Dear Die-ry ,
12:01 AM

Charlotte , Alrights will relink you soon (:
Jiaren , Yeah yeah , soon hopefully ! Thanks cutie , have been down for last fewdays , guess Im alright . Your love life alright ? Last long okay , love you !
Abigail , Okay sister , link you up real soon , Im alright already , takecare alrights ?
Xinting , LOL , so cute can you , how can ?! Okok , I love chatting to you manzzz . Takecare , I might not be a good advisor but is a good listener and always there :D
JiaEn , YESYES cherry , it does rhymes , haha ! Quitted schooling . Tell you more if I see you . Do takecare . Yeah , hope so =/ PLEASE DONT FORGET ME FOR GOODNESS SAKE !! :O
Sandra , Yes friend , will link you soon (:
Aurora , Aiyar , dont worry man , I love you the same too anyway (:

Final decision , again . I couldnt keep promises for myself . Fuck . Useless person . Not ?
I will become someone good in future . Just with enough money to keep me , and my family alive .
I just ask for simple happiness . I dont need to get an office work in future . Manager ? CEO ? Secretary ? Nah . Not me . For now .
I dont say my opinions wont change , or I wont regret . I dont promise anything .
Free for you to scold me in future , say that I took my parents good treatment for granted .
I know I definitely have the best parents in the whole world , if not better .
A nice and warm family . Sufficient food and money for anything , everything . Just right . Enough .

But Im sorry dad and mum . Disappointed you guys once again . Wasted your money on new school uniform and books . Sorry for being such a useless daughter , stubborn and dont know what's right for myself .
I know studying give me good future , I know I walk this road and I will never get poor .
Renata is right , she has a bright future ahead , mine is tiring .
I might never know how tough working is .
But Im willing to give it a try . I hope I wont fail myself even in work . Although I've some sort of prediction that I'll . This time , I will persevere . That's what I said . I dont even know whether I could do it .

Failure uh ?
Not being pessimistic . Dont ever try to persuade me that Im not a failure or what , because I know myself better than you do .

You should have guess what Im going to do . My msn nick and those questions . Yes , Im going to announce that Im going to drop out of school , hey , a school dropout .

Im not proud of being one . Maybe Im . But Im just not boasting .
Dont ask me whether Im really quitting school . My blog says and stated that Im , isnt that downright clear enough ?

Im sorry for giving this attitude , but Im taken in and persuaded by my own intentions , I dont wish to have someone move my decisions again . Please dont ruin my life . I almost got stuck in between going school and not going school . Please let me stay focused , just support me for going out to work , alright ?

Thanks Abigail , Yenliang , Brenda , Renata , Miaoling , Wenting , Linli and 3ED for taking care of me in Northland for that short 3 days . Really appreciated it , learnt abit of lessons , make some good friends that are really nice to me , and lose a precious wallet with lots of memories , wth . Haha , but overall , I was happy in that school . Really thankyou . I must have disappointed Mr Tai's & VP's expectation .

Alvin Lee , my dearest didi , Joycie , Aiai must be disappointed too . But Im sorry . The stress I have to face every night thinking of school . School phobia , Cutie said and I quoted it all along . Yes , I have school phobia , and Im not going to fight it , Im letting it win . Im not seeing any fucking counscillors , I really hate them . Instead of helping me , they turned me upside down , left , right , and back again . Yeah , screw you .

Still , Riverside gave the best memories ever . Remembered always , I miss the food , classroom , few teachers and alot of people . Screw the current prxxxxxxl the breadman , you've totally no authority in your students mind to control the school . ASK those students , who ever like you to stay in Riverside ? Hey , what a thick-skin lao zha bo . Those who said yes must be seriously fucking par jiao and I really wanna dig their eyes out with forks and use a loudspeaker to scream in their ears . Fucking angry ! Riverside was a superb school in Sec 1 ' o6 . Was , WAS , W-A-S .

Yeah , still , I want to thank Renata & Yenliang , utmostly persuading me to stay for my own good . Millions of thanks , super touched for their care and concern . Really .
Aiai , Joycie & Boyfriend , supporting me all the way in whatever I do . They'll be by my side always , I know it . They've always been . Going to school has been a way of neglecting them , Im sorry . Maybe working will make me neglect you more , but Im sure it'll give me a clearer mind to rearrange my time properly so that I could spend time with you guys .
Say Hi to freedom and work , Bye to homework and schoolmates . Farewell .

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OKAYS . Big big relief to have written the whole chunk , Im happie . And Im happy that Boyfriend is happy because Im happier . Dearest , hao ai ni !

Ate lunch with Joycie , Boyfriend & Juntong , I ate fishball noodles .
Stomachache , went home . In between , conflicts with dearest once again , but okay afterwards .
1.1o pm Shutter postponed to 3.15 pm at CWP with Boyfriend , Juntong & Carin . Movie was nice , something like thai-version , only easier to understand and prettier actress :D
BOYFRIEND WAS SOSOSO DAMN SCARED I SWEAR .
Haha !
I wasnt better , but , Im still good . At least I dont have nightmares from horror movies , HAHA .
Boyfriend too for tonight , he'll be dreaming of me !

Went to Fragrant , Boyfriend and I played like little kids :X
Juntong & Carin keep laughing ! They're sweet though , especially Carin .
Hehs .
Went Vista to eat dinner with Dearest . Ate fisball noodles again and shared coke . I love being alone with my boyfriend .
He go smoking smoking , and slacking slacking .
Sent me home , and he went back fragrant . Missing my dumbass since then :D

Chat on MSN , suddenly with alot alot of people .
I've been missing Xinting alot alot and I dont know why ! I need her cheerful smile I guess !
Get to know a Riversidian through Leonard Lim , LOL .
Her name is Siyan , nice to meet her :D
Renata talked to me , love talking to her and telling her my life , thanks girl , for your precious advices . But really , I've made my decision . Thanks and good luck .
Then talk shit with Boyfriend , lmao . Talked on phone with him , goddamn hell , first time hear him so ki-siao manzzz . O-M-F-G .
He must be having a really sweet dream , dearest boyfriend , I love you .
Sorry for quarrelling with you always . Finally settle down in peace and harmony , I hope (:
LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU .

Re-piercing tongue with Joycie Girlfriend , weeeeeeeeeets . Hope boyfriend dont mind much !
Cant wait , cant wait .
Getting up at 11am , so going to sleep soon !
{You get to read more blog posts when I not schooling right (:}

I love 30th , happy day . Lucky I postponed time to 3.15 .
3 more days to 1st month with Aurora , loveeeee .

♥ Kianhui