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2008-06-19T00:18:00.006+08:00

New new new blog !
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2008-06-12T14:12:00.012+08:00

I know I very .............
But ! To these people , I love you guys (:

:

Junkiat [before birthday !] , Alvin [before birthday !] , Sister [before birthday !] , Jesselyn , Gladys , Daddy , Mummy , Hubby , Joycie , Pohshen , Jianing , Xinting , AliciaSia , Terry , AliciaLai , Meixia , Yuxuan , JiaEn , Abigail , Yilin , Jesslyn , Yanqi , Sheryl , Xinni , SharonZehzeh , Yixuan , ShawnNiew , Joey , Hanis , AiyueCousin , Joonliang , Pohyen , Alvin , Rachael , Charlotte , Lynette , Zubaidah , Niki , Melissa , Joelle , Moon , Patricia , Shawn&Jiayee , Peckyong , Mingwei , Joei , Jinping , Belle , Junkiat [on birthday !] , Alex , LiTing , BrendaLim

So there goes my birthday ! As I said , the contents (:

10th June , evening , it's finally when she woke up and decide to meet me ! D: Met Aiai for dinner at Pastamania . She ate Chicken Bolognese , I ate Creamy Chicken . I prefer baked rice :/

We went to Starbucks @ Civics . Talked and talked non-stop , fooling around laugh laugh laugh like always ! Heehee .

Went to Vista Point after that .
Bought hair dye , but very sad , the shop was closing and the auntie say the shop dont have space for us to go in already . But we ask the auntie once more when we going back and she let us go in choose :D She's the first kind soul who treat us so good on that day !
Then , we went to rent VCDS . We never bring enough money !!! At that time it was very funny and pathetic leih us . Need deposit $10 and $6 for them , we only have about $11 . But he's the second kind soul so he let us have it for $11 :D

Went my house , and after I bathe we began our movie marathon ! :DDDDD
Although only two movie , teehee .
We watched The Grudge and Norbit . Was so scary , The Grudge's sound effects that Aiai screamed D:

Halfway through the movie , the clock struck 12am and I received smses and greetings . Happy happy (:
Then , after finishing that movie , we went to dye our hair !
Took damn long lor , 3 hours stuck in the toilet !! Omg right , but pro leih we (:
Aiai keep say she's fit enough to be a hairdresser , hair-dyer . But you know ... I know ... It's not possible !! :DDD HAHAHA .

Talked on phone with Hubby for quite long .
Bad things happen .
): ): ):
But still the same old words , I love him all the same , quarrels dont fade my feelings for him :D

After that , Aiai and I were super duper hungry after that , so we went down to 7-11 to buy cup noodles . Practically , the whole day we were crapping . Wahaha . And talked about all our memories .......... D:

We ate Mr Softee after that ! I just joking joking to auntie that give mre ice cream . Then I thought like that is free . Then after that the cashier want count me $2 !!!! Wtf -.- But later on he let us have it for $1 . Ok , good la (:

Watched Norbit after we reach home(:
Halfway , I needa go find Hubbee already , so I gave her the VCDs , and she went to take bus , while I cabbed to Hubbee's house .

Thanks Aiai , it's the first time you count down my birthday for me , also the first time you celebrated my birthday with me so officially (:
I had fun with you , and you confirm also had fun with me too ! :D
Hehehehehe .
From P6 till now , we've became good friends , enemies , and good friends again .
One year already ! Stay strong ok , for us !
Be happy and smile my dear .
I love you dearest Aiai ♥

Ok ! Then after that , I was at Hubbee house .. I know whenever Im at his house he'll feel very happy de (:
Same for me !
Talked abit . He said he forgot to buy my present ... He said on 9th June actually he want buy but no time . Ok .. Then I ): ): ): abit .

Then , we hug each other , very very tight . Especially meeeeeeeeeee !
I know he felt my love , very deep for him at that time (:
Then I slept at his house .........
At about one plus in the afternoon , I auto wake up , and I was shaking my dearest boyfriend to wake up too :D
He go brush teeth and everything ...
Then at that time my hair very messy ma . Then I want find my mirror which Hubbee kept to himself .. Then he said in the cupboard . He using computer , but before that , he saw me open the right part of his cupboard which is one door de .. But because got things blocking me from opening the door , then I open the double door part of the cupboard lor . Then he was using computer ..
I opened the cupboard . Guess what I see ?

Our couple pouches ! :D:D:D:D:D
I was very surprised and happy la , he asked me where I see them before , but I nvr knew he will buy because I thought he dont like this kind of things .
Happy happy ! First birthday present given by a boyfriend on my birthday , also the first present of the day .
Wahaha :D

Then .. I cabbed home first to change and bathe . Met Hubbee at 5th floor carpark and we buy tickets .. Bought Kungfu Panda at first but it was at 5pm and I figured out that I wont reach home in time to celebrate with my family . Yeah , that's why I said it's time for me to start thinking before doing things ... !
Changed tickets to The Chronicles of Narnia [again] , and went in at 4.15pm ..
This time , I was as noisy as I was with my sister the last time . Wahaha !
Luckily Im not sick of the movie , it was as exciting as the first time I watch it lol !
Ok ..
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Then after the movie , Hubbee went to Prime Deli to buy cake for me !
Then we walked back to Fragrant .
Was very happy when they said happy birthday to me , and when I saw Jianing ! :D
She baked the cookies superrrrrrrrrrr yummy ok ! I love ..
Alvin keep say nonsense like , oh this cookie my father bake one I bring down for you all ... Then the present Jianing bought for me , he say is they all kup tgt buy for me one . LOL . Like realllllllllllllll .
Joycie isnt there ! ): ): ): Because she want to make brownie then meet me , she dont want to meet me empty handed . That's what make me soooo touched la !
There's some sort of quarrel between Alan and Kelvin . Alan keep gan Kelvin .
):

But they still got sing birthday song for me , still got eat cake . Lalala .

KIANHUI SING BIRTHDAY SONG FOR ME !
(:

Then took photos .
My face super ljb because I super paiseh lor ):

Nvm ! Then eat cake , then after awhile my daddy car come fetch me go AMK then we all eat steamboat .
There were my sister , my godbrother , my parents and meeeeee !
Ok la the steamboat , very little food , but very nice (:
13.90$$ per person !

Went home , family sing song for me , I made a wish and cut cake (:
My sister said when I making wish , I make very long ...
My wishlist is long what (:
Hahaha .
My little godbrother put cream of my face ! :D
Got take picture ..

Then everything was kinda over , I bathed and talk on phone with Hubbee .
Then Jiayee&Shawn call me .. Felt very happy to talk to them , and also very sad to hear what's happening ...
Im so glad I left school , really .
Why do people change overtime .. Why does a group of people always separate ?
I dont understand . Sighs .

But nvm , it was my birthday . Overall it was quite happy . But this year's birthday is not abit like my past birthday ?
But still rated 7.5/10 .
Im a happy girl ! :D

Maybe you will think that you're not in any place inside my heart , but , Im not someone that's good with words ! S: I got alot alot of people to thank , for each person , I've got alot of gratefulness for them . That's for , seriously .

Boyfriend , Aiai , Girlfriend , Jianing , HJKs , PapaMamaJiejie ! Wo ai ni men , thankyouverymuch ! ^^

I feel I getting hong xin da jiang . HAHAHA ..

Ok , pictures below ..

He wants to be cheeky !
So I played along D:
Porridge steamboat :D
TomYam & Herbs steamboat :D
Dont know why that little boy loves to close his eyes .
:D
MY MOTHER MAKE ONE HOR MAISIAOSIAO .

Yoyo check it outzzzz see my pose and my little guy's pose ? :DDD

Happy Birthday to meeeeee
Make a wish ! Blow candles ..
Cut cake ! :DDDDD
Cream face !
Eatttttttttttt :D:D:D
The packaging of the pouches ..
My girl girl de pouch . Boy boy de with Hubbeeeeeeee :D
Jianing , your cookies rocks my socks la , I love you ! :D

Done (:
Anw , I think Im quitting my job soon . Yaya , I know I always show off my salary , LOL .
But , thinking back , Im not really happy working there .
Ya you guessing why at this time I never go work ?
It's just after my birthday passed you know ! Im still in birthday mood ...
Blah blah ):

Happy Birthday to Jocelyn & MrsJong ! :D

Going to take my PSP from downstairs . Before that I have to go bathe first !
Anw , I quarrelled with my mother and once again , the cold war starts .
Fuck .
It isnt a very good thing that I've grown older after all ? :/

Keep it going .

I wanna meet hubbee and Joycie ! :D
I want to hug boyfriend D:

♥ Kianhui

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2008-06-11T23:43:00.004+08:00

This post is going to be quick , Im missing my hubbee and I need to hear his voice !

Still got about 15 minutes , Im not too late for myself .
Happy Birthday to ArielOngMinMin (:
I love myself ! :D

I kept track of everyone who wishes me happy birthday because it means so much to you , it's either they nvr forget me or either they got notice me ! :D
So what if they saw it from my blog or so ? I really appreciate it when they say happy birthday to me .
I love everyone who rmbed my birthday , loveeeeee !

Birthday presents for this year ,
From family , Pink PSP :D
From mummy's friend , Black coloured bag bought from Japan [that doesnt suits me !] (:
From hubbee , birthday cake and couple hp pouches and movie treat ! ♥
From Jianing the AWESOME [hahahahhaha ! omg i cant take that :X] , very very delicious cookies !

I will get more , I know .
Wahaha .

Pictures and contents to be uploaded and updated tmr or Friday ! Damn that work of mine , after my birthday have to work liao , tmd , very bu shuang la , ROAR .

Ok ! I really miss my boyfriend .
The person I love the most is you , and you're also the one I want to thank the most . I know you've done alot for me , you've also cared alot for me . You arent a bad boyfriend , you're the best boyfriend I can ever get . In whatever way , I wont leave you and you wont leave me , right ? Quarrel or no quarrel , rain or shine , I love you hubbee .

Gladys , Joycie , Jianing , my closest friends/girlfriends/sisters these days who helped me to stand up and smile and , felt that I still have someone there for me even though Im not schooling already . Never be replaced (:

Thanks HJKs and my family too for helping me to celebrate my birthday :D
Alan and Kelvin dont quarrel !

Sincerity touched me alot .

Love filled up my world for today , thanks to everyone again .

To ex-classmates , once-bestfriends , old-playmates , thanks a million and you guys are never forgotten !

AND OMG , IM SO TOUCHED WHEN I VISIT MY FRIENDSTER . I NEVER EXPECTED THAT .
Well for people I know / dont know / never contact already / not close or whoever people that wishes me !!!! Im really really very happy and Im almost close to tears .

You guys made my day (:
Im like thanking so many people , but all words are from bottom of my heart ok .
Touched so much already T.T
Anyway .......

IM FIFTEEN , BABEYYYYYYY ! :D

♥ Kianhui

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2008-06-10T17:06:00.004+08:00

Like duhhhh ! I can only see my posts when there are little posts now . Is it because of those photos ?

I met this problem before but I forgot how to solve it .
:O
Oh well nvm .
:DDDDDDDD

Ytd , I went Bugis with Princess Belle ! :D
Met at 962 bus-stop and went to CWP .
Ate KFC !

Took MRT . Talk talk talk !
Reach Bugis , went Giovanna , no shoes I want de ):
Then we went Bugis Street ! Shopped at 2nd floor for super long la .
Then Joycie finally found what she wanted . Heehee .
We shared a belt .
I bought an off-shoulder [which i regretted buying again ):] and another tube dress .
Duh !
I dont want buy things which cannot try one again liao lor . Tmd la .

We help alot of people take the leaflets [?] then got one time I want take one more that person dont want give me ):
Nvm lor !
This kind of job also sian , but can earn money ... Hahaha . Got many small KIDS work at Bugis also , I think they still in primary school .
Took the MRT from Marina Bay ..

Then we went back to Fragrant . Then went to find Alicia with Joycie . Then after that I went home to eat home-cook noodles :D

Walked to find Jianing after that ...

I SUPER DUPER LOVE HER CONDO LA !
GOT SWIMMING POOL , BABY POOL , GYM , SKINCARE CENTRE , BEACH CHAIRS AND A CLEAR VIEW OF THE SKY WITH MANY MANY STARS !
:D:D:D

Was very fun talking with Jianing because she is spastic , ok I know what meaning k !! And the knowledge of the word is to be used on this spastic person lor !
Wahaha .
Then got one guy keep swimming and swimming and swimming and swimming for dont know how long leih . Very scary O:

I hope you like your present ! But as I said I will buy one more for you so dont worry k ? :D

Haha ! After that and I went to find Hubby .. He never open the door for me at first , later then opened for me leih [sounds abit irrelevant ..] .
I love talking to him face to face la , he'll be looking as cute as everrrrrrrrrrr !!! Because he will be always smiling when talking to me face to face , because I know he is tempted to smile by looking at my face . Right right right ?
And when I see him I also not unhappy anymore , will smile le ^^
His cousin also very nice person , lol . Slept at about 2+ , intended to wake up at 4am but dont know what happen ??? Then I woke up at 10am !
Smsed my father , because his good good daugter dont worry her parents wahaha .
Then I went to sleep again ..
Then a moment later Hubby keep kajiao me lol ! Then I very kp :S Then Hubby dont care me dont talk to me ):
Xiao qi gui ! :D
HAHAHA .
K la . Then after that I also dont want sleep liao , then we slacked lor .. Hug hug ^^

After that Hubby went CWP and I went home ..
I love you !

Then my parents and I went Vista Point .. I go choose the games I want for my new pink PSP , yes , my parents buying it for my birthday present !!! Wahaha . Super happy . I choose for very long .
Joycie ! I got choose Spongebob Squarepants game leih ! :D

OK ! I was about to say that Aiai nvr reply my smses and calls when finally she did xD
Happy ! Im going to meet her later !
And I got nothing much to say for today already . Wahaha !
Except that Im looking forward to get my PSP and ........

I love my Boyfriend very very very much ! :D

♥ Kianhui

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2008-06-08T23:05:00.012+08:00

Jiaen , Soon soon MY DEAR CHERRY OK ? Haha ! My schedule currently full then I also dont know I Thursday/Friday/Weekend working anot ! Fuck up de lor ): I will go out with you drink tea eat food if dont shop de hua ok ? Love and I miss you ! :D
S. , Yes of course ! :D Memories ma , wahaha . Where is your damn blog ! ):
Annessa , Thanks alot my dear (: Thanks for being such a sweet girl . Yes I shall have a happy birthday and smile ! Be happy too alright ? :D
Princess Belle , OK I DECIDED TO RELINK ! :D HEEHEE SHOPPING SHOPPING NEHX DARLING :D MY NEW POST COOL ? GOT YOUR HOT PICTURES NEHX . LOL . Loveyoumanxxxxxx ♥
Zubaidah , Yes , I did rmb about your birthday wish to me last year ! It was still kept inside my phone Z610i until I never used the phone . You dont know only x) And anw !!! I did sent to that number , but I guess it's my phone's problem ): Just bear in mind that I did wish you ok ? And one more important thing is that you will always be an important person kept in my heart as I move on in life . I love and miss you dear (:

Sometimes I think Im just too wicked to be true !
Like I can be as nice as I want and as bad as I want , I said I wanted this and I will want that in another moment , or I like this and that later .
I could forget all about a person , but rmb him/her suddenly . Some people always stay in your mind , and for some people , you'll be rmb-ing them now and then no matter how much time had past .

I just felt soooo guilty ! I took alot of things for granted , yet I could heck care about it .
Sometimes I talk bad behind people , yes , sometimes Im an evil person myself .
Im not a backstabber ok ? But for me , backstabber is like saying alot of fucking shit , yes , SHIT that are not true behind their back , because everyone deserves to be talk bad about , unless you are an angel with a white ring above your head and wings on your back :D
Arhhh , crap , maybe this are just all one sided opinions , and that's how Im again !
When I think this thing happen because it's MY opinion , I tend to think that others will feel the same .
But the fact is , I dont even give a damn about their feeling ?
But when I did try to notice and not do everything my own way , I feel so fake and uncomfortable ..
I feel that I should just tell him/her that it's my own thinking so why should you care ?
But have a thought la , like that , friends also cannot be friends le , pointless and worthless .

Dont say I do things without thinking , I do think , alot ! But my problem is that I tend to think one way and dont know how to make a curve to solve that problem .
Well anw , Im not very troubled , yes Im sort of feeling sad , but I dont want to be a bitch [ok , when i already am haha !] so Im doing some reflection on myself .

I might not be perfect in your eyes , but I can always be perfect in my own eyes .
So what if Im fat and doesnt have a model-like body , big eyes and sexay eyes and beautiful long hair , not as gentle and kind , or not as out-spoken and open-minded ?
Im something in between , which you cannot find other where wahaha .

Say , eeyer buay paiseh say yourself until so ......... !
But Im this good in my own eyes .
Somemore Im lucky to have a loving family and a wonderful boyfriend and a group of great friends .
Jealous ?
:D
:D
:D

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Ok ! Today is , Sunday (: Feels like a Friday to me , no idea why ! Wahaha , or a Saturday .

Supposed to wake up at 9am but my alarm is too soft to be heard ... [my soul phone , finally i realised that it's not a music phone lol ? Samsung phone speakers are lousy ! but i still love the touchscreen and camera (:] So I woke up at 11.30am , called Hubby and bathed and talked to mother and took 912 to his house .

It was my ljb but I want to show this because the quality is damn good and it focus on me that it shows my pores !!!!! Just to advertise its quality ^^

Lalalalalalalalalala .

Hubby was being effing cute ok ?! When I was at his house he keep give me funny and cute and weird expressions that make me laugh until super pengz . Heh . Love him many many !

Slacked again and after awhile we went outside to find Leon and Shanran on a cab :D
Cabbed to Woodlands Centre , Princess Belle and other HJKs are already there ! Hubby and me ate at Macdonalds again :O
I ate McSpicy today . Heehee .
Leon joined us for awhile .
After that go up see them play pool . Funny and fun and I was laughing all the way . It feels realllllllllll good to see my friends again !

DIDI . Oh-pillar-caterpillar till super cute de ^^

Ahpeh boyfriend ^^

Went to buy my things , check out PSP prices ... Because Daddy and Mummy kup money buy PSP for me ! :DDDDDDDDD
Wanted to buy red limited edition one , I was so in love with it ... But I predicted that I will get sick of it in a while so , might as well buy pink one which was cheaper and the same colour as Hubby's . But I never buy , Tuesday parents are bringing me to buy at Vista Point which is at a cheaper price , including of memory stick , games installed by them , blah blah blah . Quite a good deal lor . So Im sososo looking forward to Tuesday !!! Monday , Tuesday , Wednesday (:

Anw after that I went back to find them . I realised that my skinny jeans colour was the same as the grey one I was wearing on the picture on the previous post and I thought I choose wrong one , meaning I chose the same as the one at home ._.

Ate McFlurry later with Joycie ! Then I forgot what happen liao ...

Oh , played at the arcade there , the 3player game I suck at it la !!!! Super ):):): HAHAHA .
Then they like so enthu in the games ..... !

Hubby pei-ed me go change my skinny ! :D End up is that auntie take wrong not I choose wrong lor duhduh !

Then we and the others sat outside Macdonalds and talk talk talk .

I love pictures of people laughing !

I love this picture with my princess ♥

Hanjie mixed fries with salt and pepper , chilli , green tea , coke , onion ring and , saliva ? :S SUPER FUCKING DISGUSTING !
Say to Alvin that if he dare to eat one of the fries , Hanjie will give Alvin $2 . Then in the end also dont dare :D
And Hanjie's end product was like ... A shitty mash potato ? Sort of . It's disgusting !

Then Princess Belle and Princess Ariel proceed to talk about our Princessy topics and secrets :X
Was always so nice to catch up what's going on with her heehee .

This candid picture of Belle is so damn pretty ?!!?!

Everyone was chit-chatting away and after awhile we went to the bus-stop to wait for 912 ........
Damn long ok ? Because there was traffic jam at that period of time ! Talked to Princess for like so so long and the stupid bus still havent come .

Princess said this IS ladylike !
Ok and after I heard her views of me before and after she saw me I was so happy lor (:

Then Alvin started tour-guiding us on how to walk back to control station (:

HAHAHA .
Just as predicted , the bus came just as we walked about quite a distance , when we of course were to late to catch the bus , duh , so we walked pass Marsiling Sec , climbed a hill [???] , cheered [?!] , and finally reach the control station when everyone was sweating ! I was sticky and wet all over , duh ._.
It was a happy hour through all the walking , I love gatherings with lots of people tgt :D
Which all reminds me of the unity of every house-colour , group , class or whatever whatever competitions in primary school ! So fun !

Then went into CWP because everyone wanted to chill and some wanted to go The Blues ......
Then me and Princess and Hubby talked :O
Ok , felt quite happy and relaxed after that ! Heehee !
Hubby wanted to go home because there's no time to go Fragrant so I pei-ed him until Civics Centre there , talked awhile and he went home .
I bought Slurpee and walked home after that (:
Decided not to go Fragrant because Joycie wasnt there already and I was sticky all over .
Tadaa !
Here Im :D

Eventful day hor ? Im sososo happy today ok .
And tmr , Im going shopping with Girlfriend/Princess Belle/Joycie ! :DDDDDDD
And maybe Haoren and guys are joining . Not too sure .
But my shopping spree is starting leih . How can not excited right . No blog-shopping for today :D

Wednesday , they still havent decide where to go ... But I know there will be a cake for me and I'll be happy jiu ok le lo :D

In such a happy mood now , decided to go blog-shopping afterall . HAHAHA .
Calling Hubby after that .

Oh , anw attention to all !! DO NOT TAKE THESE PICTURES IN MY BLOG TO HAVE THEM AS YOURS/PUT AS YOUR DISPLAY PICTURES OR BLOG/ ANYWHERE ELSE HOR ! Unless you are one of them .. If not , if let me find out I shall screw you upside down la !!!! I will confirm !%^$^&!$^& make you die horrible vegetable de . Get the meaning ? Take mine , I still and consider whether to turn you into minced meat anot :D

Dont think Im overreacting but I really will feel very angry one lor ):

I forget to take pictures of us when we 'climb hill' heehee . Those pictures when Im not holding the phone is taken by dont know who !

I feel like watcing Love at Dolphine Bay once again D:

Boyfriend , calling you soon , I miss you !

♥ Kianhui

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2008-06-08T00:17:00.008+08:00

Guess what ? I've something to share wahaha .

You know ytd , I blogged and I said ,
"Boyfriend , where are you ? Please call me now if you can sense me ): "

HE REALLY CALLED ME LEIH !
It's like half an hour after I blogged finish .
Hahaha . But he really did called .
He said he dreamt that I leave him and he immediately woke up sweating :D

A once told me before when one time she was crying , B called and ask her , you crying ar ? When A nvr tell B anything , then B tell at her that she could feel that A was crying so she called A to check .
Telepathy , you called it ? :D
See , me and Hubby not only plain lovers kay , we're a couple that love esch other too much that we even can contact through psychological means . Wahaha !
So Im happy once again ! :D

Anw , I couldnt rmb many of the things that happen ytd ? :/
Oh my ytd meaning Friday :D

Work was tiring for Friday , I work 12 hours leih , same as Thursday !
Introducing stall No.1 on the left ...

It's said to be popular in Japan like how chicken rice is to Singapore :D
But honestly I dont think chicken rice is that popular in Sg ...

That auntie working at the stall (:

I saw this GUY on MRT and I get so excited lucky the MRT is shaking so that I manage to get a clear view of him !! [i mean my hp originally cannot capture him only after the MRT shake then tadaa !]

Im kinda bad :D
Paul Twohill is cute but that guy isnt .

Clicknetwork proves it :D
Anw his hair has grown longer compared to the picture .
Speaking of that I love Kaykay's voice and singing ...
She's just so sexay and enviable [?] , Im just trying to say I envy her ^^

Fell asleep straight after I lie on bed on those two nights !
Friday , talked to Aiai on the phone and Im meeting her on Tuesday ! :D
HEEHEEHEE .

Today working at 5pm , so I met Hubby before that (: Woke up at 12+pm , messed and joked around with my mummy ,

[im like so white ! dont jealous kay ? :D]

then they drive me go CWP meet him (:
Hubby was with Cheewei , Marcus , Sean & Guanyi . Bought Macdonald , went his house ..
Then me and him quarrel because of , taking bus or walking to his house , lol ? Stupid lor , fucking stupid !!
But ok le when at his house (:

Ate happily . I threw fries at him :D
Slacked around at his house ...
Those times are like so precious . And I really do feel so , loved like I've never ever been love before . I know people will be like wondering , why do couples always say I Love You and do not get sick of it ? Oh well , because it's love , something that you dont understand ok (:
Hugs will always be great when you're at your lowest points of life ...
I lovelovelove Hubby !

And we cabbed to my house and I prepared for work ......

Daddy mummy drive me to work .

In J8 , waiting for lift .

Then at 8pm , they surprised me again by turning up suddenly ! Heh , they ate food there for free , and mummy say she felt so full . Then she say the wedges very nice . Wahaha hear le also very shuang !

Then then , 9pm I change le then we went to Häagen Dazs buy ice-cream !!! :D
Went back to Woodlands after that , ate at Vista Kitchen for Sambal Fried Rice and Sambal Sotong ..............................

Im so damn fortunate to have my parents around loving me so much ^^
Am a lucky girl compared to other people ?

Went home to bathe and everything , called Hubby to call me , talk abit and he went to sleep .

Hubby I dont want you to have a "beer tummy" ):

My tummy and thighs and butt are getting big :/
Diet diet .
Any good ways to cut down fat faster and more effective ....... ?

Shopping on Monday with Joycie .
Tmr , I dont know where Im going ?
But Im going to Hubby's house in the morning (:
Off day for tmr ...

Suddenly I dont feel like blogging anymore .
Feel kinda .......... ):

Hubby Im not emo-ing :D

I wanted to start this sentence with 'I hate...' but I rmbed that someone told me that hating people will only make yourself more miserable . Why hate ? Learn to love .

Ok , so now , I think Im starting to love anime . Ahah ? Their songs are always so sad and soothing !

You Are My Love from Tsubasa Resevoir Chronicles is playing right ??
I dont understand but it's sad , talking about Sakura's love for Syaoran (:

My love for you isnt lesser ^^
I wish I can hold you for all I can and all I want :D
I ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ you !

Yawns , sleep ! :D
Morning buying hotdog [lol ?] go love's house .
Goodnights !

}}}Blogshopshopshop . Bugis on Monday omg so excited . KIASU .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-06-07T02:20:00.002+08:00

I saved the whole clump of thing I wrote as draft .
Yes Im saying it to the public . Yes I want everyone know .
Because I want to let anyone who read this to know that , I dont have the hands , and brain , and mind , to put my feelings into proper words anymore . Everything sounds so wrong and look so fake . I dont like it .

I like being myself dont I ?
But am I ?
Arent I ?
I dont know :/

Birthday coming .
Telling it to the public again .
Because I want peopleto wish me happy birthday .
I need love , care and happiness , finally a proper celebration on that faithful day .
IT'S FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME PLEASE .

Aiyar , whatever I type now , I'll still be in serious 'danger' . I couldnt type properly la . Type le backspace , type backspace .

Nothing sounds right enough to be posted , like , I will make people unhappy which will result in me being unhappy so why post them although I will feel happier posting out my feelings ? Fuck leih .

If you complain about my blog say until like this , then , why arent you there for me ? Why ?!

Im just so sad . Isnt sad just the very right word for everything ? Yes !
So , Im sad . Seriously sad .

I want to cry .

Boyfriend , where are you ?
Please call me now if you can sense me ):
I really need you la !!!!!!!!
Im falling so deep manz .
I cant lose you .

Im going out for fresh air . I cant tahan le .

I ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ YehKianhui , ):

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2008-06-04T21:17:00.004+08:00

I've gone missing ):
Lol , all those craps about responsibility at work .
Fuck them all !
I failed myself , once again !
Because of emotional unstability I did not turn up for work for Monday and half of Tuesday . So unreasonable right . Shalala .
But who cares . I can escape school , so I can escape work as well :D

Like I can ... ):

I feel that Im useless again ! Well Im working till the end of this week and Im having a break till July (:
Next week is going to be the best days of my life in 2008 , shall it be ?
Im sososo looking forward to celebrating my birthday !
Or might as well say that Im looking forward to any surprises that will sprang up to me on that day (:

WAHAHA .

Jianing , Meixia , Huiting , Shenghao , Jocelyn s' birthdays are coming as well !
Happy birthday in advance to all June babeyyyys ! :D

On Sunday , before I met Aiai , she was asking me whether I have thumbdrive , I had one but it was only 122 mb -.-
But inside , there are 3 folders of photos , lol ?
One was my cousin's wedding and me being the bridemaid , 2nd one is having Chinese Dance first performance during CNY , and the 3rd one is an outing with Liting , Jiayee , Huiting and Liwen . I was shocked at the 3rd one !!

Liting ):
I miss this bitch so much . She was one of the sisters I was so close to in Riverside Sec !

This was the most decent and nice [?] photo I found in that folder (:

She was like , zilian-ing with my Z610i ! Teeheehee .

Back then , she really got me going like a madass along with her ! I cannot forget that Jiaen also . We three were officially the lesbians of 1/7-2/7 in 2006-2007 . HAHA . Memory lane !

I was having a Converse sling bag in black at that time , it was a bag I will nvr ever touch nowadays ...
It's a very precious birthday present from my beloved mama :D

Jiayee was super sweet during my Sec 1 birthday , she made a small pink and red box with my name and 'Precious Moments' this two words on top with earrings inside (:
Im having it beside me now !

My Sec 1 birthday , Liting treated me to tiramisu roll , lol ! Im still saying something like , someone gave me tiramisu on my birthday only leih ! when I met her last time (: Heehee .

I will expect this year to not have as much birthday presents like last year , or like last last year . Every year , my birthday presents keep decreasing and decreasing . But I know that , people tends to be like that : If she gave me present on my birthday then I give her , if she dont , I dont (:

But !! Who knows lor , got many times I bought the present but always didnt manage to meet that person until that present is really worthless and Im keeping it myself without any intentions of using it ! Duh . And sometimes when it's peoples birthday , I know it , but later people thought I was just trying to put on a good front with them how ):

Ok too paranoid lol !
Got one special person in my Sec 1 & 2 life is Zubaidah , her birthday was 20th May and I did WISH her thru sms , but I guess her hp number changed :/
Pm me when you see this Zubaidah dearest ! :D

Last year , I celebrated with Liting , Jingji & Eefatt at Vivo City , it was an awkward but funny day .

But the most memorable was celebrating with Gladys , Pohshen , Aaron , Jason , Kelvin and Tsy (:
I rmb-ed the blue and pink octopus the most !!!! Both of them are on my bed now :D
We were at Vivo City and we swimmeddddd at the outdoor pool hohoho !
So fun . Love birthdays . Always feel so special on those days !

Then , I rmb-ed my dearest Aiai birthday celebrated last year with the clique of us when we already knew TNT , Alvin , Edwin and guys .. Everyone's face was piak with cream and cake and it was so oily and in the end Alvin Lee biked me home lol !
So fun (:
Still rmb lucky Jianing didnt 'share' the cake with us . Wahaha !

But in the end all are still part of the past and it's time to move on .
Guess what ? This year shall be the first year Im celebrating with a boyfriend by my side , celebrating with a boyfriend . Or rather , this year , Im celebrating with not just a boyfriend , but MY , THE , MR BOYFRIEND . You dont get it but I do (:

Im really happy Boyfriend and Alvin is helping me plan ! :D

Happy happy .

Anw speaking of Aiai , I met her on Sunday and we talked alot . I spoke out my deepest feelings to her because only she know how to settle and talk to me in a way I dont feel guilty of saying my tots to her and make me cheer up at the same time (:

Virgo are strong cheerful people who cheer people up with their hyperness too , my Aiai ^^

I really hope this year's birthday can be undescribable :DDDDDDDDD

Anw after work today , I went home to bathe and eat dumplings at home and went down to find Hubby . He bought bubbletea for me , so sweet can ! Oreo Coffee (:
Heehee !
He gave me a big big hug when he saw me ! Was joking and having fun all the way .
He's really idiotic , we were sort of playing hide-and-seek and I always win !
Loser la mr retard xD
Love you anw ! Heehee .

Went to Fragrant , there were basketball matches and DUHHHHH my boyfriend was so indulge in watching the game and I find it infuriating because it was a girllllllllls' match !!! Omg , faints .

Hanjie and Alvin really made me laugh like 55667788 . HAHAHA .
Later went to RC , Juntong and Sean came . Cleomine , a primary schoolmate was along with them . Quite surprised ! But she was quite left out , I guessss ??
Simon , Theodore and Alvin were sitting tgt and I think Im like so clever bcos I still rmb !! :D

Hubby sent me home ! Hug and kisses , went home (:

I cant wait for my working week to end ! :D
Oh ya I saw Yvonne Chua from 3/9 at my workplace today and she nvr see me lor !!!
Jiaren please tell Yvonne I saw her and she didnt saw me ok if you see this :X
HAHA !
Oh yeah , Jiaren and her stead are so sweet and Im like so jealous , AHAH , FAKE !
Yays we got boyfriendddddddddd .
Cheers to all happy couples on this little world ^^

Oh yes , I wanna act cute .
Hee .

Next week is going to be eventful , this is suppose to go according to plan hor lee alvin !

Wednesday , buy cake celebrate with me at Fragrant ^^ [going to throw cake i know and i wanna throw also bleah you are all so going to DIEEEE ! :D so fun i want throw cake !]
Thursday , everyone going East Coast :DDDDD [boyfriend was like really want me go , he says , i want you to go you know ! then i thought he was talking about this thursday i said no :X east coast is gonna be fun !]
Friday , Im meeting Joycie for Prom Night movie date , our dearest princessy date ! [plus im going to stuff her mouth full of food and we're so gonna find our belongings , you know , ariel&belles' stuffs !]
Saturday , it's Seoul Garden and movie day with HJKs ! plus boyfriend (:

Oh and Monday/Tuesday Im going shopping at Bugis I dont care ar I need new clothes , and for my own info , I GOT MY PAY YTD , YTDDDDDD !!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

But bad news is , I owed my sister so much money that I practically have no much money left for myself .
Ok ! Not that exaggerating ^^
But my money got limit leih ..

I thought of Joycie , my princess again (:
Everything you're going thru , Im going thru along with you , and every problem of yours , Im sharing it with you . It's not fair to be lifting everything up alone , and what's more , I love helping , Im like , a so kind person can ^^
East Coast better go hor , let's get crazy and screammmmmmmmmmmmmmmm .
Love you and screw those son of/ and bitches ! YAWWWWWWWWWW .

:D

Wahaha .

Andddd .. Good news from TNT again , this papa wrote letter to me again ! (:
He seems fine and having fun ... Well anw I could see him this month , so ...
Let's look forward ! Brandon and TNT faster come out see us ! :D

To wo de laogong ,
I wanna be your wifey yi bei zi .
Celebrate with me my birthday every year . Give me a kiss when I blow candles every year .
Fuck fuck quarrels .
Thanks for everything that shows that you love me .
I know we're both happy bcos of something that happened today (:
Yay happy happy once again . Love you manyzzzzz .
Hold me tonight

Im kind of tired . Buh-bye ! Off to call up my boyfriend . It's 10.14 now !

Smilezzz everyone ! Smiling is a happy thing (:

♥ Kianhui

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2008-06-02T20:31:00.004+08:00

I feel like deleting my last post lol -.-
Too long and irritating .
Im like so weird hor ?
Lol !

Never turned up for work today .
Emotionally and physically dont feel well .
Went to Vista Point to slack for awhile .
Wanted to find Hubby and Alvin . Then saw them walk across the road (:
Went to Viva , Fragrant [like finally !] , then Vista Kitchen .

I want to thank Alvin for putting into effort to prepare my birthday , brother always ! (:

Hubby was being so good , so nice to me .
I should really cherish him .
Stop being so selfish bitch ...
No one can ever treat you so good again .
I love Kianhui .

Photos that I took from his phone (:

And this was taken just now !

Okay Im super ugly , HAHA .
Neh Im such a pretty girl .
Oh well oh well .
Maybe I'll be back later .
I wanna see aiai ! :D

Im missing boyfriend again .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-06-02T01:54:00.010+08:00

Miss me ? :D
Firstly ! A loud announcement , I miss work ! Today's my off day (:
I got used to being on my own other then being with boyfriend , and went to town alone today . But Im so not a loner (:

But when you're alone , you can think whatever you want , go wherever you want , you rule your own wahaha .

Anw , last few days of work was quite alright , at least something bad happen each day . Ahboon , the other cashier that had worked there since the stall opened , is leaving in mid-june or so . So Im taking over his job after that . That's why Im deciding whether to work full/part time . Maybe Im taking full time , 12 ~~days a week~~ hours a day [JIANING LOL] , 2 off days afterall . Anw , I could get off days on public holidays too so it's quite ok (:
Hubby and I are meeting lesser nowadays [but we are still loving each other as ever dont ever try to break us apart !] so , sleeping at home till 1 , 2 , or even 3pm isnt good for health ._.
Might as well sleep early everyday , wake up early , work my happy job (:

Im working happily , getting along quite ok with the people there , making mistakes now and then , therefore letting me get more experience and learn to be more hardworking , hardworking to rmb every thing taught , and and responsible , for everything I do and say . It can affect the whole situation :S

Yeah , responsible , a serioussssss lesson for me manzzz ):
On Saturday , I worked from 9am to 5pm . Then .. There's this customer , an Angmoh .
I used to respect and like Angmohs alot , because they are friendly and their accent sounds so nice and special . Smile at them , they will give you an even wider smile and nod their head in acknowlegdement . That's why Im happy whenever I come across Angmoh customers . [anw , i dont know exact word for angmoh :S]

BUTTTT .
This customer , a big sized Angmoh , male , came along .. ordered a set ~~male~~ meal which consists of the main course + 2 sides + soup . He ordered that . But he said no sauce but I never heard it . My fault , FIRST NOTE : take note of all needs and wants of your customer ._.
Then , we wanted to make a new one for him , he diam diam . After that , I begin to serve him the soup , he said , serve him after the main course . I dont know whether it means , passing him the main course first , then the soup , or after he ate finish the main course then he come back and we serve him the soup . I thought it was the second one , then I said , err , sorry , we cannot do that for you .

THEN , he said , I WANT MY MONEY BACK ):
Ok , SECOND NOTE : make it clear if you dont understand what the customer is saying , I guess they will rather you make their order right by asking one more time then making their order wrong ?

Then I was like thinking , actually we can do that for him , I CAN do that for him ._.
Because , he'll be coming back to take the soup himself , no need for me to trouble anything right ?
Yeah , so THIRD NOTE : do the best you can for your customers .

From this work , which might seem not-very-high-class job for most of the people around , I could learn many many things . I learnt that working is REALLY not easy . You could not rebel like how you could do in school . You can gang up with your friends against the teacher even if you're in the wrong without passing up hw or etc etc and that the teacher demands you to hand up the work in the right way , but you definitely could not gang up with your fellow workers to have a strike against the boss/supervisor .
Becauseeee they will always be more experienced than you and their reasons confirm win over you and they will always win . Ok , I can honestly say that , average 4/5 of the workers there are super responsible and know what's really right and wrong . So there's no reason for them to be ganging up with you if you had done something wrong .

The right thing to do is , I guess , listen , put into your heart that you will nvr do that again . Getting said by your boss/supervisor do you good . Hoho . Doing things the right way , actually can makes your boss/supervisor happy , people around you happy , and you'll be happy . Somemore when you do things right , your customer will be satisfied and that's the main purpose of working there right ? :D

HAHAHA . IM GETTING SO PRO RIGHT . HEEHEEHEE .
But that's plainly my own opinion . I likeee my work and enjoys making everyone happy !
Since primary school till sometime this year , I dont believe in making everyone happy is making yourself happy .
Now I understand that . Same goes to , give is better than take .

Conclusion ...
Ongminmin has matured so so much (:
HEEHEE .

Ok this is boring , talking about work ...

Let me talk about morning ! I wanted to wake up at 6am and prepare to go his house so that more time could be spent tgt . End up waking up at 9am ._.
OK after I bathe brush teeth change and everything I CABBEDDDDDDDD to his house :D
So good right me ? Heehee .

But I go there see him sleep ...
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Heehee but he woke up in the end ! :D

♥ Hubby !

MAPLE ):

Got a conflict at his house , but was alright in the end thanks goodness . Original movie plan cancelled T.T
He better make it up for my birthday hor xD
Oh ya my birthday ...................
Im still deciding how to celebrate . Am happy that Aiai is helping me to make a gathering on my birthday ^^
Goody Im celebrating this year birthday with many people !
Heehee .

Anw , after slacking at his house , we cabbed to 515 .........

Then I ate ...
LAKSA !!!!!!
Something I've been craving for a million years omgomgomg .
Irritating boyfriend keep pestering me to eat faster __
Fakeeeeee (:

Went to my house , he waited for me to change again , and we took bus to CWP .
On the bus I was busy zilian-ing ...

... and asking him to join in that he was frustrated . FUNNY LA LOL .
He went to find other HJKs and I went to town lo (:

Reached Somerset at about 6pm . Blah blah , bought a belt and a tube/halter neck only =/
Sadded la , if I had known I confirm go Bugis !
But I love the night scenery there ♥

Different kinds of SGPreans (:

Went back Woodlands at 8pm , what more could I do when I cannot find something that suits me and my budget ? Haha !

I was trying to capture the pink MRT I was in , I never notice it was pink until I step out of it !

Bought 2 tickets for The Chronicles of Narnia : Prince Caspian .
Went window-shopping at CWP while waiting for Sister to reach .
CWP shops items suit me and my budget more (:
I should have agree with boyfriend and shop with him at CWP lol !
Oh yeah , met Princess Belle & Jesslyn for awhile , feels good to see them again !
Misses to Fragrant ♥♥♥

Watch the movie when Sister reached ..
And guess what ? I ate nacho chips AND popcorn from Uncle Tidbits .
How fat can I be ):
Eh but Im just pampering myself manzzz (:
HAHAHA .
Speaking of the popcorn , it's introduced to me by Aiai last year , it tastes great and cost only $1.00 , one packet is enough for yourself . Save money !!!

But I kinda regret having the nacho chips T.T
Fucking stupid leih .

Ok the movie .

WAS SUPER NICE LA ! I ♥ NARNIA SERIES (:
WAS SO EXCITED THE WHOLE WAY THROUGH THE MOVIE .
DISTURBED MY SISTER WAHAHA . HAD FUN AND THINK THE MOVIE IS SUPERB .
BUT MY SISTER SAID MONEY WASTED BCOS SHE WANTED TO CONCENTRATE ON THE MOVIE BUT FAIL TO DO SO BCOS I WAS DISTURBING HER .
WAHAHA .
BUT NEHHH I HAD FUN (:

Heeeeeeee . Then only the lift was left for us to get to the first floor . Me and sister went in the the first lift , very difficult then squeeze in . Embarrassingly , OVERLOAD WAHAHA . Ok ! Not because of us only ok , a couple went out also before us ! But I was laughing like mad bcos it was sososooooo funny :D

Then the 2nd lift came and we managed to get inside without overloading the lift .
There was extra space in the lift but no one else dare to go in anymore ! FUNNY .
Then we were in the lift . It was really fucking quiet . And I was msging boyfriend . All everyone in the lift could hear was the sound of my phone buttons .
Then I find it funny and I , giggled ! WAHAHA .
So damn funny tell you .

Took 9oo bus home (:

TADAAAAAA . Here Im blogging lor ! :D

Anw boyfriend was right , my phone is getting to be not so good to me anymore !
Sad right . My supervisor said that although the phone's camera was 5.0 megapixels but even Sony Ericsson's phone 2.5 can beat mine . Boyfriend said that his phone which was dont know what megapixels camera is even clearer . Wellllll . I agree with Sony Ericsson's phones are great ! :D
But I wanna try the newest phone , and I wanna try Samsung , first ever in my collection ! And for free leih (:
And the phone takes 5 seconds to take one clear photo with the 'scene' option , which is counted damn slow . Using the 'camera' option result in superrrrrrrr unclear photo ):
So like , I will fail if I want to zilian outside with my phone not letting anyone see !
Oh well .

The voice of my loudspeaker boyfriend isnt loud when Im talking with him on the phone !
The music played out at the music player wasn't any louder ! [ok it was louder , but softer than alot of phone , but the salesperson at the counter said it's a camera and music phone ?]

PLUS , I will accidentally press until the touchscreen even when I havent finish typing the msg !
THEN , sometimes sent msges which are already delivered to the other party was saved in outbox instead !

:/

But nvm that , I still like this phone , and I dont know why , maybe it's bcos I could choose the colour of the icons of the touchscreen and my theme ? :D

:D
:D
:D

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I have something to reflect , on myself . I cried , I really love them , so so much .

To my dearest mother , who had done so much for me , cried so much for me , suffered my attitude and scoldings so badly . Im really guilty . Im starting to regret everything starting from last year mid-June . One year had passed and Im only starting to reflect . Lately , I might have done something which will upset you greatly if you've known . I hope nothing big will happen .

To my dearest father , who dotes on me so much after that big big cold and fierce war last year , giving in to me , helping me in every way you can , not scolding me a single time , bearing all the hardwork , difficult choices , stress from this family and work , keeping them all to yourself .

Im starting to believe in , god ?
Omg , I cant believe it myself , until today , when I start to plead God in my heart to forgive me for what I have done wrongly .
Should I turn into a Christian instead ? Will I meet an accident bcos Im having a buddha charm necklace hanging on my neck and Im thinking about God ?
What's god .
Oh yeah , in that movie , there was this big wave that turn into a face , swallowing all the bad soldiers . I think that face looks like God to me !

I think I've been such an evil person all along . All the bad things I've done to you , talked about you , cursing about you , you might have never known . Maybe I had backstabbed you a million times , but till now you still dont know about it . Maybe I've really hated you to the core , talked about you as anonymous in my blog , diary , and you might not even know it . All the evil thoughts in my mind , even about wanting to kill , torture , beat someone ? Could have appeared in my mind before . How will you know ? Im evil ...

But I dont want to go to hell . Maybe pain might be nothing to you now blah blah , but hell is hell , it will be million and zillion times more worse than the worst you will ever imagine . That's what I believe in .

But I believe hell is getting to be more and more high tech . I guess , if you really , sincerely , 1o1% had the heart to change to be better , I think you will be spared . Anw , what am I thinking ?
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I wanna say thanks and sorry to boyfriend anw , I love you ^^

Cheer up Joycieeee ! Hope things are fine with you and * (:

Aiai is helping me to dye hair one day ... Weeeeeeee :D

Oh ya , suddenly rmbered about Hei Tang Ma Qi Duo when I read Cherry's blog last week , and I saw Lollipop on Yu Le Bai Fen Bai !!!

AHWEI IS MY SUPER OU XIANG , HE VERY GOT THE TALENT , HE SHORT SHORT CUTE CUTE DE , I LIKE ^^

Not to forget my favourite wa wa of Hei Se Hui Mei Mei , Y Tou ^^

Ok Im going to find something to watch on Crunchyroll now :S
Anw reading back the working responsibility thing Im really surprised why I type like that lol ?!

I know you'll miss me so another picture of me ^^

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-29T00:23:00.004+08:00

I love you anyway my dear (:
He's the best medicine to heal my loneliness ..

Have I mentioned that Im not going to work full-time ? (:
Heehee ! I figured that money is not as important as freedom & time is to me . Why spend all your life working without having fun even though you earn alot of money ? Yeah . So what if its 500-800 dollars a month ? Im not a da xiao jie / someone who goes for famous brands .

I do dream / think / want to make up , dress up myself like someone elegant or whatsoever .. But I guess that's not me for the moment ! Heehee . So what if Im not schooling already ? Im still a goody girl ok ! I nvr turn bad (:

*SMILES*

What am I going to be when I grow up ? Im already a grown up anw (:
Once I earn like a 10 thousand dollar or above , should I further my studies in some private school , or should I be a chef / baker / makeup artist ? I love to be a chef , I love food ♥

K la fuck . Im REALLY growing fat , for the million times .
Im SERIOUSLY going to cut down fats . At least 5kg la T.T
Can I do it ? No more bubbletea , fried food , tidbits !
Mummy said that I could eat meat leih :D
So happy lol ! Im also happy to eat skinless chicken la . The skin of a chicken is worth twice the calories of the chicken itself !! [lol not true la -.-]

Maybe I should just continue work in this place for many years , and learn cooking along the way (:
One day , I might take over the whole business and be ladyboss ? Im going to participate in chef competitions and winnnnnn .

This morning , I woke up at 7.15am , took 912 to his house (:
I love bus rides !! [when I can seat down ! :D]
Then I'll listen to music and daydream all d way ......
Reach his house at about 8.10 .
He fucker leih ask me go his house see him sleep .
Heehee ! But me , this good girlfriend let him sleep !
And I used his computer :D
Nothing to do so watched 13 Beloved which is also known as 13 Game of Death at Crunchyroll.com .
Watched that show before at Joycie's house before ! I rmbed at Joycie's house I watched halfway then fall asleep lol ! So I missed the middle part of the story . Was kinda creepy watching alone la -.- Keep skipping some parts of the movie lol .
I find it funny that that Thailand guy's name is dont know what Chit de . Sounds like shit . Lol . That Chit got eat Shit in the movie also . Black comedy ? Or what did you call it ? Eeyer .

After that , 11 + decided to wake dearest up one . End up I sleep with him also lol ! Just now on the phone he asked me , when we sleeping tgt I got hug you ? So funny :D
Then I say got ! Heehee . Sleeping in his arms is warm and happy and fortunate :D

Though I've gone through alot alot of things with him since November ? Heh . I love my blog archives and will never delete them ♥
You mean the whole world , universe , life , to me . I'll quit all connections to the world if the one day , when you leave me , comes .
And I know that will nvr happen my dear .
I trust you alot . You're not abit like other bastards like J*** Tan .
You are the only one who gave me the special feelings , only you among all other guys .
Rmb how we said , we're like husband and wife ?
We will be .
I dont and wont care what others say , even if they say that dream on , no couples of your age will last till marriage or any rubbish like this .
Because I trust , I believe you .
Muackkkkkkks Hubby :D

Okie heehee . After we woke up , we ate lunch cooked by his lovely Ahma (:
His Ahma damnit cute la ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD
His cousin , biaomei also there ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
HAHA .
He kpkb with his cousin until super funny leih . Pig head dog head (:
Seriously he did look CUTE !
You should see him yourself when he isnt wearing cap and specs . Hee .

After that , we went to Vista Point and bought Bubbletea . Guess who I saw ?
LYNETTE .
Was very happy to see her , she was funny when mixing the bubbletea (: I love her brown hair !
Im going to dye my hair soon I guess (: Saturday !!!!!
I must this time le ! Like , freedom man , I can have dyed hair for as long as Im surviving on this world , as long as EOTW never comes !!!!!!!! :D

ANYWAY TO LYNETTE ! Your bubbletea is quite alright ? HAHA . MAKE MORE FOR ME , ADD PEARL FOR ME NXT TIME :X
Ok whatever . Sat under block with him as usual and kiss goodbye !

Prepared everything and went to work .

Work was alright la today , got one female teenager , her total cost of food was 12.20 dollar but she's short of 20cents ..
And she can have the food for 12 dollar you know ! So good right . Lol . If I was her I will be so fucking grateful to myself lol ! Aiyar , I ask my fellow , how to say ? Colleague [-.-] ? Whether can discount 20 cent anot he say can then can lor (:

Actually I feel quite good for being a good person :DDD

OH YA GOT ONE THING SUPER DUPER FUCKING ANGRY TILL NOW MY ANGER STILL HAVENT GO AWAY LOR !!!!!!!!!!!!

Got one ill-mannered de xiao didi . Bu dong shi sia . I very old meh ?!?!! He fucking called me auntie , I want fish&chips !!!!!

Fuck lor . Super angry . Complained everywhere after the little boy go off ! Well , when he was there , of course well-mannered Ongminmin smiled sweetly and make that order for him .

But if I were someone else I sure will screamed at him and strangle him and shake him until he got to his senses man ! That's what I was thinking really ):
Im really sad about that , someone calling me auntie .. Just imagine , a 15 year-old-to-be girllllllllllll , ladyyyyyyyyyyyy , teenagerrrrrrrrrrrr , so young , being called an auntie , super fuck up sia . Blabber blabber !!!

Ok ._.

Went home after work (:

Saw Lynette again after I get off bus ! :D

Talked to dearest after bathing . He's gone to his piggy land and Im blogging now ! :D

Heh . Shopping at Fareast with dearest Princess Belle on Sunday . Faithful off day sia (:
Im missing HJKs .

On my birthday , Im asking alot of people to go VivoCity / Eastcoast / Sentosa .
Or maybe just HJKs (:

Jianing birthday is coming too ! Im buying a present for her ! :D NOT ! HAHA . I mean yes . No ? :DDDDDD

Miss playing at Vivo City 's pool . So fun , so many memories with so many people (:

One day I wanna dive in the sea ! :D

And one day I wanna smoke , when Im fucking 18 . I'll watch M18 movies , smoke , drive , whatever whatever ! :D
Ok Hubby , Im joking about the smoking part .

Oh so random , Im tired , going to sleep ! Good night my dears , muackkkk .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-27T14:03:00.005+08:00

To Dearest Belle :D
Flood me with more tags man lol ! Yes I'll nvr go play Maple dont worry lol -.- So I've actually type below and here that I book a part of Sunday for you ya ! Love manz ! And yes Im going shopping on Sunday woohoo Im getting so excited HAHAHA . Do sms me or whatsoever when you see this ya ! Lurbssxxzzz euuuuuuuuuuu .

YAYYYY . Im back to blogging ! :D

Work was tiring as usual but alright (:

Oh I've have a great piece of news , *GRINS*
I bought a new phone ! Or lets say , I got a phone for free , hoho (:

NO SECONDARY/FRONT CAMERA LA !!! TMD MANZ .

Im kinda lazy to search for photos on the internet , so I just took photo of the box where my handphone was place (:

Samsung Soul SGH-U900

You see the bottom part of the phone with 9dots and 4 icons ? That one is a touch screen !
Also , this phone has the function User Created Skin [UCS] , which means that I could create a theme for my phone on my own hoho ! Tell you ar , my handphone very pretty ^^
Also the touch screen colour could be changed !

What can you tell from the photos ? My phone camera is very good :D Heh .
Ok , not that good but 5.0 magapixels *BEAMS*
Ok la , Im going to zilian everyday and post my pictures everyday also !
Im going to take pictures everyday :D

Taken ytd while waiting at 962 bus stop .

Ok and finally , Im going to introduce my workplace ! Yes Im really very happy having this phone heehee .

The stall Im working at , now you know why Im growing like , fatter ?!

Two of my new friends :D
They very teng me one you know !

Surprisingly , one month had passed since I worked there . Everything is fine so far , except getting scolded now and then by Bossxxxzzz or any of them . Well , Im going on fine (:

Im going to work from 5pm-10pm on weekdays of this week (:
On Saturday , Im working from 9am-5pm .
Sunday , off-day ! :D
Joycie , Im asking you out on Sunday okie !!!!

And of course my dearest boyfriend (: I'll nvr leave you out hehheh .

And I know many people miss me , so ...
Yeah right .
But here's some picture of Princess Ariel anw , lol ._.

Whatthefuck I know wahhaha . But it's clear right my pictures ?!
Oh ya , why I say I get this phone for free becozzzzz my father sign contract for himself and got this phone for free ! And I get this phone from Vista Point Singtel shop ! The guy is funny and the workers are friendly ! Good deals heehee .

I♥My new handphone !
Satisfaction guaranteed ☆☆☆☆☆

:D

Ok , now that I've bought my handphone for $0 [?] , I can spend my salary on shopping spreeeeeee which was mentioned earlier , to be done with my very dearest Belleeeeee . Heehee . Im going to prepare for work already , so byebyeeeeeeez .

Samsung Soul SGH-U900 is really good (:

I miss Hubby !

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-25T19:06:00.003+08:00

First pay , shopping spree ? Handphone ? Shopping ? Handphone ? Which one ?
I badly need new clothes ):
And I super badly need a new handphone ! Fuck la , should not have smashed my own handphone , so stupid .

Off day on a Sunday , which is like . WOW ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Super happy , but a day doing almost nth lor =/
Fineeeeee .
I miss Joycie ):

Whenever Im having an off-day , NO ONE ASK ME OUT .
When Im working for full day or just working , so many fun events going on .
):
How sad I get ? I go emo le .

Emo-ing in progress ..
Cuts hands .............
Bang walls .............

-.-

Kay la , but today is serious , tiring and boring and Im having a headache !
I want mummy ):
It's a family day and I die die also want have dinner with my daddy and mummy . Fuck leih , I very long then will off day on a day everyone free . If I know I confirm go out with my mummy .
She went Bugis , Expo and CHANGI AIRPORT today la fuck !

She can shop ! Eat ! See aeroplanes ..
Im just stuck in woodlands . Lol .
I wanna see aeroplanes ..
I wanna have nightlife ..
I wanna go to the beach ..
Get my money and shop till die . Muahaha .

I miss Nengtong like shittttt . I dreamt about him coming out ytd night and it was totally sooooo real !! I still rmb Edwin and Alvin and Gerald meeting TNT with me ! Then I called Jianing .. She came with a big big smile :D
REALLY . DAMN REAL LOR .
Pray hard , real hard , he's coming out damn fucking soon .

Everythings falling out of place and Im just so damn flustered ...
What should I do ? I will make the matter worse if I do anything .. But if I dont do anything everything will be as bad as ever ..
I feel very uncomfortable . 不自在。Fuck ):

Then I'll think of a song ... Your Love is A Lie .
Dont suspect anything bcos of this words .
Dont think of anything when you see this post .
Dont misunderstand anything .
Im very frustrated and it's time to blog out my feelings again in my blog . Im tired for not blogging my feelings out . It's the best place to go when nobody's there for me ):

Maybe , someday when Im free , Im going to the airport alone (:
Or the beach .
Since no one is pei-ing me , why not do it alone ?
It's like Im alone all the time already . Doesnt makes a difference .

Im like not emo-ing ?
Im just upset . Very upset . Over nothing !
PMS PMS PMS .
Quickly have my period and let the PMS go all over man . Fuck .

Glad to see my blog counter rising . Lol .

Maybe I should go play maple too . Hahah .
Oh yeah , miss me ? Here I am :

I miss you , I really do .. But who knows what are you saying ..
Who are you kidding ?

Now guess what . Alrights . I love Hubby .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-23T12:21:00.004+08:00

Sorry , I wont make this kind of things happen again .
Bear in heart that I wont wanna leave you , EVER .
I've prove it to you havent I ?
I insisted not when you said yes . Trust my love for you already ?

All those quarrels happen bcos I wanna spend more time with you , my loved one .
Havent you know ?
I will give in and so should you ma !
Wo hen ai ni Hubby .
Bu yao li kai wo .

Wei le ni , shen me dou ke yi .

♥ Kianhui

2008-05-22T22:28:00.002+08:00

Decided to post the photo taken today afterall (:
My ljb , love it . Hah .
I really love that idiot too .

I asked him to take de .
Then I took his one also :D

He's trying to be like me . Haha dream on man monster xD
But I know we're cute lol !
There's a whole load of other photos , mostly his ones .
But guess what ? I dont wanna share Im selfish .
Muahahah .

Something's going wrong .
PMS . Hopefully .
Hope it's something wrong with me , only .
That will be great , it's my own stupid thinkings (:

Jianing , should I deny all the bad bad things Im thinking in my heart ):
Will it be better ?
I know Im just such an asshole , troublesome freak .
Maybe I said that other people are possessive and he's possessive .
But I guess I could be much more possessive than them all .

Maybe I arent a good girl afterall .
My thinkings are affected by things happening .
I being far too paranoid .

Nevertheless , I love him still the same . Maybe , more and more .
It will never end .

Oh yeah again , I dont like to share .
Return my love to me .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-22T18:30:00.003+08:00

Your partner's behaving in a way that has you confused. Avoid jumping to conclusions -- it doesn't mean something bad is going on. Sit them down and present your concerns. There's probably a simple explanation.

Great (: Means Im just thinking too much lol .

I guess Im being much too possessive already . But who cares ? Im only having him and only him . He's my very love and Im loving him more each day .

Pictures will be uploaded later when Hubby send me the photos ! :D

Today , is far more fun than ytd although it's only for an hour , today .
Was so afraid that he'll think Im fan . Sighs . But I cant help thinking he dont wanna meet me !

Until he meet me , Im happy and relieved (:
He got lost around Hanjie's block there lol ! Was damn cute . Went to buy bubbletea and I saw Kaijing and Sheryl (:

Wasnt having such a good mood that time so I nvr talk much to them ! Bought double oreo for him and honey milk tea for myself . I need something to sweeten up my mood !

Went to buy a strawberry Pocky .
Made in Thailand , $1,00 .
Made in Japan , $1.10 .
Lmao ?
Like what's the difference about that taste ? Havent tasted the Thailand one .
Bought the Japan one which costed only 10 cents more .
Duh !

Sat down at our usual place and drank bubbletea . We were talking and talking and my dearest made me laughed like mad . Was happy once again (:

Talked about people's appearances , their backstabbing methods , about TootA and TootB , and about TNT and Brandon .

Went up to the the storey of my flat [?] and we talked more , took pictures and blah :D

Hubby chased me home ):
Alrights Im working tmr again .

Oh ya , I nvr work today bcos I STOMACHACHE and FLU .
Not gengster please Hubby ! :D

My parents are quitting their work .
My mother is going out to work instead of staying home babysitting .
My father is going to find other engineering work for himself .
Hope my family is getting better and better :D

But that baby my mummy babysits for is so duper cute and he's living ):
Fuck lor . I love that baby !!

Watched "我的左眼见到鬼" ytd night because I could not go to sleep . Guess everyone knows what show it is already lol yes Im slow !
But it's such a nice movie , the wife's love for her husband .

I love Kianhui .
I love Hubby .
I miss him already like fuck .

):
):
):

I wanna find a new show to watch in Crunchyroll liao .

No pictures at the moment ! Feel like uploading a video Hubby showed me just now hehheh . CUTE .

OKAY !
YEAH !
WHAT ? WHAT ? WHAT ?

Hahaha -.-

Okay Im going off buh-bye !

P.s. YAY . My block visitors rose . WEE . I forgot the counts ytd guess is 10+ ? 20+ ? Should be 20+ but it rose anw and Im happy HAHAHA .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-21T21:26:00.003+08:00

Zhiling died . She's such a nice girl . Treating Junjie so well , hiding her love for him yet doing so many things for him , secretly . I personally really like LiuZhiXuan , the actress who act as Zhiling . She looks very sweet lor ! When she died I nearly cried also ]':

Hopefully I can watch the last episode , god bless me ! I soso love this show !! Tianbao , Feifei , heehee I like them also ^^

Ok ! My webcounter done le . Hoho . Maybe it's much more better ! :D

Tmr's work again , buzzzzzz . Boo !

Today , woke up very late ! But not later then Hubby . Heh . I slept at 3+ . Tmd he slept at 5+ , he insisted he's too excited about today lol ! When he was obviously playing MapleGlobal . Eh ya hor , fuck la he must be playing it now that he forgets about me . Fuck lor ):

But anw , Happy 2nd Month once again ! We didnt go anywhere . Hee .
Told him I woke up at the time I called him to wake up . But actually I woke up earlier to go CWP to buy somethings :X Went to his house and we slacked there abit . I felt so fortunate , being in his arms ........

After that we cabbed to 888 to eat KFC and surprise ! Haoren , Reagan , Cheewei & Keith were there too (: Kinda happy la .
After that went Fragrant for awhile , and Hubby sent me home , opened up the present and was happy like fuck la !

Heh , dont tell you what it is (: Maybe go to the last year Christmas's post and find some clues ;D

That's all I guess . Im gotta watch a movie with my sister tmr after work .

Talking about work , it's stressing my whole family out . My mother , as a babysitter , while taking care of that baby , that baby fell down HIMSELF and got many injuries and my mummy is super guilty ):

My daddy , his fucking colleague is ordering him around when they are all of the same rank . Fuck lor , summore his name is what you know ? SUNNY . Eh fuck him la , sunny pi -.-

My sister , her supervisor is being super unreasonable is scolding her everyday .

MY SUPERVISOR ALSO SUPER UNREASONABLE .

Wah I super stressed out la . Anw before dinner I chatted with Jianing , had a talk which makes me so happy and relax ^^
Misses to her , yeah one who never forgets me !

Joyce can come out tmr already so I guess I could see her from tmr onwards if I go Fragrant (:

Fuck Im feeling so damn pissed and shag la fuck fuck fuck .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-21T01:24:00.004+08:00

Happy 2nd Month to Hubby , love you my love .

Yawns . Work , consequently 3 days was fucking tired , everything was going so so wrong and I got scolded almost everyday .

That's work , isnt it ?

But sometimes I think Im just a failure , tsktsktsk .

Oh yeah , has a really urgent remark or comment to this certain blogger , yes I call her blogger because she practically blog for the sake of blogging .
My comment for her is , she is really copying someone's elses style of blogging . I mean like .. Blog like your own self , what for trying to be like someone though you idolise that person yourself ? I can proudly says Im blogging my own style , and Im your friend , his friend , her friend , Im your friend who blogs , not a blogger who's your friend . Lolol . Im just so proud heehee .

Love reading other people blogs but I just hate to see unpleasant things , or things I dont like myself hahaha .

May I know what makes a popular blogger ? Someone who blogs about what everyone can understand , as in , a random , non-fiction topic , meh ? How to say ar .. I mean like you blog things that benefits your readers , YOUR readersssss . Lol . I've no readers ! People who come my blog everyday are friends who truely wanna know how Im doing in my life . Everytime if I go my friend blog , Im always abit[?] pissed to see him/her blogging about a certain thing , using long and cheem words , explaining and explaining lol -.- So lame la , but I said this bcos I felt it's very uncomfortable to read a friend's blog who you feel is not being herself in her personal blog .

I welcome rude remarks . Ya la , not like alot of people view my blog , but fuck lor I find out that my blog the how many people visit become one . HAHAHA . Eh very fuck de leih ! Im working nowadays hardly anytime to blog then that webcounter thing has to this to me ! See la now no people want view my blog le lor and I cannot have memories of de many people who come to view my blog . Ok it's accumulated one I know HAHAHA .

Im being stupid ._.

Sometimes I feel that Im just a failure lor .. Never go study , work also work until so lousy . So slow , forget this forget that , sb jialat . Bad daughter also , bad friend . Bad bad bad . Im such a bad girl . But who cares , I just want to try my best to be a good girlfriend . I love my boyfriend very much ok , I want him to be happy like how Im happy too !

I wanna be my hubby's wife as soon as possible heehee .
Not rich nvm , although money's my soul lol , but we must have a house to stay and a job to earn money .
Most importantly must be happy everyday and love each other the same , every single day !

I wonder why everytimes my friend , friend's friend , friend's friend's friend or whoever's gf/bf always said forever but both still break up one lor . Stupid people . Cannot do it then dont say la . Not true love then dont say la . Saying forever to make her happy and saying 'Sorry , feeling fade / not compatible / no time / or whatever shit ' just to break her heart . Crazy people . Then what for make her happy in the first place ? Fucker .

So , listen la people . Dont say something just to make him/her feel happy , knowing you'll break the fragile heart in the end . Stewpid .

Lol suddenly I feel Im sucha bitch hahaha !!! Kay la . I so miss my blog manzzz . I want change my webcounter liaozzzz .

I want to get a new phone and a shopping spree . I want to decorate my bedroom until beautiful de . I want throw away all old clothes and buy a new bunch to replace them . Shiok if can like that !

I miss boyfriend like fuck , quarrelled with him on 19th May hahaha then 20th nvr see each other for whole day , thennnnn finally !!! 21st my love la , muahhhh Im going to enjoy my happy happy day ! No one can spoil my mood !!! Dont spoil la , spoil for what hor ? I think Im saying no one will some spoil de lol !! I hope hubby get well soon ! Going his house cook food I think !! But if you sick , flu , cook le got smell meh ? Stupid (:

My lousy Nokia phone now no memory space take picture , I get my first pay kong kong first thing give half for my mother to keep and next spend it on a pretty handphone , if possible go decorate it la .

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee . No pictures for today ! Im lazy too , to go Deviantart for today :S Or maybe Im posting some pictures for the next post of today .

Oh yaaa . Go search A Little Piece of Heaven 's video , it's a song . Fucking touching but very super cruel . Lol .

Oh baby dont cry-ay-ay-ayyy ~
You had my heart ~

Im getting songs from hubby , to send to my computer Im gonna put into MP3 , Im lazy to download also lol Im super lazy la ! Dont know why .

Oooooo I hope ThamNengTong is coming out soon ! Heehee .

I miss alot of people and are thinking of them everyday , I shall not mention them although I know I mention le they sure happy [heh] .

Anw , for the moment , I think my blog's really personal la lolll bcos not much people view de you know ? Once I change my webcounter Im gonna count the number of views each day !

Im missing so many episodes of Rhythm of Life la fuckkkk . Someone spare me your Mio/Mobtv leih :D

Actually Im quite selfish , bcos , ----------------------------------- .
Dont try to guess bcos you wont know what it is lol ! Ok Im getting quite sotpala .

I think I will upload a picture afterall ! It's a picture of me which I've nvr shown it to the public , heehee .

Ok ! Im going to find some web counter ~ Whatever la . Heehee . Byebye (:

I love superboyfriend .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-17T23:41:00.004+08:00

Pistachios are what most people known as 开心果 .
And Im sort of one , nowadays (:

Ok ! I just wanna update a fast one (:

Work has been pretty fine just that Boss keep saying Im slow lor -.-
And my LaoDa knows Im slow he still nvr tell me . Tmd . Nvm lor . I will jin li de lor !

Oh , Im sad over afew things ..
Like the earthquake ? In China I guess ? Although I dont really like China , but the headline on the newspaper everyday really make me very sad . They took pictures of children dieddd , being crushed by the buildings . It's really saddening and devastating for the parents I guess . If one day alllll my children become like that I also dont want live already . Innocent lifes .
Tmd . I dont want like tht die lor . I want sleep to die , or , any other effing ways that dont make me know Im dying lol ? Whatever la !

And I love the Channel 8 show on weekdays , 9pm (:

变奏曲 , Rhythm of Life ！
It's a very very nice show alright ! Just as I imagine , it's a two part story , told to me my Cherry who read I/U[?] weekly magazine :D
Just that I'll miss it a few times a week , sighs . Stupid job la .

Talking about job , can someone here give me some suggestions ? Nah , nvm la ! I just say it lol .
Im going to convert to full-time .
Either ,
8 hours per day , 6 days a week
OR
12 hours per day , 5 days a week

Which one better ?
Im sitting on the fence lol . Dont effing know which one to choose la ! Haiyo .

Anw Im very happy because I came across 3.21pm this date lol . Super happy hahaha . You dont know why then go bang wall la hahah !

Failed to meet Aiai ytd .

But here's some surprise surprise !

Wo xiang ni !

Im talking with Hubby on the phone later ! And guess what ? Heh .
Wo ai ni !!!!
We quarrelled sometime earlier , the day before ytd but we are as good as before . No worries (:

I so miss him , wearing uniform heehee ! So shuai ok , without specs and cap more shuai .
So Im off to talk to my Hubby le , byebye !

♥Kianhui

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2008-05-13T23:11:00.002+08:00

Horrible day at work today , I told them Im clumsy and cant do things right de what .
Then this Uncle Gary who works along as one of the chefs . He's like keep hinting me that Im joking and laughing too much with everyone , Im playing too much . Like wtf ? He doesnt realise that no one actually likes him so much because he's so goddamn boring and quiet and longwinded . He said he dont like working there , well he's leaving this faithful Thursday ^^ PEACE .

3pm off work , Enen dearest cherry come fetch me from work ^^ HEE .
But Uncle Gary also quite good la , cooked two chicken chops , one for me one for her and alot of fries and some wedges , WHICH he is not supposed to do because he will get scolded by the boss who was visiting today . Well well he's not bad afterall ?

We ate and laughed so much lor (:
Walk aimless rounds around J8 and decided to go Orchard ! But fuck luh I brought less than $10 because I thought me and her are not going anywhere ! Ok I owe her money !
Visited Fareast Plaza , Heeren & Cineleisure . Drank bubbletea , vanilla coke , and took neoprints . Effing so many memories to think of alright ! :D
We're being so sotpala for the whole day , heh ! Laughing like some madass in the MRT with some stupid Malays who keep looking and looking -.-
Many cute little angmoh toddlers , I ooh-ed at them la ! HAHA . And my coins keep dropping .
Oh , today's neoprint was the first me and cherry took tgt alone .
She's still as cheerful and strong and funny and cute as before . Im happy thgs turn out to be so happy for everyone , heh !
Love you cherry (:

After drinking finish vanilla coke , we took MRT back to Woodlands for me and Marsiling for her . Wonderful day ! Neoprints , will be posting them tmr , waiting for Enen to send to me :D

Went home to change to shorts and went to meet dearest boyfriend at 7-11 . Happy happy ! Just as I expected , he complained about what I was wearing -.-
Well I will listen one hehheh . I love my boyfriend while he's nagging , I can see he want me to be his and only his . HAHA .
They drinking , and darling let me drink a few sips and was damn happy la !! Hahaha .
After awhile dearest sent me home , and kiss goodbye (:

Im sorry darling , for pei-ing you so little today , & thanks for being understanding . Love you .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-12T15:46:00.006+08:00

Happy 4th month , JoycieBelle , my dearest girlfie (:

This is going to be a wordy post .

Sunday , CWP-ed for presents and bought candies for boyfriend .
Slacked and Fragrant and boyfriend's house .
Had a happy time and boyfriend sent me home .
Went CWP to pass JasonOng his present and went home to talk on phone with boyfriend .
Talked , off computer , sleep (:

I dreamt a horrible dream that night . My love one died and I cried like shit .

Random ..
Recently watched an old movie at Crunchyroll , Why Me , Sweetie ? .

It was nice and super touching that I cried for the whole half hour to the ending .

Today , Woke up at 2+ , prepared and went CWP to watch movie with boyfriend .

Nice storyline , really make me want to go on a honeymoon with my love . Heh .
I was super happy when boyfriend told me the movie is nice . But a romance/comedy ? Nice ? For him ? I was shocked la but super duper happy . Hahaha .

Walked to Vista Point , boyfriend pei-ed me dabao dinner and buy bubbletea , he sent me home .

Rmbering all those things he did for me , I realise how lucky am I to have YehKianHui .

Tell you , it's when you realise how important someone is to you then you realised nothing else is really important anymore .
It's when you realise it's true love and you put everything aside and give in .
Even your strongest belief turns into dust and vanish .

This love , which no one had ever gave me .
The present shows why he's everything to me . He really is .

What is forever ? It is when someone proves it to you .
What makes you wanna believe in forever ? It's when you love someone so much and that someone loves you back , deeply . It's when you suck to the utmost core , being the most stubborn and selfish pig ever , and that someone still wont leave .

他让我再次相信永远。
羡慕我吧，你是不可能像我有这样好的男朋友的，哈哈哈。

Anw my effing finger goes flat when 10 books fall on it . Middle finger on the right . Fuck , so I have to cut off all my fingernails to stop them from tearing off . But Im happy bcos I got long nails for very long ! I can grow them whenever I want and nvr let them stop , bcos , Im not schooling ! Yay !

Great . And Im working tmr , yet , Im still sitting in front of the computer , thinking and thinking .

You & you , were the MOSTTTTT important to me , once .

Where as , he , wasnt so important to me , or rather , I almost ignore him completely when you & you are around , ONCE .
But he , stayed by me , despite all my attitude , those attitude that I nvr showed you and you , which got him fuck up all the time .
Despite all those bites and punches and screamings and shoutings and complainings .
Despite that , Im fat .
Despite that I dont have much time for him .
Despite that Im sotpala .
Why ? He loves me . Im important to him .
So now ......

How I love him so ! He's gonna be damn important to me already , more than he already is .

Retarded Mr Dumbass KianHui , 我会珍惜你的。

Oh ya , I tidied up my whole room and I felt that it's mine now and before this , I felt it's like a filthy storeroom . Rmbed many small keychains given to me by friends since primary school . Yes I throwed them away . Bcos those memories are becoming too bitter to be kept .
It's better to move on without anything to remind me or anything .

Im sleeping already , boyfriend tmr confirm nag that I so late still blog (:
And , know what ?

I ♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-12T00:48:00.005+08:00

You are here when the sky turns grey .

I scream for help and you came .

No one was there for me , except you .

I love you always , if possible , I wanna love you all my life .

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2008-05-10T22:39:00.006+08:00

HEHEHEHE .

Ok I sotpala [?] .

HAHAHA . Darling said so .

Im super happy ! Im good with boyfriend (:

Today when I went CWP to buy mother's day present , I saw DEAREST ENEN ! Jiaen (:
She scare me la , I chua tio . Heehee .
Then she pei me go walk around and around . Very happy luh ! Talk alot also .
I really miss her alotttttt .

Busy finding photos of the past in my archives and find this :D

Nah cherry (:
Love youuuuuuuuu !!

After I find cherry I go find darling already . Bought afew things and we went darling house slacking slacking :D

Then bad things happen ................ ):
But now's everything's ok !
Believe in me darling . I'll do what I promised (:

Went to dont know where , blah blah and here Im back home ! Heehee .

Here's the token of our love.

I darken it so much hor . Purposely d !

As I said .. I viewed my archives . I browsed through them . I found many precious memories once again .
From last time till now , the big big change in me ):

If I hadnt played so much in June holidays and got so stressed up when school reopens , I guess Im still quite a clever student winning Jiaen and Liting xD HAHA .

If I nvr knew Yuenhe , I wouldnt get closer with Nengtong and Jianing , knew Gerald , Tanleelee , Alvin , Edwin , JasonTan and so on , I wouldnt have knew HJKs , and lastly , I will not have got closer with Kianhui and stead with him .

So shall I thank Yuenhe after all ? (:
HAH .

Yes my life is wonderful , and I'll regret not studying of course , but I'll nvr regret living my life differently and specially (:

Heehee . Im going to blog finish le la . I cant wait to find Aiai on Monday and EnEn next week !!
I miss i miss i miss everyone that misses me !
I miss my ex-schoolmates !

And at the moment ..
I miss my darling (:

Oh ya watch channel 8 now , there's a very special tv movie now and Im so engrossed that I kinda pangseh darling :X

Im going to talk to Darling le .

No pictures of DeviantArt today ! Im busy Im busy .
Heh .
Buaizxs .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-10T02:20:00.007+08:00

OKKKKK . First thing I MUSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT share .

Ariel , the Little Mermaid .
In a .. Very real life feeling ? Not that cartoonish . More mature . Ooo I love this picture to the core la .

Fuck .
Pretty right ?
I dont know why hor , I see this picture got alot of feeling overwhelmed me .
I seriously love Little Mermaid to the core !!
I shall start buying whatever thing I see of Dearest Ariel .

A bunch of mermaids .
Haha -.-
Actually I like the 2nd one from the left . 3rd one looks like Ariel ?
After reading JiaEn's blog ..
Got many mind quizzes .
What about choosing one of the mermaids above and I'll decide what kind of person are you .
Heh .
Or what will happen to you if got tsunami ? Or Singapore is flooded .
:D
:D
:D

Today was such an eventful day ..
Went to work , 9am-3pm .
I made fucking alot of mistakes and one customer scold me , tmd .
Fish & Chips jiu shi Fish & Chips , no fries still Fish & Chips ar ?
Idiot . Retard . Bitch . Fugly chou auntie .
3pm , I changed and sat down to watch my fellow workers work ! :D
Hehheh . Ate my favourite omelette rice again .
Chat chat with Boss/DaiLou and went off to Toapayoh at 4pm (:

Went to toilet first , took bus to MCYS .
Alot of people there leih , I thought only Jianing and Edwin and a few O.O
Okay anyway was delighted to see Edwin , Jianing & Tanleelee . Got this feel back when I see them three . Sighs (:

Never talk much though .

ThamNengTong will come out soon de lor Darling !!!

Oh ya , my reason for going to MCYS is to find Boyfriend . Heehee .
He come out awhile after I reach x)
Then we walked back to Toapayoh , walk big big rounds deciding where to eat .
After they ate and we took train back to Woodlands .
On the MRT was hilarious la !

Slacked at Fragrant awhile and before that Jianing and Tonglee went home .
Darling sent me home at about 8+ .
Talked alot with Darling . I guess we felt better already after all right (:

My heart is really with you .

I wont run to anyone else not because there is nowhere to go , but there's no one else that's like you .
You're not my one and only , you're everything that I've .
Fang yi bai ke xin okie !

Cant wait to see Darling tmr heehee . Darling is helping me prepare to give a surprise for my mother for mother's day . Heehee . I've got no idea of what to do , but yeah . Im filial la !

Was talking on phone with Darling just now and he told me about creepy forest at SBW park .
I thought of these ..

Forests that are relaxing (:
I rmbed when I was little , I always imagine forests to be very cooling , like got air-con like that ..
Then walk in very relaxing de , no insects no anything ..
Carpets of leaves on the ground .
Walk walk walk ..
Then got one big big de white colour bed . Then sleep there . Heehee .

Darling , one day bring me go see sunset at the beach , ke yi ma ?

Look carefully at the picture above ok .
It's not any ordinary couple , I think the lady is dead . Eyes covered with blindfold .
Very touching .

Ok , after reading Zubaidah's blog and Shenghao's blog . Im feeling relieved Im working and not studying . If I were studying now , I would have been super fucking depressed and wont go to school again -.-

Im envious of their hardworkingness and perseverance .

I know I could never make it (:

Last of my dearest Ariel in her usual form :D

Sexay right .
♥ Ariel !!!

Never forget what they did to you , but never let them know you remember .

Darling , wo ai ni (:

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-06T22:12:00.005+08:00

Hallo Im back to blogggg .

Firstly , to make it up to the conflicts between me and boyfriend ..

See that anot ? Darling , I love you !
I know you love webcam-ing with me heehee .

That's what Im doing now LOL . I teach Darling how to take photos of me when Im not noticing LOL .
Am I sort of sabo-ing myself ._.

Anyway !

Today's work was fun fun fun ! :D
People there are full time jokers .
Was roflolmao-ing , HAHA .
Im becoming quite adjusted to the surroundings (:
Bought groceries in the morning , and the rest of the day being my dearest cashier heehee .
Ate lunch , work summore , and went off !

After that Darling met me at Bishan MRT station .
Blah blah blah , went back to CWP . Took quite a few photos with Darling !
Here's one for you (:

Heck care my ljb heehee .
I was being very sot lor , was very down dhen suddenly keep take pictures .
Hor darling ?

I want to have a talking pet ):
Rmb-ing my Enid Blyton books , lol ! How all those toys came alive .........
Anw that picture shows a girl and dragon , I like it !

For people who keeps saying themselves ugly , sucks , fuck yourself fuck fuck fuck de , nah !
You are just empty so fill your life with happiness instead !
There is always a reason for you to be a happy person .

Oh yeah , I wonder when's the next outing with Joycie , and other HJKs , plus my darling this time ?
Wondering (:
I want to go somewhere tmr before work Boyfriend !

Ok , just a short post , tatas , Im off to find my Darling boyfriend .
Muack muack . Coming back in dayyyyyys time I think .
Goodbye (:

♥ Kianhui

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2008-05-05T23:54:00.003+08:00

Love was happy for that memorable day and now you make me broke down .
How am I gonna face tomorrow ?
我还能做什么...

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2008-05-05T22:04:00.005+08:00

HALLO MY DEAREST PEOPLE ! :D

Such a long time since I posted . Well well , Im trying to earn money you know to buy countless of things .
I dont have photos of my life except using boyfriend's or girlfriend's hp ):

Ok !
Let's see . I've been working everyday since the last day I posted .
My only free days are these Saturday and Sunday ): !!
Good what , you think ar ?
NAHHH .
Those two days Im going Malaysia and totally have no time to spend with my boyfriend and friends .
Tmd .
I nvr meet Gladys for like damn fucking long .
ZzZ .
I will be updating her with alot alot of things happening in my life !
I hope she's happy ..

Today , I worked from 9am-4pm , Darling met me at Bishan and we take MRT to ToaPayoh MCYS . Waited for Darling and we took MRT back to Woodlands .
Darling met Sean the Simon at CWP , Simon was with his friends and he was being a retard leih .
Hahaha .
After awhile , Darling and I went to Fragrant to meet others .
Belle is not there again ):
I hope Haoren will get his answer and will be happy soon !
May all people in this world be automatic .
May it be brothers , friends or girlfriend . Everyone matters .

OK DARLING .
You must be finding your name xD
Heehee .
This whole day I like love to cling onto my boyfriend lor !
See him at Bishan , very very happy !
It was a pretty fun and happy day when Darling is around .
He always makes my day , and I know he wanted to spend more time with me like how I wanted to spend time with him .
I love you Darling !!
I'll be talking on phone with you later , hehheh .

Ok I rmbed some things the days before ? Got one day I went to Darling house and he cooked noodles for me again xD
Edited pictures of us are suppose to be posted ........
But I only manage to edit a few because my free time is fucking limited so , here's a sweet picture , hehheh .

Kisses and hugs always make me feel so fortunate and loved .

No one like him has given me this feeling before .
When you're in love , you see everything in a nice way , everyone seems to be great people and things seems to go on well !
But love does goes wrong sometimes , and everything will seems wrong .
Oh well , like who dont know hor ?

OH YA . Got one day I msn-ed and webcam-ed with Jiaren (:

Damn happy to see her face though she look abit like pontianak :X
Hahaha !
Jiaren , you'll always be one that I'll teng so much ok , other than a good friend I treat you like a sister too . I darn sad when I heard from you , that matter . Dont get hurt alright ?
Im still missing you and thinking of you everyday , heh ! True ar !
Loveeeeees , smile more ok !
Webcam with you again soonnnnnn .

Oh yeah , I webcam Darling too !

See ?
Im so happy webcam-ing with boyfriend ! :D :D :D :D :D
He wants to see me and he DONT HAVE WEBCAM LOR .
TMD !!
Hahaha (:
Not fair , quickly buy one ar Darling ^^

One fucking bad news .
Im really fat =/ This is really very saddening and important to me you know ?
My figure and looks and BOOBS . HAHA .
Ok wtf .
.
.
.
Im trying to earn money and cut fat at the same time .
But how could I ?!?!?!?! Tmd ): Zen me ban la !

I everyday MUST eat fast food you know , got any ways to diet in this situation ? =/
TELL ME .

Guilty pleasure . Suck .

Oh ya talking to Joycie Belleeee now .
Speaking of tht , nah Belle !! See this , so cool .

Cool right ?!?!?!? Im lack of clothes to wear again 0.0
But with this fat figure of mine , wtf ?
Let me diet first , but when then will succeed , tell me la ?

Ok , relac .
Fat , short , tall , slim , still must be happy ^^

SMILE MY DEARESTS ! :D

Ok , this one obviously is paper la , but how great when got cereal is heart shape and strawberry flavoured de !
Omigosh , yummm !
FAT{

But this is so fucking nice la . Im craving for McFlurry !!!
Oh suddenly , Ongminmin miss Mr YKH . Because he's being so damn cute on MSN HAHAHAH . Nah la , apple good for health hor !

NOT FAT .

OKIEEEEEEEEE . Maybe Im blogging tmr too , or the next , or the next next blah blah :D

Diet is killing people hor , tmd . Maybe I shd fatten myself and get ready for EOTW , End Of The World because of global warming . Joycie you and your global warming . Heehee .

OH YA , last note !
Me and my sister , real-blood sister has our own rooms each (:
We've been sleeping tgt for fucking 10+ years and is separated since ytd ! But at least I've privacy and a room to talk as long as I want with Darling heehee .
My room is pinkish ! The furniture are brown ! My laptop is very near to my bed and I have a TV in my effing nice room ! HAHAHA .
Damn happy la (:

Ok blogging done and Im happy !
Those cute cute artistic pictures are to make up for my days of not blogging , and not having much of my own life pictures !
Anw who got read my blog man ): {

OKIEEEE . BYEBYE everybody ! Wo ai ni men hor xD

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-30T14:50:00.006+08:00

Im missing many 2/7' o7 friends .

Zubaidah , Shenghao , Denzel .

Zhaoyi .

Jiaen , Liting .

Jiayee .

Went their blogs . Changed . Things do change . I miss you .

-----edited-----

Ok Im back from anything and never watch any movie today tmd !!!

My sister is sick T.T

But I met my boyfriend de whole day !

Slacked at his house again (:

DARLING COOKED MAGGIE MEE FOR ME AGAIN LOR !

Im very happ because noodles he cook are always so delicious :D

I got take many photos heehee .

ME and boyfriend also take many photos also!

I go edit photo first tmr I then update .

Gtg , byebyes . Heehee . Im in a very good moodddd !

Darling Im very happy like this (:

♥Kianhui

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2008-04-30T01:15:00.010+08:00

Tell you what , I totally wanna watch Hansel and Gretel . It's going to be so ...... thrilling . I must catch it with my sister tmr , or my boyfriend when Im having off day (:

I totally love the trailer !
Really looks damn thrilling .
Fuck fuck fuck . Im so into horror and romance movies .
Oh romance .
Romance comedy are the best of my film records .
ROMANCE .

Definitely , Maybe . Have been waiting for it to show for sooooooo long and now no one wants to watch with me .
Well again my sister might catch this with me tmr .
I got a boyfriend that hates romance movie ...
My dream of having a boyfriend to watch romance movie with me ................ ):
YEHKIANHUI ................. !

Owe me a romance movie hor ..

Ok I really wanna catch any movie tmr that's nice and make me smileeee :DDDDD
Im going to change job again .
To somewhere in ....... Bishan !
Job ? Shhhh . Wait for photos .

Today I work at Chinatown again . I got a few pictures of heart-shaped bak gua that I cant wait to share .
This phone no cable ma ... So Im asking boyfriend to help me transfer tmr .
Speaking of my super boyfriend . I nvr see him for one day and I like ... Miss him already .

Tmr Im meeting Mr Yeh :D
x)
x)
x)

Im super slacked at work today and no one scold me . I love the people who worked with me .
XiaoZhen and MaryAuntie .
They dote me alot !!!!
I abit dont feel like changing my work ...
But I decided le so . My new work *twinkles in eyes*
Money !!!!
Chinkchink .
Heehee .

Gemini - Ariel (:
Remind yourself that opinions are not facts. When arguing with your honey over something you passionately believe in, you may try to sway influence to your side. Be open to changing your own mind.

Capricorn - Super Boyfriend
Even with all of your preparation, the best laid-out plans can go awry. The key here is to be flexible with an infinite amount of possibilities. Have a back-up plan with your sweetie ready.

Yes sort of make sense to me . So true . Maybe I should start to listen to my boyfriend's opinion =/ It might be a fact ! Im too stubborn to be listening ....

Boyfriend and I are planning to go out to watch movie and suddenly I've to work on Thursday .
Let's replan darling ):

I wanna dye my hair .
But my mummy say I'll look like ahlian if I dye my hair at this age .
O.o
What if I bleach my hair white ?!?!
Can .... ?
Sky of love I rmb heehee .

Cool right . My hair is growing damn slow . I wanna have long hair leih ):

Something meaningful to share .

Girl :
Go ahead and kiss him
Go ahead and say how you feel
You just gotta show him your heart

Boy :
It dont take a word
Not a single word
Go one and kiss the girl
-Little Mermaid

It's meaningful to me if it doesnt to you !

Know what ? I have the urge to buy a little Ariel book .
I want the long version like Alice in Wonderland long version .
I really want to buy ! :D
Money comes my way .

Im not emo-ing .
But Im sick of darkness .
But think of it , dark is an absence of light .
Dark is therefore not a noun .
It cannot be seen (:
It's not long before my light comes , heehee !

Im getting abit sot sot in my head now , hahahahha !!!

Let's get back to life ...

I miss Aiai ! I've so little free time to meet her up . Work work work .
Nvm one day I shall treat her to Starbucks again (:
Much rmbed always .

Belle !!
I feel like shopping again , I feel like buying a wallet again =/
I love Deviantart to dddd core manzzz + you .. *Shy*
Pukes . HEH .
K K .
I really do love you .

ANYWAY ...
Hmmm ..

HERE'S A HAPPY NEWS .

My mummy came into my room . Guess what she told me ?
I RECEIVED SOTONG PAPA LETTER !!!
CANNOT BELIEVE WHAT YOU SEE , WHAT I TYPED ??
I GOT A LETTER BY TNT !
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

I cried while reading this letter . Again . Lol .
Source of happiness for the day .

Im going to take a photo of what he say that makes me so damn happy x)

Sotong is alright he is ok he is fine fine fine !
And we miss him sooo much !

Oh yeah , I miss Jianing suddenly .
Sotong is the bond between us , I feel (:
Jianing our birthdays are coming soon !!
I'll nvr forget your birthday , heh .

Fuckkk I miss the past again .

Nvm , my another source of happiness is going to make me smile tmr .
Mr Retard , my boyfriend x)

Hansel and Gretel

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-28T22:48:00.005+08:00

I was not in the mood ..

Until I saw this cat .

Who says cats are ugly ?!
Ok kittens are cute but cats are not .
But cats are cute too what ?!?! T.T
I want to have a kitten .
Like this .

Trouble with heart and love .
I think my heart got this sickening problem that I seriously hate .
Im seriously attituded right ?
I've this attitude that shoos everyone away right ?
I feel like ********************* myself .
):
):
):

I hope Jiayee will be a famous dancer in future :D

I used to be a dancer , and I'll rmb (:

Today sucks big time .

Baby and others will be alright .
Hanjie will be alright too .
Everyone will be happy shall we ?

I think my blogskin seriously need to change . But I dont know how to edit .
Suggestions ? =/

Im sorry Im sorry Im sorry .
I dont know what else I can say Im very guilty but I dont feel good too .
My fault this time , really .
Im sorry .

Im seriously really sorry . I feel like hugging you now .

Sometimes I really wonder , who will be there to say , "Hey , I understand ."

Cause loving you
Has made my life so beautiful
And every day of my life
Is filled with loving you
Loving you
I see your soul come shining through
And every time that we tsss
Ooh I'm more in love with you

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-28T15:45:00.004+08:00

Ok , Im at Boyfriend's house now he's gone to bathe .

Notice the new skin ?

Not that new and special but ..

Yeah I think I prefer this style better than navigations .

I think my navigation styles very weird ?

Hahahaha .

Im going to edit it sometime later at night or tmr night or the day after tmr !

Today I never work again because my auntie says I dunnit work . CHEERS !!!

But tmr I need to work . Nvm , work means money .

Jiayou ONGMINMIN .

Maybe Im going to work another one soon .

Im going to work in a foodcourt , help out in some fast food stall I guess ?

Yes , then I shall gain lots and lots of experience . *licks*

I totally love Deviantart pieces . Fabulous . You are going to see lots and lots of nice nice pictures in my blog soon ! Like ... Now (:

Today .. I feel like having a style of erotic .

HAH .

Admire them , it's art .

Things around us are allllll art . Appreciate instead off eeee-ing and ahhhh-ing la bitch . Heh .

Im talking to myself .

I will NEVER try this but it's cool right !?

The man's sexay .

I will post more tonight . Stay tuneddddddddddd .

♥Kianhui

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2008-04-27T21:31:00.005+08:00

OOOOOkie .

HAHAHAH .

I dont know why Im super happy now :D

Heehee .

Earlier I still dont feel like using computer , I scared will very sad after use , maybe see what thing then sad .

OK nothing to be sad so Im happy !! :DD

Lets see , Thursday and Friday I was working .

Got scolded by some stupid uncle .

The uncle want 5 of each of those sweet and salty tow sar biscuits .

Then usually Im suppose to put inside the transparent bag that doesnt looks ugly at all ?

Then he was like scolding me for not putting into a box , then he ask me , Put into plastic bag how to eat ? Very ugly you know !

Tamade la . How to eat ? Open , TEAR open the bag and eat la , whatever way you want , cut open stomach put inside also can . Dont need eat le ma ._.

Ugly ? Guys so ai mei for what , the bag is alright for me ma , for my workers ma , for every other customers also ma , he complain so much !

But of course I only start to work , cannot talk back so I diam diam .

Lucky one of those people working with me say him back :D

After work on those two days , I found another not scary de exit to MRT station le , become clever le :D

My leg got injuries on the big toe on both legs and the shoe 'bite' me on the back of my right leg .

Dont understand then heck care la lol .

Anw I smashed my E65 on that day on the ground , all my baobei messages by Darling , Joycie and Aiai ALL GONE and pictures of Darling that I havent upload to comp also gone .

I know I huo gai .

NVMMMM D:

I think Im buying some sony ericsson phone again ♥♥♥

NEXT ..

Saturday was my OFF DAY !!! Heehee .

I met HJKs and Joycie at Fragrant Wood .

Very happy to see them again , talk talk chat chat happily :D

Boyfriend isnt there , he's gone to CSO .......... ):

Then I kpkb with Reagan awhile lor , his birthday is ...

TODAY ! :D

Happy Birthday Bomberboyzzzzzzz .

Dont do any lj thing and get yourself into trouble ar , choi choi la .

And stay happy always (:

Then ... I talk to Kianhui's Xiao Laopo :D
'She's' taller than me by abit and fatter than me by abit ..
And she is actually Koh Han Jie ! HAHAHA .
Dont like him , snatch Boyfriend away !
Then he tell me , when I working , Kianhui keep say he miss me .
Then he ask me , when I with Kianhui , Kianhui got say he miss him ?
HAHA .
Very funny leih , he sounds so serious !
Anyway , Xiao Laopo , hope nothing happen to you ok !!
Good luck . If not no one fight with me for Kianhui le !
Heehee , and stay happy also ..

Then after that Joycie and I went to BUGIS :D
Im budget shopper lor , SERIOUSLY I very niaoooo one .
I very geh gao about money de . HAHA .
Ok , but Im very serious la .
Back to the point , we go Bugis , HJKs go Jurong to swimmmm .
At Bugis quite fun lor , play here play there :D
When I cannot find the things I want , I very sad ):
I finding skinny jeans , I very budget dddddddd .
And I found one denim de ! Joycie help me choose d (:
My butt is growing effing big 0.0
Darling , in future dont need scared no children liao , hahahahah . Big butt can bear many many children de worzzz !

Joycie and I each buy one cardigan , I buy a striped one , Joycie buy a grey one .
I kinda regretted buying striped , oh well .
We bought T-shirts again tooooooo .
Forget still got buy what liao .
I got buy my sausage and our usual drink :D
I keep say want eat Pastamania then Joycie keep dont want . Treat her also dont want T.T
Until I cannot eat no matter how I crave ! ^#%&@#^&@
Ok , we went back CWP after that :D
Ate at KFC , TMD , two stupid aunties buy KFC , keep changing what they want buy de lor !
Make me wait so long .
):
Then after that one of the auntie bumped her elbow against me , then I say in Chinese , Bump until people also dont know how to say sorry ar .

She turned around and look at me 0.0

How Singaporeans have become , ohmygod la .

CMI manzzz .

Chatted with Joycie at KFC and we were freezing .

Then after we eat finish , we go 5th floor take photos !!

We nothing to do ma , heehee .

Very fun larhzzz , then after that Darling come then take photo with him and Joycie !!!

Although my hp spoiled but I got photos sent by Joycie (:

Below are some of those photos we take ..

Abit buaypaiseh and I know I got big thigh LAAAA , but main point is that orh-ceh . RIGHT DARLING ????!
Joycie is in love with me because Im spiderman !
Girlfriends and besties (:
TMD he was walking so fast that I cannot catch up ........ ):

After that met other HJKs ..

Kianhui and I went to his house .

And something really really bad happen , as usual , fuck up lor ...

Blah blah .

Went home talked to Darling on phone till 1+ , 2 ?

Then go sleep x)

Im suppose to go work today but because I quarrelled with my parents really badly the night before so I refused to wake up , typical me I know (:

And because my leg injured la , stupid .

Quarrelled and screamed with my parents again , played with handphone and met up with Boyfriend .

Cabbed to his house , he cooked noodles for me , omg man .

I love him to the utmost core *hearts*

Watched tv , slacking slacking lor ^^

Walked to 515 to eat dinner then walked to vista buy bubbletea then walk to 557 find KelvinCheng !!!

Kpkbkpkb ..

Go vista buy candies and Darling sent me home (:

The endddddd .

Ok la , my typical life , quite boring , but Im only 15 *innocent look*

Ok , pui .

HAHAHA .

One month and blah blah days le darling , I know we both dont count the days :D
Heehee .
Like you say , I love you and you love me , not yet a family !
Sounds as retarded as you look , heehee .
Although we've been like having conflicts soooooo much .
Im not losing you .
Im going to have confidence .
Our lifes will be better .
I will put aside my only free time for you .
Because , I know you need me and you love me , same from me to you !
This matter will pass soon , aizaiiii .
Ariel/Mario is happy :D

Oh yeah , girlfie BELLE the Beauty wants to read my blog . Hehs .
Anddddd . Prom Night sounds really exciting Joycie !!
But I wanna watch Hansel and Gretel OMG .
Im going to drag Darling to watch with me soon .
I CANT WAIT LA .
And and and Definitely , Maybe ♥ .
DARLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG T.T

♥ Kianhui

im getting on fine , i know my limits , mum , please dont make things difficult for me .
shouting always win .
i'll scream as long as you continue how you wanna be ):

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2008-04-23T13:52:00.016+08:00

Wee (:

I never updated about our first month with my Darling . Hehs . I shall start with tht first , although outdated la ...

On Sunday , I met Darling at his house for awhile . And I surprised him with my presenttttttt !!!!
HAHA .
He must be surprised because I told him I nvr buy anything for him this first month and he believed it man , heehee !
That's because , he's innocent ma ..
Haha (:

I took his many photos , very sexey worrrr .
Fall in love with him , his bodyyyy ! :DDDDD
Then , thanks boyfriend for not wearing your cap that day , made my day (:

Went to AMK Hub , bought tickets and ordered our popcorns .
Went down and he smoking smoking .
I was practically smiling the whole day while I was with him man (:

After that we went to watch The Forbidden Kingdom .

Love Jacky Chan man . Dont really like Jet Li .
Jacky Chan was so cute . Jacky Jacky T.T
Movie was nice , but 3.5/5 (:

Only took one super retarded photo with Darling , with his handphone because I forgot to bring my handphone that day -.-
Heehee .
After that we walked around abit and went back to CWP , Horizon to find Sean , Alan and friends .
Then they went off and we eat our candlelight dinner ^^
LOL .
My sister then suddenly called me to say that my auntie ask me want to work on Monday anot .
Then I say ok lor ...
Then I tell Darling .
I thought he will be like , WHAT ?!
In the end he say , ok lor ok lor , what time you start ? Haha (:
After that we went back fragrant , only Eric and AlvinLee is there . Kpkb slacking slacking .
Then Darling sent me home .
It was a really nice first month ! :D

At night ..
I took photos :D

This two neoprints are taken with a few of my darlings . Xinting , Jiaren , Jiayee , rmb ?

Then , I decided to post up what my Darling gave me (:

This is the cover :D
Opening the envelope ..

The two photos , he got that developed :D The both of us one still alright ! But mine solo looks stupid . Hee .

At the back of the photos !

Conclucion , I love my dearest boyfriend to the core .

Proof !! Im smiling like a freak , heehee .

Ok that's all for the 21st of April .
Next come Monday , my faithful working day lor T.T

Ok , I didnt managae to capture the whole of the shop .
If the manager saw me taking photos everywhere using a handphone he sure gan me one .
Not that he'll be entering the shop himself , but there are like almost 10 security , or rather laziness-preventing cameras lor .
-.-
Ok , basically it's at Chinatown , the shop is named Fragrance (Xiang Wei).
There is a toilet beside the storeroom .
The outlet is about two stores big !
I wear an orange uniform and works as a promoter !
I've got two female and one male workers working as the same shop with me and they are very friendly (:
The worst thing is I have to stand the whole day and my legs hurt like fuckkkk .
They say first day like that de :D

A view of a small part of the shop inside the storeroom !

I dont know that on weekdays also got people buy ba gua leih .
I got free flow of ba gua and meat floss to eat too .
Heeheehee .
So I shall announce my diet failed , NOT :D

Oh ya the storeroom itself ...

And the toilet :D

And of course my orangey uniform !

At 8+ , I got off from work already !
Like finally .
I was dead beat and could lie down on the floor and sleep to death .
Heehee .

While walking to MRT station , the night view of part of Chinatown .

My dead tired photo . Was ok from this small picture la , haha . Photo when enlarge is horrible !

Oh ya , when I got to this staircase .. Then they say "MRT" and got one arrow so I walked down the stairs .

Then I walk walk walk . 2-3 storeys already still havent reach .
Summore no one was around , not a single soul lor .
Suddenly ..
.

"The MRT travelling to Jurong East will be ........."
-.-
I was shocked by the voice lor . But really scarie .
Talked on phone with Darling on MRT . Quarrelled abit .
I that time was very headache eh !
At home talked again .
Then ok already (:
Daddy massaged my head and I fell asleep at 11+ .

Oh ya , dont know when , I saw this person on bus .
I dont know whats wrong with her leih . The more I see her , the more I see something wrong in her .
Oh well .

Ehs . Maybe kinda wrong in taking picture of people you say ?
But I like ^^ Photo taken by me is your honour .
And .. I never take the front ma , you dont know who she is , you let me see her again I also will not know that she is actually the something-wrong-person in the photo .
Oh , I think is her hair and shirt contradiction that makes it seems wrong for me .
Well , though my dressing isnt much better .
NVM .
Money come money come .
I already have $XX for Monday's work already . Hahaha .
Soon I'll be super rich .

Anw I never go work today because I dont need to work ! :D
Heehee . Tmr I'll be going work . So I'll update my blog , like on Saturday ?
Byebye .
I want a camera .
And Im starting to be obsessed with pink and hating purple .
:S

HAPPY 10TH MONTH FOR ME AND AIAI YTD ! :DDDDDDD
I'LL LOVE YOU AND RMB YOU AND MISS YOU ALWAYS DDDDDDDDD .

Boyfriend , Im seeing you soon !!!!

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-20T22:56:00.004+08:00

Ok ! My absence for manyyyyyyyyy days . Haha , ok to me la .

Firstly , Im very anticipated for tmr -- Me and Darling 1st Month .

For your info , I rarely , very little , once in a blue moon , or rather have NONE ...
A perfect first month .

Laughs ):

But tmr , Im sure it will be a very happy day ! Hehs , one more hour darling !

I have a brilliant boyfriend who loves me in everyway , no matter how fat , how attitude , how sucky Im , one that always give in to me . Jealous ? Heehee .
But try not to think too much ok dearest !
I will be accompanying you all the way from when you turn into adult from a teenager and so on , heehee .

Wondered where I've gone these few days ? I was down with fever . Terrible , but it's a long time since I had a fever .
While Im being sick my boyfriend is the one kana tortured lor ................
Im sorry darling

My sister also sick but she was down with flu and fever and she vomited . Horrible .
She went to the doctor twice and still havent recovered by now !
I never went to the doctor and Im recovering (:

Ok , I forgot the whole load of things I wanted to type .........

Ytd night I didnt really get enough sleep , slept at 3am , woke up at 4am .
Didnt manage to go back to lala-land .
Waited till 6+ and went over to Darling's house .
Slacking slacking , met Marcus outside Darling's house and we cabbed to 515 to eat breakfast .
Other people came and Darling sent me home , I bathed and ZzZ at 11+ ..

Woke up at 6+ , 7 ? In the evening . Went cwp with my parents .
Was kinda not feeling well after I came back from there .
:S [Joycie I tot of you hahaha]

Very long time never see Aiai already . Also such a long time since I mentioned her name in my blog huh ?
Heh .
How's she ? All of a sudden Im missing her like fuck .
Oh well , hope she's alright , god bless her . *Smileeees*

Read an email sent by a friend , so meaningful , though Im not a Christian .
Have been stuck between loving Buddha and loving God .
Hahahahaha .

The DIFFERENCE
--------------------------

Science and God

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist
professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his
new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a
moment.

'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you
can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if
you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He
doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even
though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can
you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of
water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student : 'From...God...'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there
evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything,
correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created
everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to
the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:
'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible
things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his
question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the
lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is
mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in
Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you
use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen
Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or
smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus
Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable
protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that,
son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem
science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a
question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.
The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat,
mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we
don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below
zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is
no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the
lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when
it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have
or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.
You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of
heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units
because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the
absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom,
sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as
darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night
if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the
absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright
light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have
Nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to
define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able
to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.
This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is
flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.
'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student
explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good
God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something
finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a
thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much
less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life
is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive
thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they
evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young
man, yes, of course I do'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he
realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work
and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you
not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a
preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the
Commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other
student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class
who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into
laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain,
felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No
one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of
empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no
brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain,
how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the
student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I
guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists
with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as
evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We
see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.
It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world.
These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at
least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.
It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe
the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when
man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold
that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there
is no light.'

The professor sat down.

Pass this on if you have faith in God.
If not, still pass it on for it's a good story!

I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else. - C. S. Lewis
--

Yeah that's the email .
Make me surprised and happy . Hahaha .

Feel like posting pictures . I shall do it later or tmr (:

Oooh , maybe I could be like last time post pictures in every post :D

Ok I shall do that !

Im troubled by a little something , NOT knowing what is it .
Im in a confused state of mind , fuck .
Or is it my no-feeling-wellness that makes me feel that way ?
Got a super not good feeling after I used the laptop .
Im feeling lost again .

Boyfriend , wo ai niiiiiii .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-16T20:55:00.002+08:00

There's not much to talk about , isnt it ?
Dearest boyfriend , I really am glad that you still stood by me despite all my wrongs .

Actually what kind of person Im turning into , I still dont know .
Maybe Im really at the starting of the forest .
Who am I ?
An amateur .
Immature kiddo .
But I'll walk into the forest , and walk out of it .
I know that's what Im supposed to do .

Countless mistakes I've made .
Many many misunderstandings .
My unprofound words that made people get the wrong idea .
Im so stupid . Seriously I think Im .
How could I do wrong things without noticing myself ?
I hope that's an excuse , but it happens to happen right in front of my eyes .
Cried , guitiness , regretted .

Everytime things like this happened , tell you what , I'll realised it's my fault at the end .
And for this , I totally dont defend myself .
It is my wrong , I admit , and face it ok , it's the truth .

BOYFRIEND , SEE THIS !!!
Im happy okay !
I really am .
Dont worry :D
I wont think so much anymore .
I'll not hurt you anymore .
I'll try to listen to things you tell me to do .
That's When I Love You , this song I've been listening to the whole day .
And it's dedicated to you !
I love you darling , thanks and sorry for everything .

Joycie !
Hope you're smiling already .
And no matter what you think ...
I love you still and always girlfriend :D
SMILEEEEEE !

♥ Kianhui

457 x3

2008-04-15T21:17:00.008+08:00

Okay this part is edited so if you want to see the early one please scroll down first thankyou :D

Ongminmin is thinking too much again . Im confused with my thinkings once again . I dont want to become an emo Jiamin again you know . Emo style is cool but being emo ? Its shit . I hate it , the feeling .

Okay , this part is fairly , only when I think too much . Tmr I'll be alright (:

Okay . Shall I be like everyone , so strong , so happy , with everything hidden inside ?
Anyone who knows me clear enough must have known that I show out my feelings , happy , sad , hyper , angry . And whatever .
Is it really irritating to be like that ? I mean like , pouring my feelings out always , without even thinking of hiding it . That's me and what I do .
All my really really good friends , they are strong , but actually they are weak .
For me ? I dont know anything about me actually . Many times I hope to see a better view of myself thru others , but no one ever tell me clearly what Im .
Im , attituded , easily angry/sad/happy , is it a MUST change thing ? Couldnt I stay as and when I like to ?
At this point of time , I feel like starving myself , slapping myself , and what's more , hating myself .
Because I really do feel like a failure .
Saddistic hor ? But I really will be okay tmr lol .

This feeling in my head , I dont know which one do I feel is the correct one .
1. Feeling not worth it to have such good friends around me when Im the rotten one ? or
2. Feeling that it's not worth it to be even thinking about people like them .

Okay , I guess most probably people will say , number one la , you already said you are rotten .
But sometimes , things people do , ways they think , really makes me wonder .
I tends to treat friend better , but are they worth the nice treatment ?
Im not pointing to anyone in particular , stop suspecting ok -.-

Oh ya , now Im even thinking of what others will say about me . So NOT like me at all . So fucking disappointed with myself for thinking of it , shag lor -.-

And Im also thinking , should I blog out my feelings so often ? Revealing my weak self .
Actually , I wanna stand out , I wanna be a special someone in a really good way , as in everyone will like .
But , what for care whether people likes you or not , just be yourself ?
But yeah , she's right , somethings people cannot stand my attitude and will refuse to give in .
So maybe I should change , for myself .

What should I do ?

I've a feeling I need someone right now .
Sometimes my boyfriend can be my greatest friend .

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HJKs and a few Malays kicking soccer .My Joycie !
Baby lying on the ground , very cute !
Mummy , can you be what you were once ?

Bf & I , I know we should have sit closer xD

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Pictures as promised , ok I know Im very obsessed with my darlingssss and only me and others are interested D:

Joycie didnt come out today . Hope that she'll be smiling how she was :D
I will always be behind you de girlfieee !

This afternoon was creeping in my house , afraid of my mother . She threatened to strangle me ytd while I locked myself in my room . Of course I never open the door to prevent myself from dying la . Then this morning I was still afraid . While she was in bedroom I was in the toilet , so on and forth , and lucky I got out unscath .
Ridiculous right ? I also never imagine my mother to be this scary . The person once closest to me ..

After that I went to Fragrant Wood to meet Darling , Alvin & Hanjie . After awhile and I pei-ed Darling home . Same longgg road to his house ! But I eh-tahan de . HAHA . Oh , saw Clinton , Victor , Andrew and Joseph at 515 eating !! Super happy , but I called "DIDI" to Joseph he very paiseh . Why ?!!!?!?! Last time he wasnt like that :'(
Ok nvm , I arent close to Riversidians anymore anyway D:

After that , went to 515 eat fries ! Saw Kelvin , Cheewei , Haoren , Roger , DarrenLiao & Keith .
Darling ate Wanton noodles .
Haoren say he felt relaxed and sleepy and dont feel like talking , I feel like going home in his place because I like sleeping at home on rainy days !!!
I love the rain and will never get sick from getting wet .
Im getting stronger nowadays man (:

Was very close with dearest bf throughout the day and I felt very happy !
Ytd had a quarrel and talk with him which made me love him even more . Hah .

I love myself even more too !
I couldnt be giving in to people always anymore right ?
LDS .
Hahaha .
It's not my loss I shall say .

After going to 515 we went to RC slacking slacking .
Took BF cap and specs to play again . Exchange phone with him :D
Very happy ok .
Hoho .
K la .
Goodbye !
I love my boyfriend dearly .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-14T16:30:00.008+08:00

Gemini
You have an opinion on just about everything, so why hold back when your lover asks for your thoughts? Now is not the time to play the wallflower. Express yourself proudly and let your sweetie see the real you.

There is a chance that you're not being honest with yourself. It's time you dealt with unresolved issues, deep fears or unfinished business, which, like a silent undercurrent or an unbridged gap in your heart, could be affecting intimacy in your relationship or love life. Staying busy, turning to familiar comforts or resorting to compulsive behavior could be covering up denial, suffering, stagnation or heartache. Genuinely come to terms with the truth by confronting or forgiving your own role in whatever it is you regret so that you can let go, move on and become more open to romance. There is a safe harbor of support and security available to you, but you might need to seek it out. Recovery and healing are inner work and can begin only after there has been acknowledgement of the hurts that have occurred.

See ? Told you I believe in horoscope . Fucking true I tell you . I find that I've been hiding many truths until now , just now . I totally love my boyfriend to the core . He is also my best friend . My first boyfriend which I pour my fears and troubles to in one go .
YEH KIAN HUI IS MY SUPER DUPER BOYFRIEND !!

And . Im super fuck up with myself , duh , what's new .
My attitude towards my dear boyfriend MUST change . I cannot continue letting him pamper me !
I feel so great when he confront me just now . Horrible but happy that he finally burst out hohoho .
Hope this kind of things only happen in the first month and continuously down the road is happily ever after ! :D

Im missing Northland Sec and my clique last time .
Alvin , Edwin , Gladys , Jianing , Nengtong , Gerald , Tonglee , Jason , Sean .
I personally dont feel like including Joel and Wensheng . Dont know why , Im sorry .
Everything wouldnt be the same ever again .

Im going to bathe , talk , and sleep after I talk on phone with superboyfriend .
Im learning to be obedient -.-
Hahaha .
Good night people . Err , pictures tmr ! It's not alot btw .
:S

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-13T23:32:00.003+08:00

TMD , I so disappointed with myself how .

I cannot like that lor . Sighs .

I suddenly really dont feel like losing friend and find previously good friends chou ji dan ):
Okay if you think it's not you , why not ?
And if you think it's you , think again if you fit the description .
Wang ba dan makes a good dan also . Lol .
Crap .

I seriously think Im not good enough to be anyone good/girl/boyfriend .
Lol . I know it's the friendship and heart that counts , but .
I feel guilty .
For dont know what reason .
Im evil ? Im wicked ?
I think I m . Oh , beware leih .
Sighs .

I suddenly miss the past and feel like crying again .
Im seriously vulnerable these days huh ?
Im not stressed hehs .

I neglected alot of people , havent I ?
But I guess I keep acting as a know-it-all .
Thought I know what everybody likes and what kind of person they are .
WRONG .
Turns out I feel like a bloody stranger .

I miss Nengtong alot . Ytd and today . I love talking to Edwin and Alvin because I feel Im closer to them , I know them longer than any other person in HJK (:

Told Edwin , I miss Sotong Papa , and the past , so memorable . He havent reply my letter or he doesnt even intended to do it ):

I need your advices and laughs to cheer me up la friend . Why izit that think of you then will be smiling the face ! I hope you really take care T.T

Alvin . Long time never chat with him already , but he'll always be the DIDI I teng so much always . Sighs .

Im not a good girlfriend and I really , is going to be pampered by my dearest boyfriend . Dont treat me so good darling ):
Oh ya Boyfriend , you see above the thing , dont ask me why all that ok ? I put in my blog and want to forget about it already .

Joycieeee . I really .......................
Dont know how to put it .
What I want to say is that , in conclusion , I hope you'll be happier , and even better I could help you ^^
Im always there no matter how important Im to you .
And I mean always . Lol . Your house at Tekong only ma , your house got fire come my house stay lor .
CHOI TOUCHWOOD .
Haha .

Chatting with Haoren and Joycie on MSN . Missed times di-siaoing with all my dearest brothers !
Now I dont think people say me I know how to say back le lol .

Kay la I talked too much . Got time , I upload photos (:

Still in half half mood . How to be happy ?

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-13T15:06:00.002+08:00

HALLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :D

I just bathe finish after ton-ing at Boyfriend house , hopefully it's not the last time and there are still many many times :D

Okay I guess Darling is happy too !
Anw yesterday before things turn well it was very disastrous . Lol .
Guess what happen ....................

Before I went right , I asked him got buy my tidbits anot , he replied that he forgot to buy , then I was like -.-!
Then I said nvm his house got things to eat can already .
Then ...

I went to his house , he said he bluffed me and that he got buy my food :DDDDDD

While he talking on phone with Seanie and Alvin , I opened the cupboard .
TADAA ~
Got 4 packets of PINKKKKK tidbits inside it , omigosh . [omigosh is my favourite word since ytd !!]
Then I tell my boyfriend , Wa , I really love you alot la !!
Then !
He continue talking on the phone ...

Ok , the disaster coming .

Got one moment I realised that he did something wrong lor , dui bu qi me .
Then I decided to ignore him .
Then he keep disturb me . Then I was super stubborn and press my earphone very hard to my ear and continue not to reply him .
But he never give up and continue to disturb me until I finally talk to him .
I said , "Anw I also cannot trust anyone what so what's the point ... " LOL .
Okay .
Crap la think you dont understand . But I dont mean what I said Darling :D
I keep hitting and biting him afterwards . Was so guilty sia .
But he said , "No ar , not pain at all !" , gave a really cute smile and walk out of the door to smoke .

Later on , I keep laughing for dont know what reason .
Then after that ..
I HUG MY BOYFRIEND AND CRIED .
So touched ok . Why will someone treat me so good ?
If he was other people , they will sure have scolded me a variety of knnbccb liao lor !
I was super touched and happy .
Then he unintentionally make some funny faces that make me laugh non-stop , with tears rolling .
HAHA .
Wtf hor .
He gave me that , What's-Up-With-You look , make me laugh even more .
Okay . Love him !
Other details not to be given out . Hehehehe .

Anw Happy 3rd month Joycie Girlfriend ! I love you and is going down to find you soon ^^
Wait for me hor dearieee . Hahahaha .

I love Boyfriend and Girlfriend and HJKs , muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-12T03:42:00.002+08:00

Okay darlings Im back with a happy smile hahaha . Talked things with Darling , vented anger talking about some prostitute , or rather scolding -.- , crapped with HJKs on Msn which appears like I keep talking irrelevantly inside lor ! And and chatted with dearest Joycie , wa love her manzzz . Never such a talk-your-heart-out session with people before . Omigoshhhh . Im so damn happy la !

Xiaxue is my first goddess ever . ENVYYYYS . Typed a whole chunk of thing to talk about how my admiration for her grows the other day and decided not to post it :D

Too ~ Freaky if I wear Xiaxue to read it LOL .

She knows so many things , she's so rich and I totally love her blogging !

Okay . But Im not taking her style to type hor dont anyhow say me tell you .

Quoted from her blog archives ,

"1. Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not quests to see if we can find the perfect present yet again!

To him I say:

Eh, whoever said it was a quest? Itz a mission. Fail it, and die. Can't take the challenge? Go be with a submissive donkey who doesn't mind having a special kinda grass to eat as its birthday present.

Anyway dun you men want to make us happy? When you make an effort to take note of what we like and get it for us, it only serves to make us love you more. What was that certain model of Nike shoes that you loved so much? Light blue, boing boing series size 9? If only the shoe laces were black instead of white? Got news that only JB is selling it coz it is sold out in Singapore?

We can make an effort to remember stuff like this, and purchase it for you just to see that smile on your face, why can't you make an effort to do the same? Surely you are not saying we are not worth your time and effort?

If we have already said we dislike bright green stuff and u still bought us an alligator stuff toy, shld we not be disappointed? Shld we pretend we love the obviously effortless gift you gave? Please take note that the stuff toy is not a bad gift just coz of the bright green. It is appalling coz stuff toys are so apparently saying "I refuse to make an effort to choose anything else, which in any case would be something better". Stuff toys are for 13 yr old giggly girls. I would prefer a dildo. Not bright green please. "

Okay . Great defence for girls right . Love her too . HAHA . I agree with making an effort to rmb things though . We do .

Okay , going to Malaysia tmr to cut my hairrrr . Anw the next thing she talked about was hair , HAHA . Okay read it yourself to know more , I read the really archivedddddd archive leih .

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/

Im going to find ways to be rich , *wicked smile* .

Boyfriend , you dont need to worry about supporting me this useless and no-future girlfriend le ! :D

BECAUSE , I'll be rich someday . Watch me .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-11T22:34:00.002+08:00

Maybe this got to other people when he's asking for help and they will see my post and start kp-ing and guailan me again , huh ?

Im strong , Im all alone , Im not going to ask people for help , I can settle things on my own , I know what's right and what's wrong for me !

Ok , maybe I dont know that I have done wrong and what's the right thing . Who doesnt make mistakes and who exactly know what's right or wrong without standing in my shoes ? No one do understand what Im feeling anyway . In cases like this I will always be wrong in other peoples eyes isnt it ? Fuck . Fine .

Fucking screw myself .
Im the mother fucking slut la .
Can anot . MY WRONG . MY FAULT . Can anot ?

I shall not put my anger here and scold people , vent out my anger , since everytime I do something like this Im always wrong !
Maybe I should like go see my pen-god again .
Be my emo self again .

Fuck la , think my life very fun har ?
Im not crying though , strong girl Im . Told all my friends I'll be strong . Im without no one and no one will agree that Im right .
Im pretty sure of that .
Dont tell me something like , you never tell how you know ?
Because when I tell Im afraid to face your stupid answer that doesnt fits my mind and heart at all !

For me , understanding is not to be spoke in words .
FOR ME .
Get the words right . If agree please breathe . Crap .
It is to be felt within the heart and mind .
Silence is golden .
Is all these quotes plainly for you to see and look ?
The deep meanings down there please get it clear .

My heart is hurting alot , everytime things like this happen .
Fuck , I arent a good person .
Im always this arrogant and stubborn person .

Yaya . My experiences are enough for me to know what I should do in situations .
FOR YOU , Im strong and alone , I dont need help .
No wonder Alan keep saying Im a she-male , I know Im strong like a man .

CCB .
Really feel like seeing a pool of blood and jumping inside .
CRAP .
It feels bad to be this upset .
With myself and other people .
What else can I do .
Tolerance got limit .

Heart is pain but have no change .
The feelings had never changes .
God bless me and you .
A long long road to walk still .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-10T01:09:00.009+08:00

"The only reason people hold onto memories so tightly is because memories are the only thing that won't change when everything else seems to."

It's something that I agree to , soso totally , after reading KZB's darlings blogs .
Unfair jiu shi unfair .
Adults can never understand teenagers like us .
Or maybe they are jealous that they arent as pretty .
HAHA .
Screw them and go be your mother fucking dog .
Assssssssssss .

Really , Im reminded of times in the past whenever I read any of my ex-schoolmates blog .
Totally , devastated .
I saw something Belle said in her blog , something about not being really happy starting from this year , not really having a good laugh . Everything changes and becomes stressful .
Maybe even before globalwarming turn serious everyone dies of high blood pressure .

Maybe , I dont even have the right to say anymore , but , I really feel bu fu qi for my friends .
Is there a something I can do for them ?
Maybe asking Ms Christine and Mdm Leow to take charge of CCA again ?
But who am I , hahaha .
I hope the teacher-in-charge now , please please please change her attitude towards people luh !

Aiya , Im too kpo already la !
But I really havent been in a good mood after reading alot of blogs . Time flies like shiet .
Im also shocked that it's MYE for them already .
Seriously , if I were still in school I will be like , WOW , mid year is coming so fast sia , 2 years sure go quite fast must persevere !!
But now ? I dont know what state Im in .

Im happy because I've got a pretty good family , a wonderful boyfriend , aiai & girlfriend .
But .
My future is ruined in my own hands and I know it .
I couldnt go to school and study like any other people .

When Im in Riverside I'll be stressed to death .
When Im in Northland I'll be really , nervous , scared of things , like , getting scolded or friendship or gangsterism kind of stuff ? And I was missing Riverside alot . The people , MY FRIENDS I mean .

I have to face facts dont I . I dont like to go school , I know no one like but somehow I know my case is different (in case you said , that's only what you think but its actually the same for everyone , go eat shit la!) .
Im actually ready to face my fucking future .

Now , I will be happy , thinking , my family , boyfriend , friends will be there for be in future , boyfriend will become husband and yang me kind of stuffs , but somehow when I thought to myself , I really hope it will come true . Dreaming about things that wont come true , hurts my fragile heart .

BUT PLEASEEEE , Im really tired of hearing people say , go to school laaaaaaaaa . When they dont even know any shit . Ok , fine . I love people who cares about me ! Really ! But , I dont want people to persuade me to go school anymore , because I know I will only waste more of my parents money and disappoint many people . I dont think it's fun always having to tell people Im not schooling , or transferring school , or going back school sort of thing . I feel guilty . Saying something and not doing it . I feel like saying millions of sorry everytime either of those happen .

Tell me , who exactly understand everything ? If you think you do , think twice , sighs .
Im being kinda fierce right . Ok , duh .
I need help with my future , with working stuffs .
I need help sorting out what kind of jobs could I go for at this kind of age . Am I a rotten apple ?
Im very blur with what jobs am I limited to . That's why I gave Mum an appearance that Im lazy to find . I dont feel good .

I dont feel like encouraging myself , ending this topic with an encouraging note to myself anymore .
"I know I can figure out a way and find what I want soon"
It will be fucking fake la . Because my mother says , I always couldnt do what I say .

Im disappointed with myself .

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Ok la , pictures , I said that I will upload !
Smile hor after you see these pictures !
Save you from above stressful wordy post (:

When I go my Ahma house ,

my cute cute cousin !
i love her pretty face ..
and her long eyelashes :D pretty right !
ugly and unglam but i like it , lickkkkss . HAHA . i clipped up my fringe so i covered my bare forehead !

Monday , in boyfriend's room ^^

Thursday , at Vivo ! :D

Real-blood sister with my favourite twists :D
my big big smileeee
aurora , i dont want you le this is my new girlfriend :D
boyfriend , i also dont want you le :D [fake]
where my retardedness starts , cute hor ^^
i dont know what the fuck i doing , LOLLLL
finally , my sister and i ! :D

She says I want the camera all to myself !
Luckily she never say my head too big , lolll .

Thats all ba , enjoy (:

♥Kianhui

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2008-04-09T21:01:00.007+08:00

Firstly , congratulate on 10000 visitors to my blog ! :D
Ok , although I dont knw when start to count de la -.-
But Im happy anyway ! :D

Okay , rmb that time HJKs , Joycie and I went Bugis , here are the photos , ya la very late I know paiseh !

Might look funny but I like this picture alot !
When I edit this picture , I have million of creeps bodoh -.-

Love Joycie !

Who's always willing to lend a listening ear .

Reagan brother (:

The loveeeeeeee !

Of course not forgetting ..

My lovely boyfriend , my sweet love <3

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Okay , great pictures to entertain all of you I know :D
Yesterday , chose and edit photos till very late leih . Hahaha .

Anw , went Vivo City to find my sister today !
Ate Long John Silver .
Walked all over the place ..
And took a few retarded photos :D
Was super bored .
Love sister .
Haha .
Went Lot 1 next . I wanted to find a wallet , end up she buying one for herself , lol -.-
Went back home lo after that . Very tired day .
Bathed and ate dinner , went down to find my dearest .
Kpkb with him . LOL . Tmr Im going to spend more time with him to make up for today ^^
Alvin came to tombang him back to fragrant and I went home .

Im still in a tired and lazy mood , lol .
My neck very tired also .
Feel like sleeping zzzzzz , but talking to Darling on phone later :D
I sent all my zilian photos to him already , ALL .
Maisiaosiao , it's me leih !
Then I regret sending to him , very paiseh .
HAHA .
Okkkkk .
Im going off to upload photos of today de . I'll put it at the next post , above one ^^
Good nightzzzzzzz .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-08T22:35:00.002+08:00

I found out that I dont use to blog like how I always do .
And that's the reason why I only blog about my daily life .
Isnt it ?
Reading other people blogs , ex-classmates , Riverside friends , I really feel like crying .
Glad , I left Riverside . It's like such a ......................... hell .
Okay , no offence .
I really hate to offend people nowadays .
I want a very peaceful life !

Sometimes I wonder , those famous bloggers , is it hard for them ?
Like , it's a must to make people like their post with countless pictures and funny words .
Or is it talent .
And must they be rich so that they can buy countless clothes to doll up themselves ?
What crap is that .
But I still love reading their blogs . Lololol .
So many places they can go , so many things they can eat , so many pictures they can take .
Beautiful , wonderful (:
Jealous , envy .
Lol .

Today was a rainy day and a nice day to sleep !
But met Darling at my block below and sat awhile at RC .
Took umbrella and we walked to nearest 912 bus stop and went his house :D
Ate lunch with Girlfriend at 515 , I love the feeling of talking and laughing with her alone , again !
I'll never neglect such an important person of my life , haha .
Sent her home and saw her happy face when she got her precious letter !
Really happy for her too ^^
Slacking slacking at RC awhile , Darling sent me home :D

I totally love spending time with my boyfriend .
He just make me feel so loved .
Thinking back , I am really guilty to hurt him so much .
Yet he could still be smiling and laughing away now .
I owe so much to him .
But Im not returning what I owe him .
Im giving him what he should have after so many sufferings .
And something that only love can do .

Actually Im actually not bad either .
I count my first love , real love as Jxxxxx Xxx . What a messy relationship . In the end he still walks on with his lover . First time , feeling of heartbroken ?
Next , Jxxx Xx . One sided love that hurts me so much , make me 爱得要死要活。
Then , another one , Jxxxx Xxx , no one dare to tell the other one his/her feelings . Silly , idiots .
Finally , a last J that hurts me the most . Dont need to mention everyone also know . Might as well forget about it . But thanks to him , I've learnt alot of lessons . I've learn to be more protective , to be more cautious , to trust someone that I could trust . Im not what Im previously . I've changed for the better , or the worst .

Hah , actually I dont know either .
I just know the fact that I've changed into someone else that my boyfriend loves .
I totally believes in him , I should , Im sure I didnt make the wrong choice .
Thanks Darling , you showed me true love . I dont think anyone's love has been true to me before .
We've promised each other to walk till the end , and never be apart .
I believe we could do it .
It's kinda hard to believe again , you know ?
Boyfriend , you very 厉害，and this is going to be the most romantic and best period of my life .
Make it true darling .
I love you .

♥Kianhui

448 x3

2008-04-08T00:07:00.002+08:00

HALLO :D
Back from Malaysia yesterday night . I miss my ahma traditional PoPiah T.T
On Friday night before I went to Malaysia , hang out with Boyfriend & HJKs at Cwp for awhile .
At Malaysia miss my boyfriend till ^%!$%^!$ ):
HAHA . But Im back . He gave me a big big hug and kiss as promised , love him .
Took many retarded photos before I left for Malaysia .
While I was in Malaysia , I have alot of things in mind to blog about .
Now I have totally nothing to blog about already T.T

Okay , now , I have something really serious in life I have to talk about .
Money $.$
Something that I couldnt live without , I guess ?
Life is really hard living without money .
With money given to me , just for lunch and dinner .
Couldnt satisfy my needs , my life at all .
That's why I MUST work .
But if I work , I have to spend lesser time with Aiai , Boyfriend & Girlfriend .
Like , wtfff ?
I already have so little time for Aiai , and lesser time with Girlfriend , and other good friends in HJKs like Haoren , Reagan & Kelvin already . Had been rather akaliao with T.AhChing (:
So I dont know , but say real de , I dont really fret so much either .
I hope they will understand , though .
Money shall be one of my most important priority (:
But nevertheless , family , friends and boyfriend shall always be the first .
Im someone with a real heart .

Ok , Im really touch when I see Boyfriend's blog , he post picture of retarded me and a whole chunk of words .
Really surprised too (:
Im happy that my boyfriend cherish friends alot , just like me , HAHA .
TRUE , ok .
Hahaha .
But my boyfriend still never forget me !
Hey , someone persuade darling to take off his dearest cap , he's the most handsome when he's in uniform and spike hair luh T.T

After I upload and edit some photos , I'll post it at the top of this post (:
Im excited for a new job and seeing Bf and Joycie tmr .
Hope I get up early instead of sleeping like a dead pig :D

Im afraid to be not the important one anymore , to you , to them .

♥ Kianhui

447 x3

2008-04-03T22:52:00.003+08:00

Currently inside my boyfriend's room , tonning at his house (:
Although Im not exactly very convenient to go far far , but I still come your house so boyfriend , must say thank you and love me more okay ! :D

Was kinda dizzy throughout the day and is okay now already .
Woke up at 11am , quite early already ok , and I washed up myself , waited for 1.30 and went to meet HJKs & Boyfriend . Was in a sick mood and he thought I no mood . Lol .

Then skip skip . Went home to rest . Came out at 4+ to eat with Joycie . Ate laksa , has been craving for it . Joycie advised me not to eat ! Boyfriend come le , say I siao , sick still eat laksa . But , I've been craving for it ! Laksa very nice you know , go 515 eat best la :D
A whole paragraph for laksa , hahaha .

Then went fragrant slacking slacking . Then go shelter slacking slacking . Then Boyfriend sent me home to bathe and then we go back fragrant .

Dont know , feel like Fragrant , abit lack of something that we used to have in the past ? Like everyone not that happy anymore . I dont know what's that thing . Hah .

So Boyfriend's father bus drive us back ! So here I am :D Everyone in his house is sleeping le , ZZzzZzZ ! My parents by now still watching tv then my sister now sure is play computer de . Oh ya , even that pig is sleeping now -.- Ask me come his house to watch him sleep . OMG LA BOYFRIEND .

Okay , tomorrow Im going Malaysia at night , and coming back to Singapore on Sunday . You guys are going to miss my daily posts :D Haha . Okay I feel like Im talking to myself , lol -.-

Im damn hyper but no one is here to play with me ! Anw , Boyfriend confirm will miss me until cry when I go Malaysia ! Aww , I will miss him like $^%&^^%&# too ):

Im just blogging nonsense man . Better than nothing hor :D

Byebye people , I think I will disturb Mr Yeh now .
:D
:D
:D

♥ Kianhui

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2008-04-02T23:44:00.003+08:00

Happy , tired and missing my boyfriend :D

Im happy April Fool's over . Lol . Sorry Xinting never reply your message , I now then think of it manzz 0.0

Tmr , I hope it'll be like , fun and happy too ?

Today stayed home the whole day except going down to buy some tidbits to bite and newspaper for mummy .

Boyfriend came my house and I was very happy because he let me bite and punch his shoulder :D
[Im sorry darling]

I miss Joycie Girlfrienddd . Dont care about diet let's just eat a meal tmr ok :D
LOVE YOU .

Im lazy to reply tags so tmr lo okay sorreyyys !
Im going off to sleep le tatas !
Nightzzzzzzzxxxxxxxxssssssssss .

♥ Kianhui

445 x3

2008-04-01T18:19:00.003+08:00

This part is edited , 1o.44pm .

I HATE APRIL FOOL .
Screw this day , I have a fucking bad flu .
And fuck those many things .
Pranks nevermind .
But .
I really dont know how to say .
Damnit .
CCB LA .

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Joycie pangseh me for lunch today and stayed home and eat her Long John Silver . HAHA .
FAKEEEE .

Met Darling and HJKs in Fragrant . Was laughing throughout . Alvin & Ahtong was funny , HAH .

Ate lunch with Darling . Talked about our family . So happy man :D
Ate fishball noodles .
This time , it's much more easier to eat ! I love the feeling of having my tongue pierced back man . Thanks Alvin for helping me pierce !

Darling sent me back and Im happy :D

ME and Joycie anniversary change to every 13th okok :D
I love Aurora manzz .
13th is the first outing and also the first time me and her became friends .
3rd is the day when we wanted to steadddd . HAHA .
I hope I dont have to work that day .
Not that I have found a job . But mum is really nagging so I guess I will find a job in no time O.O

Okays . I'll come back later to blog , I think :D

I miss dearest already .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-03-31T00:01:00.005+08:00

Charlotte , Alrights will relink you soon (:
Jiaren , Yeah yeah , soon hopefully ! Thanks cutie , have been down for last fewdays , guess Im alright . Your love life alright ? Last long okay , love you !
Abigail , Okay sister , link you up real soon , Im alright already , takecare alrights ?
Xinting , LOL , so cute can you , how can ?! Okok , I love chatting to you manzzz . Takecare , I might not be a good advisor but is a good listener and always there :D
JiaEn , YESYES cherry , it does rhymes , haha ! Quitted schooling . Tell you more if I see you . Do takecare . Yeah , hope so =/ PLEASE DONT FORGET ME FOR GOODNESS SAKE !! :O
Sandra , Yes friend , will link you soon (:
Aurora , Aiyar , dont worry man , I love you the same too anyway (:

Final decision , again . I couldnt keep promises for myself . Fuck . Useless person . Not ?
I will become someone good in future . Just with enough money to keep me , and my family alive .
I just ask for simple happiness . I dont need to get an office work in future . Manager ? CEO ? Secretary ? Nah . Not me . For now .
I dont say my opinions wont change , or I wont regret . I dont promise anything .
Free for you to scold me in future , say that I took my parents good treatment for granted .
I know I definitely have the best parents in the whole world , if not better .
A nice and warm family . Sufficient food and money for anything , everything . Just right . Enough .

But Im sorry dad and mum . Disappointed you guys once again . Wasted your money on new school uniform and books . Sorry for being such a useless daughter , stubborn and dont know what's right for myself .
I know studying give me good future , I know I walk this road and I will never get poor .
Renata is right , she has a bright future ahead , mine is tiring .
I might never know how tough working is .
But Im willing to give it a try . I hope I wont fail myself even in work . Although I've some sort of prediction that I'll . This time , I will persevere . That's what I said . I dont even know whether I could do it .

Failure uh ?
Not being pessimistic . Dont ever try to persuade me that Im not a failure or what , because I know myself better than you do .

You should have guess what Im going to do . My msn nick and those questions . Yes , Im going to announce that Im going to drop out of school , hey , a school dropout .

Im not proud of being one . Maybe Im . But Im just not boasting .
Dont ask me whether Im really quitting school . My blog says and stated that Im , isnt that downright clear enough ?

Im sorry for giving this attitude , but Im taken in and persuaded by my own intentions , I dont wish to have someone move my decisions again . Please dont ruin my life . I almost got stuck in between going school and not going school . Please let me stay focused , just support me for going out to work , alright ?

Thanks Abigail , Yenliang , Brenda , Renata , Miaoling , Wenting , Linli and 3ED for taking care of me in Northland for that short 3 days . Really appreciated it , learnt abit of lessons , make some good friends that are really nice to me , and lose a precious wallet with lots of memories , wth . Haha , but overall , I was happy in that school . Really thankyou . I must have disappointed Mr Tai's & VP's expectation .

Alvin Lee , my dearest didi , Joycie , Aiai must be disappointed too . But Im sorry . The stress I have to face every night thinking of school . School phobia , Cutie said and I quoted it all along . Yes , I have school phobia , and Im not going to fight it , Im letting it win . Im not seeing any fucking counscillors , I really hate them . Instead of helping me , they turned me upside down , left , right , and back again . Yeah , screw you .

Still , Riverside gave the best memories ever . Remembered always , I miss the food , classroom , few teachers and alot of people . Screw the current prxxxxxxl the breadman , you've totally no authority in your students mind to control the school . ASK those students , who ever like you to stay in Riverside ? Hey , what a thick-skin lao zha bo . Those who said yes must be seriously fucking par jiao and I really wanna dig their eyes out with forks and use a loudspeaker to scream in their ears . Fucking angry ! Riverside was a superb school in Sec 1 ' o6 . Was , WAS , W-A-S .

Yeah , still , I want to thank Renata & Yenliang , utmostly persuading me to stay for my own good . Millions of thanks , super touched for their care and concern . Really .
Aiai , Joycie & Boyfriend , supporting me all the way in whatever I do . They'll be by my side always , I know it . They've always been . Going to school has been a way of neglecting them , Im sorry . Maybe working will make me neglect you more , but Im sure it'll give me a clearer mind to rearrange my time properly so that I could spend time with you guys .
Say Hi to freedom and work , Bye to homework and schoolmates . Farewell .

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OKAYS . Big big relief to have written the whole chunk , Im happie . And Im happy that Boyfriend is happy because Im happier . Dearest , hao ai ni !

Ate lunch with Joycie , Boyfriend & Juntong , I ate fishball noodles .
Stomachache , went home . In between , conflicts with dearest once again , but okay afterwards .
1.1o pm Shutter postponed to 3.15 pm at CWP with Boyfriend , Juntong & Carin . Movie was nice , something like thai-version , only easier to understand and prettier actress :D
BOYFRIEND WAS SOSOSO DAMN SCARED I SWEAR .
Haha !
I wasnt better , but , Im still good . At least I dont have nightmares from horror movies , HAHA .
Boyfriend too for tonight , he'll be dreaming of me !

Went to Fragrant , Boyfriend and I played like little kids :X
Juntong & Carin keep laughing ! They're sweet though , especially Carin .
Hehs .
Went Vista to eat dinner with Dearest . Ate fisball noodles again and shared coke . I love being alone with my boyfriend .
He go smoking smoking , and slacking slacking .
Sent me home , and he went back fragrant . Missing my dumbass since then :D

Chat on MSN , suddenly with alot alot of people .
I've been missing Xinting alot alot and I dont know why ! I need her cheerful smile I guess !
Get to know a Riversidian through Leonard Lim , LOL .
Her name is Siyan , nice to meet her :D
Renata talked to me , love talking to her and telling her my life , thanks girl , for your precious advices . But really , I've made my decision . Thanks and good luck .
Then talk shit with Boyfriend , lmao . Talked on phone with him , goddamn hell , first time hear him so ki-siao manzzz . O-M-F-G .
He must be having a really sweet dream , dearest boyfriend , I love you .
Sorry for quarrelling with you always . Finally settle down in peace and harmony , I hope (:
LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU .

Re-piercing tongue with Joycie Girlfriend , weeeeeeeeeets . Hope boyfriend dont mind much !
Cant wait , cant wait .
Getting up at 11am , so going to sleep soon !
{You get to read more blog posts when I not schooling right (:}

I love 30th , happy day . Lucky I postponed time to 3.15 .
3 more days to 1st month with Aurora , loveeeee .

♥ Kianhui

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2008-03-24T21:50:00.003+08:00

(tags replied below)
Northland is good :D
Made new friends . Just realised one of my online friends is in Northland . LOL .
Friendly people ! Hate chinese teacher and lesson to the utmost core .
Roar .
Took 3 buses to reach home -.-
Needa copy all the notes from Maths .
HAVENT STARTED LA , SHIT .

Ate lunch with Haoren and Joycie loveeee at Viva foodcourt . Boyfriend pei-ed us . After that I went home . My SIM card spoiled , tmd . Spoil my mood lor .
_l_

Blahhhed . No mood at all .
Dearest boyfrienddddd . Please try to understand me . I do understand me , BUT I dont know how to make you feel better , I am sorry .
I love you .
Please be there for me alrights ?

School is making me fucking stressed up . Is my heart and mind trying to make me stressed I know T.T

Xinting , Yeaps ! Today I suddenly miss Riverside when I was in Northland leih ! Yeah , this weekend or what alright (: I am happy , I guess ! You must be happy too okay ! I support you !
Boyfriend , Ya la , you love me , I love you as much too ^^
Jianing , LOL , I finally know what you mean . Dhen divorce with him la xD HAHAHA fakeee ! Its the same , he still love me ok (:
Huiwen , Yes , shall link you soon sister ! Yesh , we'll meet and go out someday one . Takecare and loves too x3
Joey , Good good :D I will if I free and I can go in ! Hehs , yes , much missed (:
Meiling , STEADY ! I will I will (: I hope you've overcome your fear eh ! I miss you , steady ):
Hadi , LOLLLL . My sitting partner ! I will miss you one , miss sitting with you ! Enjoy sitting with Lena instead eh ^^
Yvonne , YOOOOOOOOOOO :D Sb shuang la , HAHA . Thanks alot ar (: I miss you laughter manzz . See you yvonne :D
Jiaren , !!!! Thanks for chatting with me in MSN today ^^ Hehs , happy they tagged , BUT WHAT DID XINGWEI TAG AR ??!!?! Lol . -.- I miss talking with you cutie ): Hope to see you soon !
Xingwei , Yeah HI "Hadi" who always have me in his heart , LOL . -.-----
Lynette , OKOKKKK . I'll link you after I post this up (:
Aurora , I MISS YOU ALREADY ! And ya lor , suddenly got so many people tag , I very very very happie !! :DDDDDDDDDD

♥Kianhui

441 x3

2008-03-23T21:21:00.006+08:00

23/3/o8 :D

cousin , godbro & ongminmin
dearest mummy , i love you more than anyone in the world !
sweet godbro and my effing messy hair !
loved you all muack !
perfect family , my sister's not there . isnt this picture perfect ?

two picture taken by my godbro .

skies of loveeee .
my two cups of drink and sambal fried rice :D
daily addicte T.T im not pregnant .

2o/3/o8 :D
candid me , pretty ma :D

me and jiejie feet .

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OMFG I CUT MY LONGGGG FINGERNAILS AND I AM FUCKING HEART PAIN LA .
SHIT ):

Sighhhhhhhhhhhs . But it's easier to type , haha ! Because usually the long nail will be an obstacle for me to type . Went to Dearest house at 6 in the morning and before that was chatting with Girlfriend .

Went home to change and ate lunch with Joycie . My sambal fried rice was so spicy that I have to drink two cans of drink .
-.-
Later met the other people and went to fragrant . Kinda fun .

THAMNENGTONG LETTER CAME :D
He only mentioned my name once as JM and I was practically hyper already . Hoho . Happy happy !
What's sad you know ? I wrote finish a long letter to him just now , I forgot to write his name and other impt details like , wtf . Sot ):

I went to Upper Seletar Reservoir with my parents , godbrother & cousin . Had fun ^^
Took photos . Since long since I saw those smiles . I love my mother and father !
I saw many monkeys .
I SAW TWO MONKEYS HAVING SEX . I WAS LIKE SCREAMING , THEY ARE MAKING LOVE .
My mother super paiseh jitao walk away .
The monkey power , run from about 5 m the distance away to another monkey and straight away ---- already .
O.O
Okay . Enough of that ! Haha .

Went Woodlands Mart eat with parents and godbrother , cousin went home .
Here I am , back , clean and pretty !
HAHAHA .
Okay whatever , Im in a high mood .

Joycie , I love you !
I hope you are happy and your psp's whatevers are safeeee :D

Darling , dont be too paranoid and think too much .
I know you asked those question because you love me alot and afraid to lose me .
Seriously I find out that I dont know how to express love messages , all I can say is ,
I love you .
I wont leave if unless I have no choice , really .
I wont say forever . Long ago I lost confidence and trust in that word .
But I promise I will be loving you all the while , I will be by your side .

♥Kianhui

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2008-03-22T16:53:00.003+08:00

Today I have reached a turning point. It may be all over but the crying -- but I have the strength to move on and create a better situation for myself. You may say that I never saw it coming or learned the hard way, but with profound change comes new opportunity. One door closes -- another opens. So tear down the wall, and rebuild anew.

Okay . Dont misunderstand this .
Im especially thinking of my new school from yesterday till now . Excited .
It's a starting of a new life . I will update everyone of my new life too ^^
Actually , the above can also talk about what they said about life . Oh well .

I missed talking and seeing Aiai .
I agreed with Aiai , having almost everything I have , but I couldnt be happy , sometimes .
Those true kind of happiness you know ?
Okay .
Boyfriend dont worry about me ^^
And please take care of yourself , sometimes its me who's worrying about you !
Going to find my boyfriend and girlfriend and HJKs le !
Byebyes :D

♥Kianhui

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2008-03-21T11:03:00.004+08:00

21st is the date of patch .
It's also the same date which we first stead .
Experienced it , cried from it , learnt a lesson , got my love in the end .
You have been a really special person in my life , someone that makes me still an unhappy person if he's not around to give me warmth , care and love .
Maybe god is good to me . He knows I've learnt the lesson , 失去才懂得珍惜 and gave me another chance .
Thanks alot my dearest boyfriend , love is increasing each day from me to you .
I keep saying it proudly , you are the guy who treat me the best in the world other than my father .
Really , and I mean it , you are my favourite guy :D
I love you .

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:D
Tonned with Boyfriend . Slept at his house for one hour , Hanjie came awhile and I went home to bathe and eat .
(dearest is a loving person only to meeeee)
Met them at Cwp , quite alot of people and we took MRT to Sembawang .
Caught The Orphanage at Sun Plaza , lousy seats and screen and environment but lovely people ^^
Haoren , Jesslyn , Joyce , ME , Kianhui , Hanjie in front .
Kelvin , Reagan , Darren Liao , Guanyi behind .
Kelvin came at about half of the movie and to watch a lousy movie .
Money fly away .
Popcorn doesnt taste nice , got one hard sugar or whatsoever , threw it and it bounced off making a loud sound -.-
Supposed to be a horror movie . Joycie and I laughed almost throughout the movie .
Boyfriend & Hanjie was scared till #%%^%&%^ :D
Rated 2.5/5 ba =/

Ate at Macds , Jesslyn , Joycie & I talked quite abit when others went out because got some problem .
:D :D :D
Dont get too stressed up people , love is suppose to be enjoyable and man man lai de .
Love this kind of thing cannot rush de okay !!
I want to go out with these people again , maybe to beach/Sentosa next time and get closer with everyone else (:
Joycie is still as retarded , Jesslyn is still as sweet .
(dont worry i still love you girlfriend HAHA)
Finally met up with HJKs , has been spending time on other things for a few days !
Haoren become shuai and Reagan hair is longer :D
MY BOYFRIEND IS A DUMBASS LOR .
FAKE(not) .
^^

Sent Jesslyn to Xcraft and we went to funfair and played that turn turn thing . Was so high about it , in the end shag lor T.T
Not enough sleep I guess , hahaha .
I hope those two will be together one day , WINK WINK .
Hahaha .
Saw XT , Cheese & Weikeong at Cwp , I jitao knock the glass make them chua tio ^^
HAHA . But I've to rush off , bo bian cannot sit sit chat with them ):
XT ! I owe you :D

Went fragrant , then Dear sent me home .
In a rush to blog , so , yeah , the end for you all ^^
Jiamin is a tired but happy girl .

And .

♥Kianhui

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2008-03-20T00:51:00.004+08:00

OKAY . Love today (:

Morning went to Northland to buy books and Yishun Central to buy uniform . YES can skip PE for Monday , no PE in stock , HAHAHA . I hate PE .
Uniform is ultra cool , I like .

Went home to try on my uniform <3>

Tombang daddy car to go Kianhui house . Was kinda bored and it's raining . I was kinda moodless , but I love my qinaide (:

Took MRT to TPY to meet Tanleelee . They went to MCYs .

Slack at TPY and was boring like shit . I miss HuayKuan times .

Went back to CWP . Pei them smoking smoking and I went to find Xinting laopo :D

Waited for her and Weikeong . ZzZzZzZzzzzzZZZZZZ . HAHA .

Bought tickets with Xinting . Talked and went to find Weikeong and I took $$ from Sister .

Late for movie for about , 5-10 minutes ? Sat and watch :D

Other than Secret , I couldnt like any romance movie that is better than Sky of Love , tell you . But Sky of Love is even more touching , better storyline , better acting and actors . Japanese know how to act well , really . Hiro and Mira is LOVE . From the start I was about to faint when I see that white-haired Hiro , omfg la . HAHAHA .

At about half of the movie , I cried . Too touching ! Me and Xinting almost used up a packet of tissues lol . Weikeong only know how to laugh .

.____.

Thinking of that movie makes me go crazie and wanna cry again . While talking with Kianhui on the phone just now , I keep mentioning Sky of Love till he kinda buaytahan . HAHA . Going to buy DVD when it comes out , or I'm going to borrow from anyone who has it and going to watch with dearest . I swear he will like it and he cannot sleepppp !!

So long never see Xinting laopo already , first time see , we see each other CRY . Lol ! Movie too touching (:

Any touching movie I'm watching it with Xinting again ! :D

Find Aiai after that . Ate Macds . Wanna buy McN. but bought McC. in the end and I DONT KNOW WHY . I really just want to eat nuggets la bodoh ):

Random .

Talk talk talk . I really love french fries ^^ Aiai treat me de !

Sent Aiai to her block , hughug and walked home .

22nd is our day , Aiai ! :D

Kianhui miss me alot ^^

So he call me all the way till I reach home and about 12 like that he tired and kup le .

ALVINLEE , YOU'LL SEE :DDDD

Misses Girlfriend , so long never see her already T.T

Lunching tmr with her <3

Okay , I'm kind of tired and going to sleep soon after I watch a drama . Tatas .

My new uniform . Bye Riveriside , I'll miss you .

♥Kianhui

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2008-03-18T19:44:00.008+08:00

Okay . I am happy today . The only thing unhappy is having a fucking headache and feeling so sleepy . Plus , Aurora isnt down at fragrant and I ate lunch with Kianhui , Jason , Ahtong & Carin instead . Haha . Get well soon Joycie ! Beautex for you (: Before I go on with how my day goes , look at this , totally true , I am going to believe in Horoscope soso much already !

You may be facing a turning point in your romantic situation, or that you have achieved your romantic goals in an unexpected or private way. Like the Peggy Lee song, you may now be asking, 'Is that all there is?' While this sentiment is normal, it is wise not to gloss over it. It is a good time to reflect on fundamentally divergent or opposing ideas for your goals as a couple.

Okay . The thing I am so happy about is that before this , for the days before when I am not part of a couple they didnt say , but today when I feel so romantic and couplish and they said it like that also , true hor ?

My power today lies in remarkable gratitude. I am not a victim. There are no lost causes. "I've been there, done that, and know suffering -- but it's all good." I'm still standing. "Can't touch this." Self-pity is an excuse to do nothing. To appeal to sympathy for pity's sake is to seek affirmation of the choice to do nothing. I am empowered by the spirit and support of meaningful experience and I transform with silent resilience.

This one is yesterday one . Yeah , I am full of gratitude yesterday . I've been there to break someone heart and suffer myself . Doing things for other people out of sympathy isnt a way :D

Still got still got .

Gemini
Today is one of those rare flawless days, so make the most of it and include your honey. Take the day off and do something you'll both enjoy. Take advantage of this good day.

Capricorn
Every day can't be perfect. But as long as your sweetie is by your side, you don't mind taking on the weight of the world's problems. As a couple, you feel invincible.

HAHA . True I guess , today is a very good day that I enjoyed alot . Thanks dearest <3

You know what I like about this horoscope ? It's about how accurate it is . Because I try reading other horoscope and they doesnt even mean a single thing to me . LOL .

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Morning went Northland . They will test me for one month , so I get to wear the uniform , PE shirt ( I RED HOUSE LEIH CHOOSE MYSELF ONE :D) , study in that school . Lol . Kinda happy and nervous , but stressed and abit of sad .

Went home to bathe and waited for Kianhui & other people to get out of school . KELVIN T AH CHING very cute . Haha . I love his baggy pants . Very long never see Marcus & Shanran also , talked to them abit :D Then raining very big , before that everyone except us go off liao , dhen we go Viva eat lor :D

Went fragrant awhile and go cwp find HUILAY to take my POA book . Maisiaosiao , I MUST get it back , one book for 20+$ siol . So expensive . Paper only ma sell so ex for what T.T
At home keep cursing people for selling till so ex . Was looking at the book list and I sot ar !
#%^%&

Thanks alot Huilay , talked to her and tell her reasons for not going Riverside Sec anymore .
I am sorry , dearests in 3/9 & KZB ):

Movie tmr with Xinting , Thursday and Friday with Kianhui or Joycie & HJKs , Sunday with Sister . WEE .

Okay . Happy Jiamin going off because she got a fucking headache .

♥Kianhui

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2008-03-18T00:56:00.005+08:00

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My loyal blog readers , (LOL) , I am back with a super big and happy smile .

To make up for my emo posts , pictures are posted !

Pictures do talk :D

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On 21st then I write long long for my dearest . (why 21st right ? hehehehehehe )
I am sorry , I am really sorry . I will cherish this one chance from you , and from me .
❤Kianhui

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Days are getting normal . Tomorrow I going Northland Sec for another interview .
I hope I give the Principal a fucking bad impression so I wont have to go to school . LOL .
So that dearest dont need to worry so much also :D
I wont cut my fingernails la ! So long already kay , (proudly :D) , cut for fuck lor , see Principal only ..

Wahlao , today I talk on phone so long with Kianhui , my father & mother already suspect because I keep hiding in room to talk . HAHA .

Anw they've guessed I like him before , doesnt matter if they know also -.-
Someday , I will like , tell them lorrrr :D

Aurora ! I'm still like thinking so madly about what we talk about when I walk home with you today , LOL .
Cant wait T.T

I hope all HJKs find girlfriends / get over ex-girlfriend / last long with girlfriend . I hope they'll be happy !
I hope I meet up with my KZB friends soon .
I hope Aiai is happy this moment ?
Her boyfriend , take care of her , stop making her sad , pleaseeeee .

我们一起走到最后，好吗？

I love the way how retarded he look <3

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2008-02-27T18:26:00.004+08:00

Originally wanted to go out for lunch .
I woke up and then saw that it's 5 already , then I sian diao already .
Then Xiaogui called . Talk awhile . Our lifes are so boring .

Anyway , I've got a new blogskin already . Created yesterday , used up 12 hours . I this morning 6am then completed sia . Later I have to edit my profile that place . My big photo is there siol .
My most colorful blogskin of all , comments ? :D

I love these two songs in my blog . Super nice sia .

Later I come back to blog again . Tatas .

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Hi I am back . This post is edited . I find that it's cheating if I typed too many posts on one day . Lmao . Yeah . I got lots of things to say suddenly .

I was trying to sleep from just now till now . cannot already . already attempt to sleep before 5 . nevermind . then i think alot alot . what matter i do to make myself sleep , i couldnt do so . dhen my mind started to wander really far .
I have been wondering . am i such a bad person that i've lived to deserve all this punishments ? i thought of those few guys that i got involved with , in the past , or maybe they stil have an impact on me now .
Let's named them . i dont need to consider whether you do know them anot because i dont care alot you know .
There are , 4 people i guess . they really make my head goes round and round . dont blame me for thinking so much , i dont mean it you know ? look and you'll know i've no much choice .
They are , A , J , K , L . this letters dont mean anything . i just like to use this letters ok , dont think too much .

A . this guy touched me very easily . i dont know why . everytime i got close to him i will fall in love . i really tried to control myself this time . i guess i did . i keep persuading myself he is just a plain flirt . and remind myself what a friend told me about him . that's how i got past . he's just a miracle . he could ease me from other pains . giving good advices . cheering me up . small things he said could just make me smile the whole day . he couldnt make me angry for anything , except making me liking him more and more . i dont know why falling in love is easy while forgetting a love is so darn difficult . in conclusion , i dont think i have any fate with this guy . he's just the perfect dream guy i have in my mind . dream guy . DREAM .

J . i shall make this obvious . and this alphabet just suits him alot . he made my life turn upside down , once . he's one that could almost make me do anything . although my love for him is subsiding to almost afew percent , i couldnt bring myself to forget him . i cant control myself but to be jealous of what he had done for other girls . like some recent issues . i am kinda jealous for dont know what . and i think think think . i am just so afraid that the feeling is so , so coming back . i've been wondering if he had something for me . but i think thats kind of daydreaming again . small actions he did will let me think too much and make my mind wander . memories are not yet erased . although i told people that memories are meant to be kept , but me , myself , cant wait to forget them . because , memories , for me , mean an obstacle against forgetting someone . it's hard . it's really hard . my love for him must be really deep . for A , my passion in love for him isnt that great also you know . no matter how people say that what J did to me is really too much , i never hated him . yes , i dont hate him at all . and the thought of him coming back will haunt me every now and then . it's really tiring . disappear from my life will you . just when i was about to , you appeared once again . i could not forget i guess . but , no more love after all .

K , the guy that had ever love me so much in his and my whole life . should be the only guy that love me more than i do for him . no matter how much hurt i brought to him , how many times i stab his heart , he will always be there for me , be there to forgive me , be there to lend me a shoulder . words he said always touches me . his jokes always make me laugh . how irritating he is , i couldnt bring myself to hate me . or even , make me 又恨又爱。there isnt a day where i'll not think of him . i couldnt help , but worry about him too . i really hope he is going to be fine , this time . for the last time . i prayed and prayed . i really hope he will be alright . i dont know how to imagine my life , their life , without him . i enjoyed the love life i had with him once , his smiles , his concerns , his stupid face , his stupid voice . the first time ever , i initiate to hug someone . god , please bless him , really . he isnt stupid , he's just blur and abit slow . he's got a bright future . how easy is it to find a job if he isnt going to be alright ? i treated him as my guardian angel , haha , must be very silly , you think ? but things he wrote , just make me feel so . i wanna be his guardian angel too .

L . this guy . i guess from now till forever i will have this tiny crush on him . i know you must be very tired reading this already , ridiculous right , so many boys in my life one . hah . but , whatever he says , although means to be evil and mean , is music to my ears . talking to him and have his eyes on me , or did you call this infactuation ? omfg , i cant help it but he's just damn handsome in the way i imagined him to be alrights T.T

L is not that much , i guess . just a tiny crush . i am really sorry , if after reading this , your opinion of me just changed alot alot . but to say again , i have no choice , it's chicken for me to fall in love bodoh , i can just control abit lor . i control here , control there , ending up having crushes everywhere . yeah , shoot me dead la . but , i can tell you , all of them are important to me , at least for now ):

If you are kind of irritated or disgusted by what i write , i could only say a big big sorry . because this is my dear blog and i really want to tell these feelings to someone , somewhere . i cant help it . i am sorry .

Anw , other then that , i find that true , good , trusted friend are hard to find . Now i have two i guess , but i guess that's enough . Actually one is enough . But suddenly , both turns to be important to me . Sometimes i complained of total boredness at home because i have no much friends and no one is asking me out . But sometimes i think , its not about the quantity , but the quality . And i will be happy , having one perfectly true friend that i will always turn to , who is there whenever i had troubles , someone that i couldnt live without . And another .one that just had a smile that will make me happy when i think of it , had completely same thinkings and someone i find that is kind of important in my life .

That's how i live life ba . Maybe Alvin is right . my attitude is what that chases everyone away , making me lonely at times . But really , being my friend , of course i will try to be good , but if they really treat me as their friends , they must really sometimes ignore or adapt to my attitude . I am sorry , but this is me . I find it really tiring to try to adapt to many many different people . Sometimes i just wanted to live life my own way , for a short while . But in another minute i might got despised , hated .

Hope this group of friends will really last long , very very long . I dont want to keep finding and losing important people all the times you know . I am going to be further away with my classmates and dancemates , they will be living with their lifes , and sometimes i have to move on with my life like this , too . I know i will be losing them soon or later , so i chose not to interrupt . Dont anyhow anyhow leih , they are very important people of my life you know ?

Jiaren , although the bottle has broken , but our friendship confirmed isnt . No worries ! It's just a fragile bottle , unlike our frienship . Thanks for all those concerns , smiles and advices you gave me . You are the greatest support when i am completely lost , in school . Thanks a million , dearest .

Liting & Jiaen , the 3 of us has gone through alot alot of things that made us dropped too much tears . But from all those experiences , i am sure we've learnt alot of things from it . Bitchy , i want to be the slutty that gets crazie and laugh over stupid things you'll remember . Cherry , i sure cherished this unusual and precious friendship since Sec One , many sorries left unsaid , i've learnt my lesson . If you've ever forgotten how our old days were like , my archives are always available and undeleted ! :D

Jiayee , my first bestfriend since i came into Riverside . My past , your past , we were always with each other . Every exam period , we'll never fail to stick to each other . You've helped me in my life alot , and you were always there , whether i'm in school or not . Thanks alot sister , my most beloved sister .

Meiling , Xinting , Meixia & other cdancers , though we've drifted apart and not close anymore , all of you sure have a place in my heart , all the time , through my life . Thanks for those laughters that make my school days in Riverside worthwhile .

Why did i suddenly get all emotional already ? Dont worry , i'm far too strong to drop any tears ;D

Guess it's time for me to sleep already , 5.55am right now . Good morning people , time for school ! Haha . But who will on computer in the morning sia . Okok . Tata . I love all my stupid friends :D

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2008-01-08T21:05:00.000+08:00

oh ya , HAPPIE BIRTHDAY DEAREST THEODORE . HAHA . I LOVE YOU !
ps , i love theodore among alvin & simon de most you know ;D

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2008-01-01T15:15:00.000+08:00

LOVE -yilinjiaminjianinggladys (:
gladys,jiamin,yilin,jason,alvin,sean,kianhui,alan,kelvin,haoren,?,jeremy,regen(?)
kianhui :D
me,jianing,gladys,BANGALAAAA :D
alvin,jason
see moley,most left there !
aiai !

alvin shy sia .
sweet yilin

step shy !
:D

mr&mrstan
jeremy and alan
jianing. only photo i have of you._.
mine is hotpink , hers red :D
vivo

aiai,jianing,jiamin,yilin
x3
yilin,aiai,jianing

vivo

pretty yilin
shy jianing
yilin&i + jianing !

us + jianing !

fireworks @ cwp civics
my lightstick

or whtevr you call la ._.

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2008-01-01T14:35:00.000+08:00

first post of 2oo8 ? yeah . i hate 2oo8 . fucking year .
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jianing post says i am a nice girl , and if kianhui dont treats me well if not she will kill kianhui . no , its not true , its totally not true , i treat him like damn fuck ok . i am NOT a good girlf , aiai also tink so . i am not , i am not , jianing kill me instead .
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i just wanna be drunk foreverr . maybe i arent ytd , but i definitely like de feeling of drinking . you can forget about school reopening and all stress coming straight at you , you knw ? you can just laff away with ur frens and everything . anw thnks guanyi for talking . cos i nvr knw anyone tht will talk to me will exist in this world , haha . she's got everything and i got nothing .
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buy some alcoholic drinks for me , i'll kiss you . and i mean it . HAHA .
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anw ytd . went vivo with alot of pple . got me , aiai , jianing , yilin , jason , alvin , jeremy , sean , moley , kianhui , alan , & i forget dont knw who ._. but in de end got like 10+ pple ? haha . we met at boots and shoes there dhen me & aiai bought sushi , jianing come find us . we went 6th floor eat , all tht evryone come liao dhen we go off . mrt , sian . dhen we reach harbourfront dhen go vivo lo . wait for thm oso . pictures alot , to be uploaded later , or tmr . hahaha . go dere , i forget do wht , but i knw got eat ljs , dhen got go sky park . dhen later tonglee got come , happie yeh . dhen keep disiao . at night , pple go off bcos of probation , dhen we four girls stay there . for starbucks , playground , and more of skypark . i was quite quiet i tink , haha . dhen got some bad news call , dhen leave vivo le . dhen we like keep changing mrt , lmao ? after tht . we got take a foto of us showing signs of L-O-V-E . i am O , for ordinary , ordinary or sumthg worse . whtevr . it was happie and crazie . dhen we went off in mrt , jianing showed me videos , i was like laffing and smiling all de way . babies are thgs tht i must want in future . i love babie ! aiai alight at admiralty , we alight at wdl . lucky bus come quick . we chiong home at 11 like tht . dhen i bathe prepare call aiai & jianing . and yilin nvr go , cos her parents dont let . sad , but i wished her happie new year later (:
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we met at cwp , i was quite high , haha . saw shiteng , she was sweet with her boyf leihs . later on bcos outside got sprays ma . dhen shiteng got spray . dhen we go out like avoiding , or rather me , dhen shiteng say , hallo or whtevr thg , dhen we jitao shout and run off . LOL . gladys was insane please . LOL . yays , i enjoyed with jianing , aiai , and maybe moley oso xD hahaha . fireworks was beautiful , countdown was sad . wtfuck ? i wasnt happie at all after countdown .
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sean have to rush home . dhen we all like hang around civics , dhen go cwp there again . jianing went home , me and aiai and moley take mrt to admiralty . moley went home . i waited for aiai outside her hse , dhen we go over tonglee hse . really wasnt in de mood , i wasnt happie . i drank a large slurpee , got a lightstick , purple ! yays . dhenn . whtevr , other pple came . brought table and chairs outside , played cards . aiai was insane once again . my mood got even worse . i drank abit , maybe , 1/2 of a big cup ._. ya , whtevr . i wanna more . wanna interact with a black cat , but he was scared , LOL . played audition , stupid guanyi and tonglee keep kajiao , ): . but i love tonglee's keyboard , nice can . hehs . dhen . tonglee was drunk . aiai was drunk . kianhui was drunk . whtevr . moley pour one cup of guiness , i plead for one sip . i drank de whole thg , it was nice . dhen he pour another , wanna gave guanyi , it was bitter like fuck . ate my darling mento . wee . and guanyi's hp songs are nice , soso nice , songs like dont go . yeah . we just practically kp-ed de whole time , and laff here and there , thts de best time of de whole new year eve to new year i have . you knw ?
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slept awhile bcos i was really tired . got up , de wind of fan is super big , i keep sneeze . woke up , wanna go home , cannot unlock door , wtfuck . useless ongminmin . tanleelee helped me open , thnks uh . was staring into blank space in 913 and 9oo . went home , bathe , sleep . and woke up eat prawn noodles bought by mummy . my first drink of 2oo8 is slurpee , followed by beer , followed by plain water . wee . food is fries cooked by sean , + potato chips , dhen prawn mee . lalala .
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i super hate 2oo8 i tell you . i dont wanna go school i tell you . how i hope i can drink more . i really hope so . do you knw tht i could just cry . i badly need help .
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i hope you are well . you worried me ytd , drink till so red . you dont drink but you keep wanna drink . lose le , happie cos you could drink . fucking crazie ok . you are mad ytd . i do worry .
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dont ask kianhui to treat me well , takecare of me or wht . bcos i arent a good stead , & i dont wan good treatment back , bcos i will just die from guiltiness . i am sry boyf , i dont lie anymore , but really , i do sucks . please dont deny or whtevr , i knw de truth de best . i knw all de bad thgs i done . i am sry .
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2007-12-31T13:33:00.000+08:00

probably de last post of 2oo7 .
i love dearest baby !
i love aiai !
i love alvin !
i love jianing !
i love nengtong !
i love sean !
i love shanran !
i love liting !
i love jiaren !
i love jiaen !
i love jiayee !
i love royston !
i love pohshen !
i love jason !
i love aaron !
i love kelvin !
i love shawn !
i love sheryl !
i love yuxuan !
& evryone tht is my friend this year !
weee i love you all .
2oo7 is a very great year .
i must spend de last day happily .
happie new year eve to evryone ! :D
iloveyou , rmb ar !
x33333333333333333333333333333333

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2007-12-22T22:28:00.000+08:00

awwww . malaysia here , now is so fun ! only bcos i get to use comp . haha (: i've been using comp for quite long eh ? hm ! i cannot use too long if not i will guilty de lor . hahaha .
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tmr going shopping . i quite looking forward de leih ! but dear said i shop again when i tell him ): hmm ! but i will still shop ! shopping is my dearest passion :D
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chatting with dear all de way since i use comp . haha . dhen suddenly i like no mood like tht ! oso dont knw why la ): i miss evryone , esp aiai & dear . rahhs . i wnt quit blogger le . if not i evrythg oso talk about him le . haha .
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i feel realy weird lor . so i stop here le ! byebye pple , imissyou ok :D
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ILOVEKIANHUI*
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my dearest niece (: 3 months !

337 x3

2007-12-22T01:12:00.000+08:00

its 1.13am , just about 2 hours 47 minutes & one happie day will pass . i told you i love people easily de ma . but i got control . & all this while i did control . but for my dear boy , i let myself free , i let my heart go to him , as i knw , i will be taken care of if i am with him . yeah , my heart is taken .
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since i fall in love easily , i dont fall out of love easily though . form now onwards i wont fight a war that i will lose in . not that i treat this as a war la ! but , i mean , i am going be sure tht this is going to last long ok . i love you , bendan :D
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anw now i outside , not at home luh . i going to be at genting & auntie house from tmr until tuesday which is christmas night . i am gg buy present for my dearest aiai , hubby , jianing , alvin , shanran didi & sean ! weewees . i will miss them badly luh . i cannot spend time with aiai ! but i can spend my night with my dearest dear & frens ma :D now i with kianhui & shanran . zhudidi :D he very funnie la . & damn sweet to girlf. luh . hope he dont go in & can last long long with jesline (: although i dont knw who is jesline but shanran treat her really good lor . haha . &&&JESSELYN CANDYPIE (: loves to you luh . kianhui got entertained till her i think ! but i nvr talk to her sia . bcos i really very paiseh luh . shy bodoh ! ver no use luh . mm . her voice very cute de (:
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dhen dear de audition very good leih . envy ): hm .
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they smoking outside now . i am happie tonight ! i am good ok . i spend time with my friends just before going malaysia (: its quite early now luh . i will go back at around 4+-5 ba ?
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christmas is coming ~ wee . if you all want to contact me right , ask me for de no. & not my now de hp no. ok . i wish evryone an advanced merry&happie christmas ok .
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again , always , hoping for very long , i love kianhui , & kianhui love me too xD
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i love all my darlings too . takecares & mwak :D miss me !
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i love you x3

336 x3

2007-12-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

i am happie ok . ok la , tell you la , i love kianhui . :D
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went to watch alvin&chipmunks . super excited . dhen blahblah . talk on fone with dearest . dhen bathe all tht go that dhen go cwp le (: tell you ar , he very sexy . he say de . l0l . bcos he superman ma . b4 that most happie thg le la . I SAW CUTIE & STEADY . jiaren &meiling ! i m like so super happie to see them k . super . talk abit . hehs . dhen i go meet kianhui le . go arcade . blah blah . 6th floor . uncle tidbits . dhen go cinema le . chipmunks damn cute theodore is love . HAHA . why is alvin & de chipmunks cannot theodore & the chipmunks leih ? bias ):
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okok la , 5 stars i give 4 , actually will give 3.5 , but bcos of darling theodore i give 4 xD hahaha . yeah , it isnt as nice as i expected ! but sweet ok ^^
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later going to sean hse dhen going to near kianhui hse de park . gg le la . i am tired . haha (: - take care pple . x3
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2007-12-21T04:12:00.000+08:00

Post 335 , Day Friday , Date 21.12.o7 , Time 4am . i will remember , & tht is iloveyou .
promises made from this day date & time onwards will be made & kept .
i will not make any mistakes again , i'll try not to , & if i do , i will slap myself .
i trust you , dont make me not to .
this will be a happie & simple , yet completed storie that evryone will envy .
heart itchy ? want knw who ? DONT TELL YOU . haha .
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2007-12-11T17:00:00.000+08:00

i am not exactly in a happie mood . i am super tired . & troubled by many thgs . talk about happie thg first (:
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went with jianing alvin tonglee to see de court thg for kianhui & gang . tonglee nvr go court but he's de latest to reach ._. took mrt . took such a long time . dhen , cb , my hp drop on de ground dhen like smash like tht . my case cracked . fk luhs . sb paiseh k . dhennn . reach chinatown dhen they go de kopitiam or whtevr thts called to eat . dhen , we pei them to court there , dhen we four + brandon & pinky we go walk walk around . go this shopping centre in chinatown look for pool centres . dont hv . go another one , dont hv . dhen we go sit at macd . listen to them talk talk . jianing slp . haha . she wake up say slp dhen not hungry liao . dhen , she say want slp summore , later wake up dhen eat . lmao . cute can . lol . dhen blahs . sumone called . saying alfrey & guanyi go in . shag . supposingly . but on de way back to de court dere i keep laffing i oso dont knw why . lmao . guanyi very funnie . HAHA . going in still laff like nth matter , funnie ok ! dhen others oso quite happie cos they nth (: not close with them , but see them happie oso find it very happie so i also happie :D
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dhen they talk cock all de way . sit at kopitiam . dhen very funnie la they all . lmao . dhen i become a very strong 2nd hand smoker ._. HAHA .
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went to POLAR de bakery dere . sit down , buy cake for alfrey . haha . sit dere very long , kianhui & others keep at dere disiao each other , very fun , dhen keep laffing . haha . dhen jianing keep 'rape' guanyi . kelian can . lolol . he also keep kana soot . dhen cake ok liao , alfrey oso come liao , sing bday song dhen de guys eat de cake . dhen they take foto . they need go back dere by 2pm , we send them dere dhen we six go back wdl . pinkyalvinbrandon go fragrant , jianing&tonglee wait for gladys go wdl centre , dhen i go home , cos very tired .
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to this certain person , i dont knw you will see this anot :
maybe my attitude to you change le , maybe to better le . i can be quite sure luh . but de thg is , you like keep avoiding me dhen dont wnt talk to me like tht . i feel very very super sad . bcos , we used to be quite good frens who keep disiao each other de leih . dhen . i often hang out with you clique bcos i can talk to de pple in de clique . now , i cant seem to communicate well with anyone . its my attittude , i guess . i dont knw how to change , so pls . either accept tht attitude or just tell me straight in de face . i will like it , duhs . i dont like de distance between us now . friendship turns sour . pls , talk to me normally again .
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anw , thnks jianing for pei-ing me to chat today on de way there & back . haha . & wish de bois who nvr go in will stay happie alrights . dont get into more trouble le !
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i might seem to act good with anyone else . but i dont . i hate tht step friendly attitude & so , i am true to evryone . okays . whtevr . i am talking rubbish again le .
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back to blogging tonight . byes . i want go find my friends again .
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alone like this chair . you over there with yr darling gf kiss kiss . wtfuck .

Touching Love Story

2007-08-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

在一次两人共进晚餐的夜晚，女孩跟男孩提出分手的要求 ...男孩起先楞了一下，然后默默的接受了 ...女孩说我们还是好朋友。男孩说：嗯 ~ 对呀！只要妳有任何困难，我一定会帮妳的。然后像平时一样傻笑 ... 就这样，平静的吃完他们的最后一次晚餐。之后男孩还是每天打电话给女孩。问她过的怎样？回到家了吗？吃饱了吗？女孩虽然觉得有点奇怪，但也理所当然的接受男孩的关心。直到那女孩在一次迁怒的情况下对那男孩说：那跟你没有关系！！男孩淡淡的说：抱歉 ~ 打扰了 ...原来那女孩和他现在的男友吵架了，可怜的男孩成了出气筒。隔了一天后，女孩就再也没有接到男孩的电话了。女孩觉得奇怪，但也没有去多想。又过了几天，男孩还是没有打电话给女孩。女孩心想：搞甚么？才骂他两句就给我耍脾气，真是的。算了，到底是自己理亏，还是我打给他好了。顺便，告诉他男生别要这么小气。可是，女孩打了半天还是没有找到男孩。电话没有人接就算了，可是男孩的电话还已经 "暂停使用" 了。女孩开始觉得奇怪了 ...她跑到男孩的公司找男孩，但是男孩的同事说那个男孩早就离职了。男孩的老板是男孩的好朋友，于是女孩就问他那男孩去了哪里呢？他老板说：我不知道，我也在找他呀！女孩不死心，直接打电话去男孩的家，男孩的家人说男孩出国了。女孩心想奇怪了！男孩的家境并不富裕，怎么可能让他出国呢？(事实上男孩的家境也是女孩跟他分手的原因之一吧！)再说他要出国就算没告诉我，他的朋友也该知道吧？真奇怪呢？满心怀疑的她带着满心的疑问回到家中。突然她发现她的信箱里有一封信。她打开来看 ... 是男孩写的信 ...这下她确定男孩的确是出国了，只是没有说去了哪里。女孩心想：可恶的猪头，走也不会说一声！从此以后虽然女孩没有再见过男孩，但是总会定期的收到男孩的信。特别是重要的日子，如女孩的生日时他会祝她生日快乐并附带礼物，情人节时也不忘祝她幸福和送她鲜花，圣诞节更是不用说，就连女孩考大学都会收到他鼓励的卡片。所以虽然女孩已经很久没有见过男孩了，但是都还能感受到男孩的关怀。只是女孩发现男孩寄给她的信，几乎都是没有寄信住址的，要不然就是转寄的，真是怪了？彷佛是友人直接把信放在她的信箱里的 ...？而且也不晓得为甚么男孩的朋友们都变的对她特别好？不但生日有礼物，还会邀她一起出去玩。更甚的是只要是男孩的朋友而且是女生的话，还会主动邀她去逛街，聊天，讲电话，嘘寒问暖等等。关怀的举动，令女孩觉得奇怪。但时间一久了，女孩也习惯了。那段日子，她觉得好快乐好幸福。直到 ... 女孩有一天发现男孩已经很久没有寄信给她了 ...她觉得奇怪，但心想算了，可能最近男孩比较忙吧？但是一个星期过去了，女孩还是没有收到半封信。她开始慌了 ... 她不知道她为何会慌，只知道她很想看男孩的信 ...两年以来男孩总是会写信给女孩，特别是在特别的日子里，总有男孩从远方捎来暖暖的祝福，陪她继续走下去 ... 虽然女孩没办法回信 ...这已经是女孩生活的一部份了，但是如今突然之间消失了，女孩发现好像少了一个依靠。女孩开始四处打听男孩的下落。到以前男孩常去的咖啡厅，茶店，书店，网吧 ... 一坐一待就是一整天 ...只希望能看到男孩，但是都没有。男孩好像就此从世上蒸发了。她抱着最后的希望到了男孩的好朋友的公司，问男孩的朋友及同事男孩的下落 ...男孩的同事中有个女生被女孩一问竟然哭了。女孩问她怎么了？公司的老板说：喂 ~ 拿去打给这个人吧！妳就知道他去哪里了。女孩一看，是一张有手机号码的便条纸。女孩很开心，心想，总算被我找到了吧！女孩打了手机 ...：喂 ~~~ ？手机那端传来的是一个男生的声音。虽然女孩已经快两年没见过男孩了，但是她确定电话里的人不是男孩。女孩说：请问 ...对方还没听女孩讲完就说：喔，我知道你是谁了。妳找我哥哥的吧？我等妳很久了...你现在有时间吗？方便出来吗？我们约个地方详谈吧。妳就会明白的 ...女孩一头雾水的来到和男孩的弟弟约定的地方。女孩一看就知道他的确是男孩的弟弟。因为的确是蛮像的。女孩迫不及待的问：妳哥哥呢？男孩的弟弟没说话，只是静静的从手提袋里拿出一封信递给女孩。抱歉 ... 其实这封信前几天就该拿给妳的了，只是我不知道我应该怎么拿给妳，所以才拖到今天 ...原来这两年的信都是你写给我的！？女孩惊讶的问。不不不不！我只是代我哥哥交给妳罢了。干嘛要那么麻烦呀？真是的，故作神秘 ...女孩虽然嘴中念念有词，但是还是难掩脸上的兴奋。她打开了信 ...嗨 ~ 小岚，妳最近过的好吗？天气开始转凉了，妳要自己小心身体啊。书读的如何呢？别太贪玩了知道吗？呵呵 ~ 把你说的像小孩子一样，抱歉抱歉 ...只是，我真的放心不下妳。妳总是这么需要人关心，需要人保护。不过妳放心吧！我已经交待我的死党们要好好照顾妳的了。因为在妳看这封信的时候，我早就到了一个很远的地方了。我没有办法再继续照顾妳了，但我真的放心不下妳。所以我用了这个办法来陪妳度过接下来的日子。希望妳不要介意，但是这封信很可能是我最后的一封信了。因为我的时间到了 ...很抱歉我真的不是不想见妳，只是我不愿意让你看到我现在的样子，更加不希望因为我而让妳伤心难过。希望妳开开心心的，这是我最大的愿望呀！而且妳也快联考了吧。如果因为我害妳没考上，我大概永远也没办法原谅自己。因为这是我的最后要求 ...算一算大概有二百多封了吧？呵呵 ~ 希望妳不会嫌我太过啰唆。我虽然快离开了，但是我没有后悔曾经跟妳在一起过。跟妳在一起的日子我很开心。虽然，妳最后不是选择我 ...但这样也好，不然我真的不知道要怎么跟妳提分手。因为我不想连累妳 ... 毕竟这样的我是不可能给妳幸福的。跟妳分手后，我的身体越来越差了。到了医院检查，医生告诉我，我只有三个月的寿命了 ...还好妳提早跟我分手了，不然 ... 呵呵 ~ 妳果然冰雪聪明。所以我将日子算一算，照着年历写了二百多封信，再叫我弟弟帮我依照日期寄给妳，就好像我还在妳身边陪伴着妳一样。算算已经有两年了吧？我想妳对我的感觉也比较淡了吧？应该比较能接受这个事实了吧？所以我在这个时候写了这最后的一封信。再说，我也没有办法再写下去了 ...希望妳会原谅我，我不知道这样告诉妳真相，对妳的影响会不会很大 ...如果会，抱歉这次我没有办法再安慰妳了 ...我只想告诉你，我爱妳 ... 我恨不得能一辈子照顾妳。就算最后妳跟另一个男子携手走向红毯的另一端，我也希望能继续当妳的朋友。但我能吗？我不能了 ... 因为上天给我的时间到了。虽然短促但是我并不觉得后悔，因为我的人生是完整的。就像我们的恋情虽然短暂，但是我觉得还是值得的。谢谢妳陪我谈了我今生的第一段，亦是最后一段的恋爱。如果时间能重来，我想我不会去追妳 ... 不会去爱上妳 ...但过去能重来吗？当然不能 ... 所以我还是伤了妳。如果明天的付出，等待，能让妳我长相厮守的话，我一定会去做。但我有明天吗？没有 ... 所以我还是会离开妳。如果我现在能无牵无挂的离开人间，就表示我已经不再爱妳，不再在乎妳 ...但我眼角的泪水已经告诉我，我放不下妳 ...所以是的，我仍然是很爱妳的 ...不要为我哭，因为爱过妳我很幸福。割断一段因缘很简单，只要忘记思念的方法就可以了。所以，忘了我吧，小岚。我在天国也会永远祝妳幸福快乐。爱妳的轩 1999/10/25 XX医院女孩看着信上的日期是他们当时分手的一个月后 ...也就是她跟他说 "那跟你没有关系！！" 的隔天 ...那天天气转凉了，秋天到了。那天晚上，在那男孩的家门前，一个女孩抱着一封信痛哭失声 ...　

Chinese Dance Chalet

2007-06-07T23:30:00.001+08:00

from 1st day to 3rd day~

lalalas.
LOL gladys tink this is so funnie xD
naughty gladys!
cute liting
szeling da jie?
shawn! =O
xt sry picture not taken properly T.T
style leih xD
her hand small small de
gladys and mine
xt so cute and bushuang xD
laopo ai ni!
dun sad liting =(

small mirror! *&^%$##
cool seh xD
ting and min
two ghost one girl =x

lol~ we are young at heart :D
random me =D

emo xt blur gladys
elaine pop below lol

i wan baobaomian!
i love dis picture!
yays de five =D
>:[
we sb bu shuang leih~

emo kias~
hmm? bleah!
starring sexy gladys =x
muackssss
i kissed her TONGUE

diao diao diao diao shen me diao!
LOL. i blur she siao!
emo la!
oh no =O
two black heads =D

random.
no i dunwan go away =x hee.
she relaxing!
so smiley leih :D
dun look at me like dis~

stupid luh!
kisses=)
dun cry babieee
like rat hor
peace~

kan shen me kan! >:[
i kiss you :D
dun zuo sha shi!
piak!
gladys sad sia.

jiamin emo liao!

bang bang bang!ZILIAN!
gladys emo liao.
dun reject me huh!

dark dark de.
muacks! LOL
gladys wan ice cream
loving seh.

i wan ice cream oso =(
aiai tongue very long
i so happie huh?
de evil twinnies lol
this is call zilian~

yummie =D

xin ting (:
jiamin is fading. but her smile's nt =D
KZB foreva (:
my forever is fading~

sistas for life =)
gladys footprints?
liting bu yao zuo sha shi! :O
gladys kiap between us lol
i love dis (:

sky so nice~
my face damn zhuai -.- but love them la! whrs jiayee :O
me and ting zilian-ing
mirror mirror xD

at tampines mall de toilet =D