if you have faith in God.
If not, still pass it on for it's a good story!
I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else. - C. S. Lewis
--
Yeah that's the email .
Make me surprised and happy . Hahaha .
Feel like posting pictures . I shall do it later or tmr (:
Oooh , maybe I could be like last time post pictures in every post :D
Ok I shall do that !
Im troubled by a little something , NOT knowing what is it .
Im in a confused state of mind , fuck .
Or is it my no-feeling-wellness that makes me feel that way ?
Got a super not good feeling after I used the laptop .
Im feeling lost again .
Boyfriend , wo ai niiiiiii .
Firstly , Im very anticipated for tmr -- Me and Darling 1st Month .
For your info , I rarely , very little , once in a blue moon , or rather have NONE ...
A perfect first month .
Laughs ):
But tmr , Im sure it will be a very happy day ! Hehs , one more hour darling !
I have a brilliant boyfriend who loves me in everyway , no matter how fat , how attitude , how sucky Im , one that always give in to me . Jealous ? Heehee .
But try not to think too much ok dearest !
I will be accompanying you all the way from when you turn into adult from a teenager and so on , heehee .
Wondered where I've gone these few days ? I was down with fever . Terrible , but it's a long time since I had a fever .
While Im being sick my boyfriend is the one kana tortured lor ................
Im sorry darling
My sister also sick but she was down with flu and fever and she vomited . Horrible .
She went to the doctor twice and still havent recovered by now !
I never went to the doctor and Im recovering (:
Ok , I forgot the whole load of things I wanted to type .........
Ytd night I didnt really get enough sleep , slept at 3am , woke up at 4am .
Didnt manage to go back to lala-land .
Waited till 6+ and went over to Darling's house .
Slacking slacking , met Marcus outside Darling's house and we cabbed to 515 to eat breakfast .
Other people came and Darling sent me home , I bathed and ZzZ at 11+ ..
Woke up at 6+ , 7 ? In the evening . Went cwp with my parents .
Was kinda not feeling well after I came back from there .
:S [Joycie I tot of you hahaha]
Very long time never see Aiai already . Also such a long time since I mentioned her name in my blog huh ?
Heh .
How's she ? All of a sudden Im missing her like fuck .
Oh well , hope she's alright , god bless her . *Smileeees*
Read an email sent by a friend , so meaningful , though Im not a Christian .
Have been stuck between loving Buddha and loving God .
Hahahahaha .
The DIFFERENCE
--------------------------
Science and God
'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist
professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his
new students to stand.
'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'
'Yes sir,' the student says.
'So you believe in God?'
'Absolutely.'
'Is God good?'
'Sure! God's good.'
'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'
'Yes.'
'Are you good or evil?'
'The Bible says I'm evil.'
The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a
moment.
'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you
can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'
'Yes sir, I would.'
'So you're good...!'
'I wouldn't say that.'
'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if
you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'
The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He
doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even
though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can
you answer that one?'
The student remains silent.
'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of
water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.
'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'
'Er...yes,' the student says.
'Is Satan good?'
The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'
'Then where does Satan come from?'
The student : 'From...God...'
'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there
evil in this world?'
'Yes, sir.'
'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything,
correct?'
'Yes.'
'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created
everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to
the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'
Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:
'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible
things, do they exist in this world?'
The student: 'Yes.'
'So who created them?'
The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his
question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the
lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is
mesmerized.
'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in
Jesus Christ, son?'
The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'
The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you
use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen
Jesus?'
'No sir. I've never seen Him'
'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'
'No, sir, I have not.'
'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or
smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus
Christ, or God for that matter?'
'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'
'Yet you still believe in him?'
'Yes.'
'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable
protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that,
son?'
'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'
'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem
science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'
The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a
question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'
'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'
'And is there such a thing as cold?'
'Yes, son, there's cold too.'
'No sir, there isn't.'
The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.
The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.
'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat,
mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we
don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below
zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is
no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the
lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when
it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have
or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.
You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of
heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units
because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the
absence of it.'
Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom,
sounding like a hammer.
'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as
darkness?'
'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night
if it isn't darkness?'
'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the
absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright
light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have
Nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to
define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able
to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'
The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.
This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'
'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is
flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'
The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.
'Flawed? Can you explain how?'
'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student
explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good
God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something
finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a
thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much
less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life
is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive
thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'
'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they
evolved from a monkey?'
'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young
man, yes, of course I do'
'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'
The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he
realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.
'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work
and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you
not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a
preacher?'
The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the
Commotion has subsided.
'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other
student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'
The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class
who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into
laughter.
'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain,
felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No
one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of
empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no
brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain,
how can we trust your lectures, sir?'
Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the
student, his face unreadable.
Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I
guess you'll have to take them on faith.'
'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists
with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as
evil?'
Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We
see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.
It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world.
These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'
To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at
least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.
It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe
the absence of God.
God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when
man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold
that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there
is no light.'
The professor sat down.
Pass this on if you have faith in God.
If not, still pass it on for it's a good story!
I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else. - C. S. Lewis
--
Yeah that's the email .
Make me surprised and happy . Hahaha .
Feel like posting pictures . I shall do it later or tmr (:
Oooh , maybe I could be like last time post pictures in every post :D
Ok I shall do that !
Im troubled by a little something , NOT knowing what is it .
Im in a confused state of mind , fuck .
Or is it my no-feeling-wellness that makes me feel that way ?
Got a super not good feeling after I used the laptop .
Im feeling lost again .
Boyfriend , wo ai niiiiiii .
♥ Kianhui
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
8:55 PM
8:55 PM
There's not much to talk about , isnt it ?
Dearest boyfriend , I really am glad that you still stood by me despite all my wrongs .
Actually what kind of person Im turning into , I still dont know .
Maybe Im really at the starting of the forest .
Who am I ?
An amateur .
Immature kiddo .
But I'll walk into the forest , and walk out of it .
I know that's what Im supposed to do .
Countless mistakes I've made .
Many many misunderstandings .
My unprofound words that made people get the wrong idea .
Im so stupid . Seriously I think Im .
How could I do wrong things without noticing myself ?
I hope that's an excuse , but it happens to happen right in front of my eyes .
Cried , guitiness , regretted .
Everytime things like this happened , tell you what , I'll realised it's my fault at the end .
And for this , I totally dont defend myself .
It is my wrong , I admit , and face it ok , it's the truth .
BOYFRIEND , SEE THIS !!!
Im happy okay !
I really am .
Dont worry :D
I wont think so much anymore .
I'll not hurt you anymore .
I'll try to listen to things you tell me to do .
That's When I Love You , this song I've been listening to the whole day .
And it's dedicated to you !
I love you darling , thanks and sorry for everything .
Joycie !
Hope you're smiling already .
And no matter what you think ...
I love you still and always girlfriend :D
SMILEEEEEE !
♥ Kianhui
Dearest boyfriend , I really am glad that you still stood by me despite all my wrongs .
Actually what kind of person Im turning into , I still dont know .
Maybe Im really at the starting of the forest .
Who am I ?
An amateur .
Immature kiddo .
But I'll walk into the forest , and walk out of it .
I know that's what Im supposed to do .
Countless mistakes I've made .
Many many misunderstandings .
My unprofound words that made people get the wrong idea .
Im so stupid . Seriously I think Im .
How could I do wrong things without noticing myself ?
I hope that's an excuse , but it happens to happen right in front of my eyes .
Cried , guitiness , regretted .
Everytime things like this happened , tell you what , I'll realised it's my fault at the end .
And for this , I totally dont defend myself .
It is my wrong , I admit , and face it ok , it's the truth .
BOYFRIEND , SEE THIS !!!
Im happy okay !
I really am .
Dont worry :D
I wont think so much anymore .
I'll not hurt you anymore .
I'll try to listen to things you tell me to do .
That's When I Love You , this song I've been listening to the whole day .
And it's dedicated to you !
I love you darling , thanks and sorry for everything .
Joycie !
Hope you're smiling already .
And no matter what you think ...
I love you still and always girlfriend :D
SMILEEEEEE !
♥ Kianhui
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
9:17 PM
9:17 PM
Okay this part is edited so if you want to see the early one please scroll down first thankyou :D
Ongminmin is thinking too much again . Im confused with my thinkings once again . I dont want to become an emo Jiamin again you know . Emo style is cool but being emo ? Its shit . I hate it , the feeling .
Okay , this part is fairly , only when I think too much . Tmr I'll be alright (:
Okay . Shall I be like everyone , so strong , so happy , with everything hidden inside ?
Anyone who knows me clear enough must have known that I show out my feelings , happy , sad , hyper , angry . And whatever .
Is it really irritating to be like that ? I mean like , pouring my feelings out always , without even thinking of hiding it . That's me and what I do .
All my really really good friends , they are strong , but actually they are weak .
For me ? I dont know anything about me actually . Many times I hope to see a better view of myself thru others , but no one ever tell me clearly what Im .
Im , attituded , easily angry/sad/happy , is it a MUST change thing ? Couldnt I stay as and when I like to ?
At this point of time , I feel like starving myself , slapping myself , and what's more , hating myself .
Because I really do feel like a failure .
Saddistic hor ? But I really will be okay tmr lol .
This feeling in my head , I dont know which one do I feel is the correct one .
1. Feeling not worth it to have such good friends around me when Im the rotten one ? or
2. Feeling that it's not worth it to be even thinking about people like them .
Okay , I guess most probably people will say , number one la , you already said you are rotten .
But sometimes , things people do , ways they think , really makes me wonder .
I tends to treat friend better , but are they worth the nice treatment ?
Im not pointing to anyone in particular , stop suspecting ok -.-
Oh ya , now Im even thinking of what others will say about me . So NOT like me at all . So fucking disappointed with myself for thinking of it , shag lor -.-
And Im also thinking , should I blog out my feelings so often ? Revealing my weak self .
Actually , I wanna stand out , I wanna be a special someone in a really good way , as in everyone will like .
But , what for care whether people likes you or not , just be yourself ?
But yeah , she's right , somethings people cannot stand my attitude and will refuse to give in .
So maybe I should change , for myself .
What should I do ?
I've a feeling I need someone right now .
Sometimes my boyfriend can be my greatest friend .
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HJKs and a few Malays kicking soccer .
My Joycie !
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Baby lying on the ground , very cute !
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Mummy , can you be what you were once ?
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Bf & I , I know we should have sit closer xD
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Pictures as promised , ok I know Im very obsessed with my darlingssss and only me and others are interested D:
Joycie didnt come out today . Hope that she'll be smiling how she was :D
I will always be behind you de girlfieee !
This afternoon was creeping in my house , afraid of my mother . She threatened to strangle me ytd while I locked myself in my room . Of course I never open the door to prevent myself from dying la . Then this morning I was still afraid . While she was in bedroom I was in the toilet , so on and forth , and lucky I got out unscath .
Ridiculous right ? I also never imagine my mother to be this scary . The person once closest to me ..
After that I went to Fragrant Wood to meet Darling , Alvin & Hanjie . After awhile and I pei-ed Darling home . Same longgg road to his house ! But I eh-tahan de . HAHA . Oh , saw Clinton , Victor , Andrew and Joseph at 515 eating !! Super happy , but I called "DIDI" to Joseph he very paiseh . Why ?!!!?!?! Last time he wasnt like that :'(
Ok nvm , I arent close to Riversidians anymore anyway D:
After that , went to 515 eat fries ! Saw Kelvin , Cheewei , Haoren , Roger , DarrenLiao & Keith .
Darling ate Wanton noodles .
Haoren say he felt relaxed and sleepy and dont feel like talking , I feel like going home in his place because I like sleeping at home on rainy days !!!
I love the rain and will never get sick from getting wet .
Im getting stronger nowadays man (:
Was very close with dearest bf throughout the day and I felt very happy !
Ytd had a quarrel and talk with him which made me love him even more . Hah .
I love myself even more too !
I couldnt be giving in to people always anymore right ?
LDS .
Hahaha .
It's not my loss I shall say .
After going to 515 we went to RC slacking slacking .
Took BF cap and specs to play again . Exchange phone with him :D
Very happy ok .
Hoho .
K la .
Goodbye !
I love my boyfriend dearly .
♥ Kianhui
Ongminmin is thinking too much again . Im confused with my thinkings once again . I dont want to become an emo Jiamin again you know . Emo style is cool but being emo ? Its shit . I hate it , the feeling .
Okay , this part is fairly , only when I think too much . Tmr I'll be alright (:
Okay . Shall I be like everyone , so strong , so happy , with everything hidden inside ?
Anyone who knows me clear enough must have known that I show out my feelings , happy , sad , hyper , angry . And whatever .
Is it really irritating to be like that ? I mean like , pouring my feelings out always , without even thinking of hiding it . That's me and what I do .
All my really really good friends , they are strong , but actually they are weak .
For me ? I dont know anything about me actually . Many times I hope to see a better view of myself thru others , but no one ever tell me clearly what Im .
Im , attituded , easily angry/sad/happy , is it a MUST change thing ? Couldnt I stay as and when I like to ?
At this point of time , I feel like starving myself , slapping myself , and what's more , hating myself .
Because I really do feel like a failure .
Saddistic hor ? But I really will be okay tmr lol .
This feeling in my head , I dont know which one do I feel is the correct one .
1. Feeling not worth it to have such good friends around me when Im the rotten one ? or
2. Feeling that it's not worth it to be even thinking about people like them .
Okay , I guess most probably people will say , number one la , you already said you are rotten .
But sometimes , things people do , ways they think , really makes me wonder .
I tends to treat friend better , but are they worth the nice treatment ?
Im not pointing to anyone in particular , stop suspecting ok -.-
Oh ya , now Im even thinking of what others will say about me . So NOT like me at all . So fucking disappointed with myself for thinking of it , shag lor -.-
And Im also thinking , should I blog out my feelings so often ? Revealing my weak self .
Actually , I wanna stand out , I wanna be a special someone in a really good way , as in everyone will like .
But , what for care whether people likes you or not , just be yourself ?
But yeah , she's right , somethings people cannot stand my attitude and will refuse to give in .
So maybe I should change , for myself .
What should I do ?
I've a feeling I need someone right now .
Sometimes my boyfriend can be my greatest friend .
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HJKs and a few Malays kicking soccer .My Joycie !.jpg)
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Bf & I , I know we should have sit closer xD----------
Pictures as promised , ok I know Im very obsessed with my darlingssss and only me and others are interested D:
Joycie didnt come out today . Hope that she'll be smiling how she was :D
I will always be behind you de girlfieee !
This afternoon was creeping in my house , afraid of my mother . She threatened to strangle me ytd while I locked myself in my room . Of course I never open the door to prevent myself from dying la . Then this morning I was still afraid . While she was in bedroom I was in the toilet , so on and forth , and lucky I got out unscath .
Ridiculous right ? I also never imagine my mother to be this scary . The person once closest to me ..
After that I went to Fragrant Wood to meet Darling , Alvin & Hanjie . After awhile and I pei-ed Darling home . Same longgg road to his house ! But I eh-tahan de . HAHA . Oh , saw Clinton , Victor , Andrew and Joseph at 515 eating !! Super happy , but I called "DIDI" to Joseph he very paiseh . Why ?!!!?!?! Last time he wasnt like that :'(
Ok nvm , I arent close to Riversidians anymore anyway D:
After that , went to 515 eat fries ! Saw Kelvin , Cheewei , Haoren , Roger , DarrenLiao & Keith .
Darling ate Wanton noodles .
Haoren say he felt relaxed and sleepy and dont feel like talking , I feel like going home in his place because I like sleeping at home on rainy days !!!
I love the rain and will never get sick from getting wet .
Im getting stronger nowadays man (:
Was very close with dearest bf throughout the day and I felt very happy !
Ytd had a quarrel and talk with him which made me love him even more . Hah .
I love myself even more too !
I couldnt be giving in to people always anymore right ?
LDS .
Hahaha .
It's not my loss I shall say .
After going to 515 we went to RC slacking slacking .
Took BF cap and specs to play again . Exchange phone with him :D
Very happy ok .
Hoho .
K la .
Goodbye !
I love my boyfriend dearly .
♥ Kianhui
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
4:30 PM
4:30 PM
Gemini
You have an opinion on just about everything, so why hold back when your lover asks for your thoughts? Now is not the time to play the wallflower. Express yourself proudly and let your sweetie see the real you.
There is a chance that you're not being honest with yourself. It's time you dealt with unresolved issues, deep fears or unfinished business, which, like a silent undercurrent or an unbridged gap in your heart, could be affecting intimacy in your relationship or love life. Staying busy, turning to familiar comforts or resorting to compulsive behavior could be covering up denial, suffering, stagnation or heartache. Genuinely come to terms with the truth by confronting or forgiving your own role in whatever it is you regret so that you can let go, move on and become more open to romance. There is a safe harbor of support and security available to you, but you might need to seek it out. Recovery and healing are inner work and can begin only after there has been acknowledgement of the hurts that have occurred.
See ? Told you I believe in horoscope . Fucking true I tell you . I find that I've been hiding many truths until now , just now . I totally love my boyfriend to the core . He is also my best friend . My first boyfriend which I pour my fears and troubles to in one go .
YEH KIAN HUI IS MY SUPER DUPER BOYFRIEND !!
And . Im super fuck up with myself , duh , what's new .
My attitude towards my dear boyfriend MUST change . I cannot continue letting him pamper me !
I feel so great when he confront me just now . Horrible but happy that he finally burst out hohoho .
Hope this kind of things only happen in the first month and continuously down the road is happily ever after ! :D
Im missing Northland Sec and my clique last time .
Alvin , Edwin , Gladys , Jianing , Nengtong , Gerald , Tonglee , Jason , Sean .
I personally dont feel like including Joel and Wensheng . Dont know why , Im sorry .
Everything wouldnt be the same ever again .
Im going to bathe , talk , and sleep after I talk on phone with superboyfriend .
Im learning to be obedient -.-
Hahaha .
Good night people . Err , pictures tmr ! It's not alot btw .
:S
♥ Kianhui
Monday, April 14, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
11:32 PM
11:32 PM
TMD , I so disappointed with myself how .
I cannot like that lor . Sighs .
I suddenly really dont feel like losing friend and find previously good friends chou ji dan ):
Okay if you think it's not you , why not ?
And if you think it's you , think again if you fit the description .
Wang ba dan makes a good dan also . Lol .
Crap .
I seriously think Im not good enough to be anyone good/girl/boyfriend .
Lol . I know it's the friendship and heart that counts , but .
I feel guilty .
For dont know what reason .
Im evil ? Im wicked ?
I think I m . Oh , beware leih .
Sighs .
I suddenly miss the past and feel like crying again .
Im seriously vulnerable these days huh ?
Im not stressed hehs .
I neglected alot of people , havent I ?
But I guess I keep acting as a know-it-all .
Thought I know what everybody likes and what kind of person they are .
WRONG .
Turns out I feel like a bloody stranger .
I miss Nengtong alot . Ytd and today . I love talking to Edwin and Alvin because I feel Im closer to them , I know them longer than any other person in HJK (:
Told Edwin , I miss Sotong Papa , and the past , so memorable . He havent reply my letter or he doesnt even intended to do it ):
I need your advices and laughs to cheer me up la friend . Why izit that think of you then will be smiling the face ! I hope you really take care T.T
Alvin . Long time never chat with him already , but he'll always be the DIDI I teng so much always . Sighs .
Im not a good girlfriend and I really , is going to be pampered by my dearest boyfriend . Dont treat me so good darling ):
Oh ya Boyfriend , you see above the thing , dont ask me why all that ok ? I put in my blog and want to forget about it already .
Joycieeee . I really .......................
Dont know how to put it .
What I want to say is that , in conclusion , I hope you'll be happier , and even better I could help you ^^
Im always there no matter how important Im to you .
And I mean always . Lol . Your house at Tekong only ma , your house got fire come my house stay lor .
CHOI TOUCHWOOD .
Haha .
Chatting with Haoren and Joycie on MSN . Missed times di-siaoing with all my dearest brothers !
Now I dont think people say me I know how to say back le lol .
Kay la I talked too much . Got time , I upload photos (:
Still in half half mood . How to be happy ?
♥ Kianhui
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
3:06 PM
3:06 PM
HALLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :D
I just bathe finish after ton-ing at Boyfriend house , hopefully it's not the last time and there are still many many times :D
Okay I guess Darling is happy too !
Anw yesterday before things turn well it was very disastrous . Lol .
Guess what happen ....................
Before I went right , I asked him got buy my tidbits anot , he replied that he forgot to buy , then I was like -.-!
Then I said nvm his house got things to eat can already .
Then ...
I went to his house , he said he bluffed me and that he got buy my food :DDDDDD
While he talking on phone with Seanie and Alvin , I opened the cupboard .
TADAA ~
Got 4 packets of PINKKKKK tidbits inside it , omigosh . [omigosh is my favourite word since ytd !!]
Then I tell my boyfriend , Wa , I really love you alot la !!
Then !
He continue talking on the phone ...
Ok , the disaster coming .
Got one moment I realised that he did something wrong lor , dui bu qi me .
Then I decided to ignore him .
Then he keep disturb me . Then I was super stubborn and press my earphone very hard to my ear and continue not to reply him .
But he never give up and continue to disturb me until I finally talk to him .
I said , "Anw I also cannot trust anyone what so what's the point ... " LOL .
Okay .
Crap la think you dont understand . But I dont mean what I said Darling :D
I keep hitting and biting him afterwards . Was so guilty sia .
But he said , "No ar , not pain at all !" , gave a really cute smile and walk out of the door to smoke .
Later on , I keep laughing for dont know what reason .
Then after that ..
I HUG MY BOYFRIEND AND CRIED .
So touched ok . Why will someone treat me so good ?
If he was other people , they will sure have scolded me a variety of knnbccb liao lor !
I was super touched and happy .
Then he unintentionally make some funny faces that make me laugh non-stop , with tears rolling .
HAHA .
Wtf hor .
He gave me that , What's-Up-With-You look , make me laugh even more .
Okay . Love him !
Other details not to be given out . Hehehehe .
Anw Happy 3rd month Joycie Girlfriend ! I love you and is going down to find you soon ^^
Wait for me hor dearieee . Hahahaha .
I love Boyfriend and Girlfriend and HJKs , muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
♥ Kianhui
I just bathe finish after ton-ing at Boyfriend house , hopefully it's not the last time and there are still many many times :D
Okay I guess Darling is happy too !
Anw yesterday before things turn well it was very disastrous . Lol .
Guess what happen ....................
Before I went right , I asked him got buy my tidbits anot , he replied that he forgot to buy , then I was like -.-!
Then I said nvm his house got things to eat can already .
Then ...
I went to his house , he said he bluffed me and that he got buy my food :DDDDDD
While he talking on phone with Seanie and Alvin , I opened the cupboard .
TADAA ~
Got 4 packets of PINKKKKK tidbits inside it , omigosh . [omigosh is my favourite word since ytd !!]
Then I tell my boyfriend , Wa , I really love you alot la !!
Then !
He continue talking on the phone ...
Ok , the disaster coming .
Got one moment I realised that he did something wrong lor , dui bu qi me .
Then I decided to ignore him .
Then he keep disturb me . Then I was super stubborn and press my earphone very hard to my ear and continue not to reply him .
But he never give up and continue to disturb me until I finally talk to him .
I said , "Anw I also cannot trust anyone what so what's the point ... " LOL .
Okay .
Crap la think you dont understand . But I dont mean what I said Darling :D
I keep hitting and biting him afterwards . Was so guilty sia .
But he said , "No ar , not pain at all !" , gave a really cute smile and walk out of the door to smoke .
Later on , I keep laughing for dont know what reason .
Then after that ..
I HUG MY BOYFRIEND AND CRIED .
So touched ok . Why will someone treat me so good ?
If he was other people , they will sure have scolded me a variety of knnbccb liao lor !
I was super touched and happy .
Then he unintentionally make some funny faces that make me laugh non-stop , with tears rolling .
HAHA .
Wtf hor .
He gave me that , What's-Up-With-You look , make me laugh even more .
Okay . Love him !
Other details not to be given out . Hehehehe .
Anw Happy 3rd month Joycie Girlfriend ! I love you and is going down to find you soon ^^
Wait for me hor dearieee . Hahahaha .
I love Boyfriend and Girlfriend and HJKs , muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
♥ Kianhui
Dear Die-ry ,
3:42 AM
3:42 AM
Okay darlings Im back with a happy smile hahaha . Talked things with Darling , vented anger talking about some prostitute , or rather scolding -.- , crapped with HJKs on Msn which appears like I keep talking irrelevantly inside lor ! And and chatted with dearest Joycie , wa love her manzzz . Never such a talk-your-heart-out session with people before . Omigoshhhh . Im so damn happy la !
Xiaxue is my first goddess ever . ENVYYYYS . Typed a whole chunk of thing to talk about how my admiration for her grows the other day and decided not to post it :D
Too ~ Freaky if I wear Xiaxue to read it LOL .
She knows so many things , she's so rich and I totally love her blogging !
Okay . But Im not taking her style to type hor dont anyhow say me tell you .
Quoted from her blog archives ,
"1. Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not quests to see if we can find the perfect present yet again!
To him I say:
Eh, whoever said it was a quest? Itz a mission. Fail it, and die. Can't take the challenge? Go be with a submissive donkey who doesn't mind having a special kinda grass to eat as its birthday present.
Anyway dun you men want to make us happy? When you make an effort to take note of what we like and get it for us, it only serves to make us love you more. What was that certain model of Nike shoes that you loved so much? Light blue, boing boing series size 9? If only the shoe laces were black instead of white? Got news that only JB is selling it coz it is sold out in Singapore?
We can make an effort to remember stuff like this, and purchase it for you just to see that smile on your face, why can't you make an effort to do the same? Surely you are not saying we are not worth your time and effort?
If we have already said we dislike bright green stuff and u still bought us an alligator stuff toy, shld we not be disappointed? Shld we pretend we love the obviously effortless gift you gave? Please take note that the stuff toy is not a bad gift just coz of the bright green. It is appalling coz stuff toys are so apparently saying "I refuse to make an effort to choose anything else, which in any case would be something better". Stuff toys are for 13 yr old giggly girls. I would prefer a dildo. Not bright green please. "
Okay . Great defence for girls right . Love her too . HAHA . I agree with making an effort to rmb things though . We do .
Okay , going to Malaysia tmr to cut my hairrrr . Anw the next thing she talked about was hair , HAHA . Okay read it yourself to know more , I read the really archivedddddd archive leih .
http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/
Im going to find ways to be rich , *wicked smile* .
Boyfriend , you dont need to worry about supporting me this useless and no-future girlfriend le ! :D
BECAUSE , I'll be rich someday . Watch me .
♥ Kianhui
Xiaxue is my first goddess ever . ENVYYYYS . Typed a whole chunk of thing to talk about how my admiration for her grows the other day and decided not to post it :D
Too ~ Freaky if I wear Xiaxue to read it LOL .
She knows so many things , she's so rich and I totally love her blogging !
Okay . But Im not taking her style to type hor dont anyhow say me tell you .
Quoted from her blog archives ,
"1. Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not quests to see if we can find the perfect present yet again!
To him I say:
Eh, whoever said it was a quest? Itz a mission. Fail it, and die. Can't take the challenge? Go be with a submissive donkey who doesn't mind having a special kinda grass to eat as its birthday present.
Anyway dun you men want to make us happy? When you make an effort to take note of what we like and get it for us, it only serves to make us love you more. What was that certain model of Nike shoes that you loved so much? Light blue, boing boing series size 9? If only the shoe laces were black instead of white? Got news that only JB is selling it coz it is sold out in Singapore?
We can make an effort to remember stuff like this, and purchase it for you just to see that smile on your face, why can't you make an effort to do the same? Surely you are not saying we are not worth your time and effort?
If we have already said we dislike bright green stuff and u still bought us an alligator stuff toy, shld we not be disappointed? Shld we pretend we love the obviously effortless gift you gave? Please take note that the stuff toy is not a bad gift just coz of the bright green. It is appalling coz stuff toys are so apparently saying "I refuse to make an effort to choose anything else, which in any case would be something better". Stuff toys are for 13 yr old giggly girls. I would prefer a dildo. Not bright green please. "
Okay . Great defence for girls right . Love her too . HAHA . I agree with making an effort to rmb things though . We do .
Okay , going to Malaysia tmr to cut my hairrrr . Anw the next thing she talked about was hair , HAHA . Okay read it yourself to know more , I read the really archivedddddd archive leih .
http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/
Im going to find ways to be rich , *wicked smile* .
Boyfriend , you dont need to worry about supporting me this useless and no-future girlfriend le ! :D
BECAUSE , I'll be rich someday . Watch me .
♥ Kianhui
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
10:34 PM
10:34 PM
Maybe this got to other people when he's asking for help and they will see my post and start kp-ing and guailan me again , huh ?
Im strong , Im all alone , Im not going to ask people for help , I can settle things on my own , I know what's right and what's wrong for me !
Ok , maybe I dont know that I have done wrong and what's the right thing . Who doesnt make mistakes and who exactly know what's right or wrong without standing in my shoes ? No one do understand what Im feeling anyway . In cases like this I will always be wrong in other peoples eyes isnt it ? Fuck . Fine .
Fucking screw myself .
Im the mother fucking slut la .
Can anot . MY WRONG . MY FAULT . Can anot ?
I shall not put my anger here and scold people , vent out my anger , since everytime I do something like this Im always wrong !
Maybe I should like go see my pen-god again .
Be my emo self again .
Fuck la , think my life very fun har ?
Im not crying though , strong girl Im . Told all my friends I'll be strong . Im without no one and no one will agree that Im right .
Im pretty sure of that .
Dont tell me something like , you never tell how you know ?
Because when I tell Im afraid to face your stupid answer that doesnt fits my mind and heart at all !
For me , understanding is not to be spoke in words .
FOR ME .
Get the words right . If agree please breathe . Crap .
It is to be felt within the heart and mind .
Silence is golden .
Is all these quotes plainly for you to see and look ?
The deep meanings down there please get it clear .
My heart is hurting alot , everytime things like this happen .
Fuck , I arent a good person .
Im always this arrogant and stubborn person .
Yaya . My experiences are enough for me to know what I should do in situations .
FOR YOU , Im strong and alone , I dont need help .
No wonder Alan keep saying Im a she-male , I know Im strong like a man .
CCB .
Really feel like seeing a pool of blood and jumping inside .
CRAP .
It feels bad to be this upset .
With myself and other people .
What else can I do .
Tolerance got limit .
Heart is pain but have no change .
The feelings had never changes .
God bless me and you .
A long long road to walk still .
♥ Kianhui
Im strong , Im all alone , Im not going to ask people for help , I can settle things on my own , I know what's right and what's wrong for me !
Ok , maybe I dont know that I have done wrong and what's the right thing . Who doesnt make mistakes and who exactly know what's right or wrong without standing in my shoes ? No one do understand what Im feeling anyway . In cases like this I will always be wrong in other peoples eyes isnt it ? Fuck . Fine .
Fucking screw myself .
Im the mother fucking slut la .
Can anot . MY WRONG . MY FAULT . Can anot ?
I shall not put my anger here and scold people , vent out my anger , since everytime I do something like this Im always wrong !
Maybe I should like go see my pen-god again .
Be my emo self again .
Fuck la , think my life very fun har ?
Im not crying though , strong girl Im . Told all my friends I'll be strong . Im without no one and no one will agree that Im right .
Im pretty sure of that .
Dont tell me something like , you never tell how you know ?
Because when I tell Im afraid to face your stupid answer that doesnt fits my mind and heart at all !
For me , understanding is not to be spoke in words .
FOR ME .
Get the words right . If agree please breathe . Crap .
It is to be felt within the heart and mind .
Silence is golden .
Is all these quotes plainly for you to see and look ?
The deep meanings down there please get it clear .
My heart is hurting alot , everytime things like this happen .
Fuck , I arent a good person .
Im always this arrogant and stubborn person .
Yaya . My experiences are enough for me to know what I should do in situations .
FOR YOU , Im strong and alone , I dont need help .
No wonder Alan keep saying Im a she-male , I know Im strong like a man .
CCB .
Really feel like seeing a pool of blood and jumping inside .
CRAP .
It feels bad to be this upset .
With myself and other people .
What else can I do .
Tolerance got limit .
Heart is pain but have no change .
The feelings had never changes .
God bless me and you .
A long long road to walk still .
♥ Kianhui
Friday, April 11, 2008
Dear Die-ry ,
1:09 AM
1:09 AM
"The only reason people hold onto memories so tightly is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else seems to."
It's something that I agree to , soso totally , after reading KZB's darlings blogs .
Unfair jiu shi unfair .
Adults can never understand teenagers like us .
Or maybe they are jealous that they arent as pretty .
HAHA .
Screw them and go be your mother fucking dog .
Assssssssssss .
Really , Im reminded of times in the past whenever I read any of my ex-schoolmates blog .
Totally , devastated .
I saw something Belle said in her blog , something about not being really happy starting from this year , not really having a good laugh . Everything changes and becomes stressful .
Maybe even before globalwarming turn serious everyone dies of high blood pressure .
Maybe , I dont even have the right to say anymore , but , I really feel bu fu qi for my friends .
Is there a something I can do for them ?
Maybe asking Ms Christine and Mdm Leow to take charge of CCA again ?
But who am I , hahaha .
I hope the teacher-in-charge now , please please please change her attitude towards people luh !
Aiya , Im too kpo already la !
But I really havent been in a good mood after reading alot of blogs . Time flies like shiet .
Im also shocked that it's MYE for them already .
Seriously , if I were still in school I will be like , WOW , mid year is coming so fast sia , 2 years sure go quite fast must persevere !!
But now ? I dont know what state Im in .
Im happy because I've got a pretty good family , a wonderful boyfriend , aiai & girlfriend .
But .
My future is ruined in my own hands and I know it .
I couldnt go to school and study like any other people .
When Im in Riverside I'll be stressed to death .
When Im in Northland I'll be really , nervous , scared of things , like , getting scolded or friendship or gangsterism kind of stuff ? And I was missing Riverside alot . The people , MY FRIENDS I mean .
I have to face facts dont I . I dont like to go school , I know no one like but somehow I know my case is different (in case you said , that's only what you think but its actually the same for everyone , go eat shit la!) .
Im actually ready to face my fucking future .
Now , I will be happy , thinking , my family , boyfriend , friends will be there for be in future , boyfriend will become husband and yang me kind of stuffs , but somehow when I thought to myself , I really hope it will come true . Dreaming about things that wont come true , hurts my fragile heart .
BUT PLEASEEEE , Im really tired of hearing people say , go to school laaaaaaaaa . When they dont even know any shit . Ok , fine . I love people who cares about me ! Really ! But , I dont want people to persuade me to go school anymore , because I know I will only waste more of my parents money and disappoint many people . I dont think it's fun always having to tell people Im not schooling , or transferring school , or going back school sort of thing . I feel guilty . Saying something and not doing it . I feel like saying millions of sorry everytime either of those happen .
Tell me , who exactly understand everything ? If you think you do , think twice , sighs .
Im being kinda fierce right . Ok , duh .
I need help with my future , with working stuffs .
I need help sorting out what kind of jobs could I go for at this kind of age . Am I a rotten apple ?
Im very blur with what jobs am I limited to . That's why I gave Mum an appearance that Im lazy to find . I dont feel good .
I dont feel like encouraging myself , ending this topic with an encouraging note to myself anymore .
"I know I can figure out a way and find what I want soon"
It will be fucking fake la . Because my mother says , I always couldnt do what I say .
Im disappointed with myself .
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Ok la , pictures , I said that I will upload !
Smile hor after you see these pictures !
Save you from above stressful wordy post (:
When I go my Ahma house ,
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Real-blood sister with my favourite twists :D
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my big big smileeee
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aurora , i dont want you le this is my new girlfriend :D
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boyfriend , i also dont want you le :D [fake]
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where my retardedness starts , cute hor ^^
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i dont know what the fuck i doing , LOLLLL
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finally , my sister and i ! :D
She says I want the camera all to myself !
Luckily she never say my head too big , lolll .
Thats all ba , enjoy (:
♥Kianhui
It's something that I agree to , soso totally , after reading KZB's darlings blogs .
Unfair jiu shi unfair .
Adults can never understand teenagers like us .
Or maybe they are jealous that they arent as pretty .
HAHA .
Screw them and go be your mother fucking dog .
Assssssssssss .
Really , Im reminded of times in the past whenever I read any of my ex-schoolmates blog .
Totally , devastated .
I saw something Belle said in her blog , something about not being really happy starting from this year , not really having a good laugh . Everything changes and becomes stressful .
Maybe even before globalwarming turn serious everyone dies of high blood pressure .
Maybe , I dont even have the right to say anymore , but , I really feel bu fu qi for my friends .
Is there a something I can do for them ?
Maybe asking Ms Christine and Mdm Leow to take charge of CCA again ?
But who am I , hahaha .
I hope the teacher-in-charge now , please please please change her attitude towards people luh !
Aiya , Im too kpo already la !
But I really havent been in a good mood after reading alot of blogs . Time flies like shiet .
Im also shocked that it's MYE for them already .
Seriously , if I were still in school I will be like , WOW , mid year is coming so fast sia , 2 years sure go quite fast must persevere !!
But now ? I dont know what state Im in .
Im happy because I've got a pretty good family , a wonderful boyfriend , aiai & girlfriend .
But .
My future is ruined in my own hands and I know it .
I couldnt go to school and study like any other people .
When Im in Riverside I'll be stressed to death .
When Im in Northland I'll be really , nervous , scared of things , like , getting scolded or friendship or gangsterism kind of stuff ? And I was missing Riverside alot . The people , MY FRIENDS I mean .
I have to face facts dont I . I dont like to go school , I know no one like but somehow I know my case is different (in case you said , that's only what you think but its actually the same for everyone , go eat shit la!) .
Im actually ready to face my fucking future .
Now , I will be happy , thinking , my family , boyfriend , friends will be there for be in future , boyfriend will become husband and yang me kind of stuffs , but somehow when I thought to myself , I really hope it will come true . Dreaming about things that wont come true , hurts my fragile heart .
BUT PLEASEEEE , Im really tired of hearing people say , go to school laaaaaaaaa . When they dont even know any shit . Ok , fine . I love people who cares about me ! Really ! But , I dont want people to persuade me to go school anymore , because I know I will only waste more of my parents money and disappoint many people . I dont think it's fun always having to tell people Im not schooling , or transferring school , or going back school sort of thing . I feel guilty . Saying something and not doing it . I feel like saying millions of sorry everytime either of those happen .
Tell me , who exactly understand everything ? If you think you do , think twice , sighs .
Im being kinda fierce right . Ok , duh .
I need help with my future , with working stuffs .
I need help sorting out what kind of jobs could I go for at this kind of age . Am I a rotten apple ?
Im very blur with what jobs am I limited to . That's why I gave Mum an appearance that Im lazy to find . I dont feel good .
I dont feel like encouraging myself , ending this topic with an encouraging note to myself anymore .
"I know I can figure out a way and find what I want soon"
It will be fucking fake la . Because my mother says , I always couldnt do what I say .
Im disappointed with myself .
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Ok la , pictures , I said that I will upload !
Smile hor after you see these pictures !
Save you from above stressful wordy post (:
When I go my Ahma house ,
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my cute cute cousin !.jpg)
i love her pretty face ...jpg)
and her long eyelashes :D pretty right !
ugly and unglam but i like it , lickkkkss . HAHA . i clipped up my fringe so i covered my bare forehead !
Monday , in boyfriend's room ^^
Thursday , at Vivo ! :D
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Real-blood sister with my favourite twists :D.jpg)
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my big big smileeee.jpg)
aurora , i dont want you le this is my new girlfriend :D.jpg)
boyfriend , i also dont want you le :D [fake].jpg)
where my retardedness starts , cute hor ^^.jpg)
i dont know what the fuck i doing , LOLLLL.jpg)
finally , my sister and i ! :DShe says I want the camera all to myself !
Luckily she never say my head too big , lolll .
Thats all ba , enjoy (:
♥Kianhui
Thursday, April 10, 2008
